DP on the way

[consideringthecut (imported)]

I'm on day 25 now and took my fourth 150mg dose on the 6th (day 21). I really don't have any strong desire to copulate as I did prior to DP. Before treatment I would feel a need to get off several times per week. Sometimes at work my balls or glans would begin throbbing for many minutes or hours. That hasn't happened in several weeks. I don't feel any need to look at women who pass my way. I noticed the butt of the woman walking in front of me this afternoon and the open cleavage of the waitress this evening at the bar, but I didn't feel any compulsion to take a long look or have a second look. It was more like "There's a woman's butt," and "There's some cleavage," but I didn't dwell on it or feel any need to engage either woman in any way. I'm pretty content. I feel like my sex drive is controlled now. My wife and I had sex on Sunday for the fourth time since I began DP. It wasn't difficult for me to get erect. I kissed her neck and her breasts for a little while and I was hard. It felt like a normal erection, no softer than before DP. I came in about the same amount of time as usual. It was an orgasm, but I wasn't dying in ecstasy or anything spectacular. I think she was ready to have intercourse, so with deference to Mr. T. I'll try and force myself on her more regularly. I'll inject again on Sunday and begin spreading out the doses until I'm at one every three to four weeks.

[HairyHarry (imported)]

One thing I appreciate about men is they are often "direct" and to the point. Women rarely just "say it" no matter what "it" is.

I can't tell you how many times I've asked Mrs T to just tell me what she wants or what the problem is. Its very frustraiting.

"coy" is cute at times but....

About ten years ago I realised that nearly every time I asked Mrs HH about having intercourse, it caused an upset to some degree. So I decided that I wouldn't ask her again, but would perform if she asked me, but is somebody else asked, I wouldn't automatically refuse them. (One has, but I didn't fancy him)

Since then we get on better, in fact in 1997 we had intercourse 15 times, but now it's once a year on average.

[consideringthecut (imported)]

On day 33 now. Took my fifth injection yesterday and will take my next in a couple of weeks. I'm liking the levelness of life right now. My sex drive definitely isn't controlling me any longer. No real (negative) side effects to report. I've got a visit with an endocrinologist tomorrow afternoon to discuss the lab results from July that show elevated LH and normal testosterone.

[mrt (imported)]

I'm on day 25 now and took my fourth 150mg dose on the 6th (day 21). I really don't have any strong desire to copulate as I did prior to DP. Before treatment I would feel a need to get off several times per week. Sometimes at work my balls or glans would begin throbbing for many minutes or hours. That hasn't happened in several weeks. I don't feel any need to look at women who pass my way. I noticed the butt of the woman walking in front of me this afternoon and the open cleavage of the waitress this evening at the bar, but I didn't feel any compulsion to take a long look or have a second look. It was more like "There's a woman's butt," and "There's some cleavage," but I didn't dwell on it or feel any need to engage either woman in any way. I'm pretty content. I feel like my sex drive is controlled now. My wife and I had sex on Sunday for the fourth time since I began DP. It wasn't difficult for me to get erect. I kissed her neck and her breasts for a little while and I was hard. It felt like a normal erection, no softer than before DP. I came in about the same amount of time as usual. It was an orgasm, but I wasn't dying in ecstasy or anything spectacular. I think she was ready to have intercourse, so with deference to Mr. T. I'll try and force myself on her more regularly. I'll inject again on Sunday and begin spreading out the doses until I'm at one every three to four weeks.

Hey, don't do anything on my account! I think "control" is not quite correct. On HRT I feel the "control" signals of Testosterone. These lead me to be sexual. To crave it and to enjoy it very much. Without HRT there is not "signal" I don't see any need or even reason to be sexual. I can think of sex as just "wet and messy" thus not very appealing.

Has she ever commented on your lowering your testosterone levels? I'm curious what she thinks. Is it a win win? Some women clearly don't need or want so much sex. Others do, but would never admit it.

[consideringthecut (imported)]

Has she ever commented on your lowering your testosterone levels? I'm curious what she thinks. Is it a win win? Some women clearly don't need or want so much sex. Others do, but would never admit it.

I've been asking her regularly for the past coulple weeks, but there hasn't been a lot of response; one to be precise. She has been having her period this week so that accounts for some of it.

As my sex drive has slackened, I've gotten more perspective. Not being in the midst of a "libido crisis", I'm not interested in castration or even getting to castration levels via hormones. I concur with Ramses, I'm more interested in getting my sex drive to a point where it's not driving me. I'd say I'm there. Now I just need to figure out what the correct spacing of maintenance doses is to keep the balance.

[ramses (imported)]

I've been asking her regularly for the past coulple weeks, but there hasn't been a lot of response; one to be precise. She has been having her period this week so that accounts for some of it.

As my sex drive has slackened, I've gotten more perspective. Not being in the midst of a "libido crisis", I'm not interested in castration or even getting to castration levels via hormones. I concur with Ramses, I'm more interested in getting my sex drive to a point where it's not driving me. I'd say I'm there. Now I just need to figure out what the correct spacing of maintenance doses is to keep the balance.

One injection (150mg) every 3 to 4 weeks should do it, from what I've read. I'm pretty happy with the level I'm at now.

[consideringthecut (imported)]

I went to see the endocrinologist yesterday. He did a very thorough workup and exam only to tell me that he really can't tell me much with me on DP, which I expected anyway. That being said I'm going to go off for some undetermined amount of time, so we can see what caused the elevated LH (if it wasn't an aberation). He mentioned that it could be a benign petuitary tumor, for example, but only labs or an MRI are going to show that and an MRI wouldn't show other causes. I'll go in for labs in a month and see him back in six weeks. My drive issues seem to cause me problems in irregular cycles (a month or three, sometimes six) and I want to see if he thinks a hormonal spike could be driving it or if it's just in my head. Well, enough of me playing junior doctor. I'll chat at 'cha later.

[ramses (imported)]

You may consider 20-40 mg/day of prozac to help keep your drive in check.

[consideringthecut (imported)]

Well, it's been nearly three months since my last post. Except for the occasional lurk, I haven't been on much. I started to do an update a couple of times but didn't. However I wanted to let you know what's been going on since my last post. I had labs drawn on October 17 after being off DP for 1 month. I went back to see the endocrinologist in early November. My labs were all in the normal range, although most were in the bottom quartile of the range. At that point I didn't think that my libido had even gotten back to normal, much less high. He and I decided that I would stay off DP until my next "libido crisis", at which point I would call him and have labs redrawn so we can see if there is a corrolation between my perceived libido and my body's chemistry.

So it's been over three months since I took my last DP injection. I certainly haven't had an over-active libido, and I wouldn't even say it's returned to where it has been normally for most of my adult life. I'll try and qualify a few areas.

Sex with my wife: I never lost the ability to get an errection or ejaculate, but errections required a little more effort on DP. We probably had sex every other week. Since going off, we probably average 1 to 2 times per week. It's been pretty conventional. I think I've gone down on on her twice since August, she's given me a BJ once. I've done some anal play for her once, which she really enjoys once she's warmed up. Other than that, it's been missionary with me on top. Orgasms are starting to return to their pre-DP intensity. Errections still require more effort than before, but that may just be the age and stage or it could be lingering effects of DP.

Wife's performance: I still don't have much interest in things that I used to dwell on for long periods of time and then demand if I couldn't sweet talk her like stripteases, lap dances, blow jobs, wearing g-strings or lingerie. If she wanted to that would be fine and I'm sure it would be a turn on, but I haven't been worked up about any of it since.

Sensation: One thing that used to drive me nuts (pardon the pun) was my glans or testicles throbbing for long periods of time, while I was at work, which was part of the whole libido-through-the-roof thing. This has happened less than a handful of times since going off DP and for much shorter durations (5 mins or less).

Morning errections: The first one that I noticed was 30 days out from my last injection on the morning I had my labs drawn. I do notice them from time to time, but not every morning. I assume I'm having them but that they've gone down by the time I wake up.

Porn: After I began taking DP, I purposefully began viewing porn as a yardstick of interest. If I got arroused I would beat off. After about two weeks (check the archive) I just didn't care any more. Looking at a beautiful naked woman, was no more compelling than looking at any other picture, perhaps less so. I just viewed it as a waste of time. I still haven't been drawn to porn in the slightest.

Checking out the babes / flirting: Given a little alcohol I might look a hot girl's butt or cleavage, as happened at company Christmas parties a couple of times, but generally speaking I don't even look in the direction of an attractive woman much less check her out, nor has there been any interest in flirting.

In summary, three months out my libido is at a very acceptable state for me and I think my wife is happy as well. I'm able to focus on the important things - family, church and work - in that order, without being distracted by If I hit the roof again at some point in the future, I plan to go back to the endocrinologist for more lab work and then I'll go from there. Based on my very positive experience, I would probably go back on DP, but I would probably start out more slowly and space them out to a month or more. The effects seem to linger, in my case anyway. The experience has given me a very healthy respect for the power of hormones. At this point, I would never "consider the cut", because I just don't see any reason to take it to that level, but in the depths of my funk in July it did seem like a very attractive option.

I'll monitor this thread for a week or so and reply as appropriate and then probably go back to lurking until there's more to say.

Merry Christmas!

[mrt (imported)]

Well, it's been nearly three months since my last post. Except for the occasional lurk, I haven't been on much. I started to do an update a couple of times but didn't. However I wanted to let you know what's been going on since my last post. I had labs drawn on October 17 after being off DP for 1 month. I went back to see the endocrinologist in early November. My labs were all in the normal range, although most were in the bottom quartile of the range. At that point I didn't think that my libido had even gotten back to normal, much less high. He and I decided that I would stay off DP until my next "libido crisis", at which point I would call him and have labs redrawn so we can see if there is a corrolation between my perceived libido and my body's chemistry.

So it's been over three months since I took my last DP injection. I certainly haven't had an over-active libido, and I wouldn't even say it's returned to where it has been normally for most of my adult life. I'll try and qualify a few areas.

Sex with my wife: I never lost the ability to get an errection or ejaculate, but errections required a little more effort on DP. We probably had sex every other week. Since going off, we probably average 1 to 2 times per week. It's been pretty conventional. I think I've gone down on on her twice since August, she's given me a BJ once. I've done some anal play for her once, which she really enjoys once she's warmed up. Other than that, it's been missionary with me on top. Orgasms are starting to return to their pre-DP intensity. Errections still require more effort than before, but that may just be the age and stage or it could be lingering effects of DP.

Wife's performance: I still don't have much interest in things that I used to dwell on for long periods of time and then demand if I couldn't sweet talk her like stripteases, lap dances, blow jobs, wearing g-strings or lingerie. If she wanted to that would be fine and I'm sure it would be a turn on, but I haven't been worked up about any of it since.

Sensation: One thing that used to drive me nuts (pardon the pun) was my glans or testicles throbbing for long periods of time, while I was at work, which was part of the whole libido-through-the-roof thing. This has happened less than a handful of times since going off DP and for much shorter durations (5 mins or less).

Morning errections: The first one that I noticed was 30 days out from my last injection on the morning I had my labs drawn. I do notice them from time to time, but not every morning. I assume I'm having them but that they've gone down by the time I wake up.

Porn: After I began taking DP, I purposefully began viewing porn as a yardstick of interest. If I got arroused I would beat off. After about two weeks (check the archive) I just didn't care any more. Looking at a beautiful naked woman, was no more compelling than looking at any other picture, perhaps less so. I just viewed it as a waste of time. I still haven't been drawn to porn in the slightest.

Checking out the babes / flirting: Given a little alcohol I might look a hot girl's butt or cleavage, as happened at company Christmas parties a couple of times, but generally speaking I don't even look in the direction of an attractive woman much less check her out, nor has there been any interest in flirting.

In summary, three months out my libido is at a very acceptable state for me and I think my wife is happy as well. I'm able to focus on the important things - family, church and work - in that order, without being distracted by If I hit the roof again at some point in the future, I plan to go back to the endocrinologist for more lab work and then I'll go from there. Based on my very positive experience, I would probably go back on DP, but I would probably start out more slowly and space them out to a month or more. The effects seem to linger, in my case anyway. The experience has given me a very healthy respect for the power of hormones. At this point, I would never "consider the cut", because I just don't see any reason to take it to that level, but in the depths of my funk in July it did seem like a very attractive option.

I'll monitor this thread for a week or so and reply as appropriate and then probably go back to lurking until there's more to say.

Merry Christmas!

Your post is very interesting. I'm wondering - do you think your use of DP has changed your testosterone output long term? For example did you notice any atrophy of your testicles? I also am pondering if being able to shut off your sex drive for a short time and look at sex "rationaly" without the constant urges screaming has made it possible for you to deal with your drive in a more productive way? When I went on HRT and started getting my drive back I felt for a short time that I was being "controlled" but also I felt Deja Vu that this was "puberty" part duex. And that helped me rein it in.

Is your wife happier with you in your current mode? ie is your sex drive now more (or less) compatable with hers?

I dunno. What a concept eh? A short vacation from being male helps us adjust better? Or perhapes its just a true change in hormone levels. Either way I find it (As Mr Spock would say) fascinating.