Castration desire, a gay or a straight thing?
As a teenager, I used to play with my balls whenever I had the opportunity; they seemed to be the focus of my pleasuring myself. No masturbation session would pass without my balls being abused, mainly through squeezing or tying. From those early times I masturbate three or more times a day.
When I started having sex with girls, the desire to have my balls at the centre of sexual pleasure didnt diminish at all. In fact, as time passed, new activities such as electro, and heat became the norm. As my the women I encountered for sexual activity were generally a bit older than me, most enjoyed inflicting a level of torture on my jewels.
The introduction of third parties (either women of men) into the sexual activities by my mid twenties, led to an increase in the level of ball play. Actually, by this time I found it increasingly difficult to orgasm if the abuse was not hard enough. At this time I had never considered more than just jacking-off with another guy, and then only in the presence of a woman.
Finding that most of the women that I had been with did not play hard enough, I started visiting mens leather clubs (mainly in Berlin) to get a harder level of activity. But still only masturbating, and with no penetrative sex with other men.
By my early thirties, I started to crave the hard abuse sessions. As time passed I found that I could withstand higher levels of inflicted pain. By now I could withstand being hung by my balls, having guys standing on them, and even started banding sessions. Getting more into the leather scene, I started to penetrate other guys, finding this a great supplement to my otherwise heterosexual life.
At the end of my thirties, I noticed a severe decline in my sex drive, my craving for sex had almost gone completely. I thought it was just a mid-life crisis thing, and I didnt have any meaningful relationship at this time. After several weeks I decided that I should see my GP who examined me and took blood tests. During the examination he had squeezed my balls and had commented that there was little reaction from me. (For me too feel much during the abuse sessions, the activity would have to be very hard.) A trip to an Urologist determined that I had done some damage to my orbs. I was given various pills and potions, and even had the discussion of potential removal of one. At the time I was concerned about the possible loss of my toys.
Some months passed, and gradually my sexual appetite started to return. Occasional jacking sessions became more frequent, and eventually back to three or more a day. However, I found that my balls were no longer the centre of my orgasms. In fact with little feeling in them at all, they just seemed to be in the way. This I suppose is the point when I started to think that maybe I should have had them removed.
I felt that sexually I was changing. By this time I had no desire for women at all. I met a guy who eventually became my partner for a couple of years, and he became the centre of my live. Sex was good! But as all good things this came to an end.
Since then I have had many sexual encounters, and my sex drive is as full-on as ever. I now feel that in my mid-forties, it is time to reduce my sex drive or at least to control it, and remove what is unwanted. I shall not rush into it. Research and discussions are important.
Why do men want castration????
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Re: Why do men want castration????
homptydumpty (imported) wrote: Mon May 07, 2007 8:38 pm this is not in any way saying that i am a UFO seeking purist.
right?
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I have never associated you with UFO's in any way. --FLO--
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Re: Why do men want castration????
Is this an extension of the Greek/Roman mythology beneath "Man are from Mars, Women are from Venus" to "Eunuchs are from Saturn"?
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Re: Why do men want castration????
Could another reason be hormones? Hormones can really dominate you, I have been trough both gender hormones and can say say can mess up your life. Testosteron makes you do things, when I really dont wanna masturbate, it makes me do it, female hormones can make one sad and depressed. Then hormones do things to your body, from loosing hair in some areas to gain in others, etc.
I really like the idea of not having hormones at high levels in my system anymore. Or of being able to control them
I really like the idea of not having hormones at high levels in my system anymore. Or of being able to control them
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Re: Why do men want castration????
homptydumpty (imported) wrote: Mon May 07, 2007 8:38 pm this is not in any way saying that i am a UFO seeking purist.
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Not at all. I was thinking of the Heavens Gate Cult that had a number of men who were castrated so they could take the UFO to a Comet bound for Heaven. If I remember the story.
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Re: Why do men want castration????
GENDERLESS,,,
...ON YOUR AVATAR...
...YOU LEFT YOUR 'HEADLIGHTS' ON...
The question at hand. I don't think that you can come up with one reason for desires, fantasies and fixations on the castration thing.
Desire may not be an accurate description in all cases.
Needless to say it makes this place interesting. All I can say to someone who contemplates 'the deed' is that you know once that 'it' or 'they' is/are cut off it/they will not grow back... to which the reply comes...
...BY JOVE! I think that the man has the idea... which does little to answer your question.
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Re: Why do men want castration????
It must be very hard for others to understand why someone born male, would want to be castrated. It's a question that I'm sure everyone has wondered at one time or another. I know I have. With everything lately I've found myself asking this question harder than ever. But - for the first time in my life - I now feel I can answer with all my heart.
Does there need to be an underlying reason? Do we need to look for what turned someone gay, or made someone choose to be transgendered? Do we choose our feelings, or just act on them?
Why did I want to be castrated? Why does a ray of sunshine fragment through raindrops to produce a beautiful rainbow (http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/e ... ainbow.jpg)? No reason. It just does. And how beautiful it is!
Maybe this phenomenon could be explained by the refraction of light through the water. But this only explains how and not why. Scientists might explain homosexuality and transsexuality in terms of differences in brain chemistry and structure. That perhaps it's origins could be traced back to the early developmental stages in the womb. Again - this only explains how and not why.
I am me. I did not choose to be this way, but I will enjoy being me to the fullest extent. I have escaped being a guy - biologically - and I'm very lucky that everyone in my life has accepted me the way I am, even though not all of them understand.
Maybe the biggest question is not why we want to be castrated, but why we feel the need to go searching for this question? Why the need to justify the feelings?
Does there need to be an underlying reason? Do we need to look for what turned someone gay, or made someone choose to be transgendered? Do we choose our feelings, or just act on them?
Why did I want to be castrated? Why does a ray of sunshine fragment through raindrops to produce a beautiful rainbow (http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/e ... ainbow.jpg)? No reason. It just does. And how beautiful it is!
Maybe this phenomenon could be explained by the refraction of light through the water. But this only explains how and not why. Scientists might explain homosexuality and transsexuality in terms of differences in brain chemistry and structure. That perhaps it's origins could be traced back to the early developmental stages in the womb. Again - this only explains how and not why.
I am me. I did not choose to be this way, but I will enjoy being me to the fullest extent. I have escaped being a guy - biologically - and I'm very lucky that everyone in my life has accepted me the way I am, even though not all of them understand.
Maybe the biggest question is not why we want to be castrated, but why we feel the need to go searching for this question? Why the need to justify the feelings?