Pursuing a dream

[plix (imported)]

That's a good point decon, though not recently I did pursue chemical castration once before as, ironically enough, I was living in Mexico. I did it for a period of 8 month. Reasons I stopped are numerous but most of it quite frankly is it didn't feel like the "real" thing. Also, as much as living the castrated life I have a serious distaste for my balls and will be so much happier with them gone. Though I wasn't too specific that's what I meant by I don't know exactly what it will be like.

OK, I can give you some credit for how long you have been contemplating this and also the fact that you have done some chemical.

But there are still questions. I would be interested in knowing more about the reasons you quit chemical. Why did you not think it felt like the real thing? If you were uncomfortable with chemical, what makes you think you are going to be OK with surgical?

Also, why does it have to be a female vet crushing your balls? How would you feel about a male doctor removing them through traditional surgery under general anaesthesia in a hospital? If that were your only option to get castrated, would you even be getting castrated at all?

[falutennuts (imported)]

Those are some very good questions plix... First I quit chemical for a few reasons none of which are really that great. Mainly I moved and access was reduced though its still readily accessible I just didn't pursue it. I didn't actually think it would take this long to have my desire come to fruition. I glad I have waited though as I feel more certain than ever.

As far as method no it doesn’t have to be a female vet. It does need to be someone who I can feel like I gave it my best shot at being prudent while pursuing a very dangerous activity. I have never liked mine or any other testacies. The word and everything about them is not me. That is why I have chosen this method. Revenge for the last 30 years they’ve been riding on me I guess you could say.

Basically all in all we are adding a step to having them surgically removed. Instead of removing a couple of intact testacies she will be taking and disposing of mush. I have chosen her because she not only agrees but has hopefully enough medical talent to get me through.

I know that the event is just that “an event” and I will be living with the consequences for the rest of my life. However, I am ever so eager to plunge into that life.

All in all I will admit I am still nervous it’s a majorly huge undertaking. Everyday closer to the 25th my nerves are that much more heightened. I guess it’s hard to be 102% sure on something of this magnitude and risk.

[gpb3aol (imported)]

Preacting medicine without a licence is a B felony in most states. Show some care for your friend. If you haven't lived for 6 months, I think a year under chemical castration you are doing a really uninformed thing (some would say dumb). You have no idea how your going to handle it. Some men, many, can not deal or deal well with the effects of castration without the use of HRT. There are potential dangers with HRT. You need to test drive castration before you do something you can't reverse. Then rock out. (no pun intended)

[A-1 (imported)]

Yes thank you Bobbie. We intend to clamp the base so that basically the surgery will occur right after the play and there wont be back up into my body. She is a vet and has done many animals but this will be her first human and first crushing experiance but feel fairly confident that she should be able to take care of anything that arises.

However, there are risks, I know, but hopefully it goes ok as we live out a fantasy and all goes well.

Thanks for the concern

I think that it is a better idea to crush them AFTER they are removed SURGICALLY.

What you are contemplating is a violent act upon yourself. Technically, it can be classified as a MUNCHAUSEN SYNDROME.

That means that you are not in as good mental health as you think that you are.

Now, don't get angry, I am trying to help you.

DO NOT do something to your body out of ANGER. You should do this because you want to help your body.

I am not saying don't do it. What I am saying is that you are risking your life and health with a scene that is a kind of REVENGE against your body because you see your body as being the wrong gender.

You need to sort through your feelings and do this out of something other than anger and revenge against your present gender...

O.K.?

In other words, you owe it to yourself to get a good doctor and surgeon to do this to you because anything less is risking your health all for a little petty revenge.

Please try to understand what I am trying to tell you...

[falutennuts (imported)]

I don't think its a little petty revenge A-1. This is something to mark cerimoniously a transition to a world that I would rather live in. It's not a sudden idea that just popped up. I have tried chemical and believe that we are approching this in the "safest" way possible to carry out a dream. Yes it would be safer to have them removed surgically and then crush but then it would also be safer to just leave them dangling between my legs. To me thats not living my life the way I want to.

I know it's risky but hopefully we've covered all bases. That's why I've posted and I appreciate all the input though. I am still on for the 25th but am not opposed to hearing anything I should know before hand.

[A-1 (imported)]

I don't think its a little petty revenge A-1. This is something to mark cerimoniously a transition to a world that I would rather live in. It's not a sudden idea that just popped up. I have tried chemical and believe that we are approching this in the "safest" way possible to carry out a dream. Yes it would be safer to have them removed surgically and then crush but then it would also be safer to just leave them dangling between my legs. To me thats not living my life the way I want to.

I know it's risky but hopefully we've covered all bases. That's why I've posted and I appreciate all the input though. I am still on for the 25th but am not opposed to hearing anything I should know before hand.

Just so your "RIGHT OF PASSAGE" isn't a one-way trip to a cemetary. That's my concern for you. It is not so much living life the way you want to but experiencing death unexpectedly.

There are lots of things to consider here, not the LEAST of which is jail time for your Vet friend if things go wrong and his role in your escapade becomes known.

You really need to think this through, my friend...

[joanne-f (imported)]

I would want to think this through if I were you. Have you ever considered having therapy? Your desire to want to see your testicles mashed to a pulp with you watching it raises some alarm bells for me. It does sound a lot like a fantasy to me. Fantasy and reality are two different things and if you survived this procedure, you may have big regrets. Why not wait and talk about it with someone? If you still really want to be castrated, you can always have it done through surgery which is a lot safer. I am saying this out of concern. I would hate to think you might be severely injured with what you plan to do and your friend could end up being imprisoned. Just think about it.

[bobbie (imported)]

Lets us say you have a 50% chance of ending up in the hospital. That is a very conservative number based on the experiences posted on this site. You go to the ER you have an over whelming chance you will spend some time in a mental ward as well. The ER will look at the self harm as a destructive personality. That is potentially dangerous and needs observation. That would real good on your medical records for all to see spending time in mental hospital. Do not laugh or brush it off. I know of many guys that ended up in the mental wards. One was in the hospital for almost a month.

From what you have posted your desires are based on fantasy and perhaps fetish. Once you are castrated you desires will be over with and the reality of your choice will set in and find that you are a very unhappy eunuch.

[BossTamsin (imported)]

Personally, I'd say the biggest risk with crushing the testes isn't the bleeding, it's the amazingly high risk of going into shock. I'm not a veterinary expert, but at a guess I'm gonna assume she's not equipped (either by training or in terms of actual gear) to handle events should that happen. That's when things go downhill rather quickly, and immediate medical intervention is required.

[falutennuts (imported)]

I think everyone is not realizing that the base and cords will be constricted past the point of really making a difference what happens past that point. Also they will be numbed to reduce the risk of shock. Nothing is certain but we're not just rushing into it.

Seems like it popular belief that I'll end up in the loony bin but I don't feel that’s the case. I can't stress enough that this isn't a all of a sudden decision and yes I'm prepared for life after. The only difference between what I want and surgical is one extra step. Yeah it adds danger but I don't think it's a guarantee to get me in the loony bin anymore so than just surgical.

I can’t say how much added risk there is but how come it’s ok to do just plain surgical and not this. I have even read a few threads about surgical without any numbing. How is that not a risk for shock?