Transitioning at work and in all of my life

[Danya (imported)]

One year in real life is a huge date and is a must for the big date! Of course I like grapes better then dates (A bad pun) as my personal big date(s) resulted in my big grape(s). Ahh... ok... Next message will be in Morse Code to make it even more difficult to follow

- .-. .. -. .- -.. .- -.. --- .-. -... ..- ... - !

Hi MrT,

I appreciate your response, although I suspect it would have come off as even more funny to hear it. Since I don't know Morse code, I'll give you the benefit of the doubt and assume you wrote about something of earth-shattering significance. Or a bawdy joke, perhaps??

Yes, the one year Real Life Test, Experience or whatever you want to call it is required for the BIG DATE. So is one-year of hormone therapy. I won't reach that milestone until June 9, 2009. Anyway, the surgery date is many months into the future. I'm working on that.

Hugs,

Danya

[Danya (imported)]

I'm feeling very alone this evening and I'm not sure why. It's got me kind of down, actually.

Speaking with an Archive friend helped a lot. After we spoke, though, this feeling of being alone and, really, unloved, returned. I don't usually feel this way so I am concerned.

My English trans friend says I need an 'Erica Ann' where I live. She's right.

I got a lot of exercise today, which I had been neglecting (foolishly) because of the demands of my job. I spent several hours walking at the arboretum, where I took close to 180 photos of early spring flowers. This did not help me feel better. The fact that I took so many photos may have worsened my mental state.

As usual, I did not mind sitting and even lying on the ground to get the best camera shots. Unusually for me, I wore slacks today just so I could get in these positions. I've never noticed anyone else going to these lengths to get photos at the Arboretum. The employees seem to understand. Flowers really have little desire to attract the attention of humans, after all. They want to lure pollinators. So the most interesting parts of the flowers may not be visible at standing height. At one point, a young woman passed as I was almost on my back, looking through the camera down the throat of a blossom a few inches from the lens. She asked "What are you doing?" I thought this would be obvious. I just smiled at her.

I have a few ideas ab

out what's going on in my head.

I need to sort through those to set things right.

Now that I have let go of some of the mental energy I needed to keep up with work, my body has decided to become more demanding. It wants more sleep and exercise. I know I need these, but I'm reluctant to 'waste' time on more sleep than I have been used to getting. Exercise....I will spend time on this because I know it helps me feel better.

I'm not in a good place tonight at all, but I am certain I will recover.

[mrt (imported)]

Hi MrT,

I appreciate your response, although I suspect it would have come off as even more funny to hear it. Since I don't know Morse code, I'll give you the benefit of the doubt and assume you wrote about something of earth-shattering significance. Or a bawdy joke, perhaps??

Yes, the one year Real Life Test, Experience or whatever you want to call it is required for the BIG DATE. So is one-year of hormone therapy. I won't reach that milestone until June 9, 2009. Anyway, the surgery date is many months into the future. I'm working on that.

Hugs,

Danya

What??? you don't speak Morse Code?! Well the translation is (Trinidad or bust)

[Danya (imported)]

What??? you don't speak Morse Code?! Well the translation is (Trinidad or bust)

If you wrote that in Latin or German, I would have had a chance of deciphering it!

Trinidad. Somehow, I don't think you mean Trinidad and Tobago.

It is very likely I will choose the Trinidad option.

Hugs,

Danya

[Danya (imported)]

I'm feeling very alone this evening and I'm not sure why. It's got me kind of down, actually....

I'm not in a good place tonight at all, but I am certain I will recover.

For some reason, I'm already starting to feel better. Yet I don't think I should be feeling better.

What I mean is, I still have some emotional work to do. I can allow myself to feel better as I finish that.

[mrt (imported)]

In that case

Vestri trinus ut Trinidad ero valde remuneror. Bonus fortuna !

[Danya (imported)]

In that case

Vestri trinus ut Trinidad ero valde remuneror. Bonus fortuna !

In which case, I will gently remind you that I noted I would have a better chance with Latin than Morse code. I did not say I would succeed.

In addition, I suspect your latest response is based on church Latin, not the classical Latin which I learned. OK, I'm rationalizing here, church Latin or not. I did learn classical Latin over four years at a public high school. That was a very long time ago, in a state far, far away.

Nonetheless, I will give this a shot which will likely be way off. I am stumped by 'trinus' which would seem to mean 'triple'. Perhaps you intend 'trip?'

"Your ? to Trinidad then will be a great reward. Good luck."

Ex corde, mei amicus

Danya

[mrt (imported)]

Yes! Trip! Excellent!

Personally I'm much better at morse code but I don't do it well by sight.

I'm impressed that your High School (A Public school???) taught you Latin. I learned mostly running and fist fighting. I went to the Sgt Schultz school. I KNOW NOTHING!

In which case, I will gently remind you that I noted I would have a better chance with Latin than Morse code. I did not say I would succeed.

In addition, I suspect your latest response is based on church Latin, not the classical Latin which I learned. OK, I'm rationalizing here, church Latin or not. I did learn classical Latin over four years at a public high school. That was a very long time ago, in a state far, far away.

Nonetheless, I will give this a shot which will likely be way off. I am stumped by 'trinus' which would seem to mean 'triple'. Perhaps you intend 'trip?'

"Your ? to Trinidad then will be a great reward. Good luck."

Ex corde, mei amicus

Danya

[EricaAnn (imported)]

I'm feeling very alone this evening and I'm not sure why. It's got me kind of down, actually.

Speaking with an Archive friend helped a lot. After we spoke, though, this feeling of being alone and, really, unloved, returned. I don't usually feel this way so I am concerned.

My English trans friend says I need an 'Erica Ann' where I live. She's right.

I'm not in a good place tonight at all, but I am certain I will recover.

Hi Danya,

You can always call me, no matter what time of the day or night. Everyone needs someone they can talk to and I'm always and will always be there for you my "sister."

We have traveled a path that most transgendered people can only dream of and in many ways we have completed this journey or have come close to it.

I'll call you tonight if I don't hear from you first. I'm concerned, but don't worry, we'll both get through this together.

[mrt (imported)]

"Mrs T" the dog cat fish and kids and I are sending the love so don't get down.

If you need some cheering up just buzz me on the phone. Morse code is optional...