twaddler (imported) wrote: Thu May 27, 2010 1:46 pm
I thought SSRIs just removed or curtailed the ability, not the actual sexual desire.. ?
An interesting point and question, and I'm not sure that I have the answer. I can say that my desire to masturbate has almost completely disappeared (which I am very happy about), and I haven't looked at anything erotic online since the drug took effect. The last time I ejaculated was in the early hours of May 28, which was when I had only taken one pill of Lexapro. A couple of days later I had zero desire to masturbate. So it's been almost two weeks now since I've done this. In the past week I have had some 'morning glory,' but once I get up and have the pill I have nothing going on for the rest of the day (I'm still just on the 10mg).
Maybe I will still have to ejaculate once or twice a month, since what I am taking is sort of a blocker (right?), so would there still be a buildup of sperm? As I suspected, I seem to have a lower sex drive to most other men, which is why the drug has worked so effectively (and another reason why I was able to look at going down this path in the first place.....eventually I was able to see past my penis!).
The drug is not changing my needs.....I am happy to say. I still need to be with a woman, and this has proven to me (which I have been VERY cynical about) that I can and do love women genuinely. It does not have anything to do with sex (others would still argue this with me, but the important thing is that I know it within myself).
And as far as curtailing the actual sexual desire? If an attractive woman suddenly appears on the television I am partly compelled to look, and when the shot goes elsewhere I still 'want' the camera to pan back to her. But at the same time I have no desire to masturbate as a result.