twaddler (imported) wrote: Fri May 11, 2007 9:51 pm
I'm still feel a bit confused about why I wanted this so badly for so long and why now I'm truly glad that it's finally done and feel much better... ? It just strikes me as intensely bizarre... but in a good way. heh.
Way you want it will likely never be fully answered. I do not think anyone really fully knows why there is the desire. It is more easy for someone to understand it if they are a woman trapped in a man's body. There is much written on that subject.
But the reasons why a male would want it is at this time harder to understand. Not much research on the topic yet. Doctors tend to have no clue why we want it. Even fewer will helps us.
Ask questions of others and of yourself to try to understand the need/desire of being an eunuch. Going the chemical castration path is a great way to understand your own reason. I know that many things that were going on inside of me and driving my being were hormone drive. In many parts of my life are much different now. Trying to understand why I thought so different before, is almost as hard to understand by desires of before.
Chemical castration can help find out if the desire is a fantasy or a real need to be an eunuch. I do not have any hard and fast numbers on this but have noticed this. Have talked to many about the chemical castration option. Many will start the drug and after a short time seem to no longer be coming to the site. I believe that once they started getting the effects they no longer wanted them. For the most part the guys that like the effect will often remain coming to the site for years. Some do take a small dose of male or female hormones to help round off some of the edges.
It also seems that many leave the site once they are castrated. Most do not here from them again. So we do not know how the like being an eunuch. I have a feeling that many of this type found out that castration was more of a fantasy and should never have been carried out. So it is best to make sure before it is too late.