Castration -- the only way out?

[TheWannabe (imported)]

I'm 21 years old. By now, it has become obvious to me that I am never going to find the girlfriend I want. I'm not handsome myself, and even start to become a little fat, yet I would never want an ugly girlfriend. Despite this, I don't consider myself superficial. I simply have been searching for a beautiful, sweet, cute, and intelligent girl. All my attempts over the years have been fruitless. I am now depressed and everything feels hopeless.

I have a lot of femdom fantasies -- I've had them since a little kid -- but I think I'm 50% submissive and 50% dominant. I have castration fantasies. This story I would love to have happen to me: http://www.asstr.org/~Kristen/putrid/casparty.htm

Alright. I don't have the balls to cut off my own balls(!). Even if it was done in the way I want to to be done, or in a hospital without pain, I would probably regret it afterwards.

Yet I can't stop thinking of how nice it would be to finally be releaved from the constant pain of being overly horny all the damn time. I will most likely never get to live out my fantasies, not even if I become really rich. So wouldn't the most humane thing for me to do to get castrated?

Like many of you, the thought of a beautiful, dominant female forcing my balls off turns me on. But what's after that? I have read a lot about eunuchs, so I have a pretty good idea, but I don't think it's possible to fully grasp how it feels until you've done it. And I probably won't do it.

But GOD I hate the feeling of those stupid balls between my legs. It would be nice to just have a penis there. And frankly, I hate cleaning up the cum after I've jerked off. No cum would just be a pro side for me...

But I guess it's hard to get hard when you have no balls. Hrm...

Aren't there any pills that you can eat that have no side effects and simply make you lose interest in sex? I would love to learn about those. Especially if they are cheap. This would be much better than getting a castration, which is so definite and permanent.

I guess if there were any such thing, most of you wouldn't seek castration. But I guess I can always hope for them to come up with this "reversed viagra" pill. (I would buy from a spam mail if they offered me it!)

[confuzed (imported)]

Aren't there any pills that you can eat that have no side effects and simply make you lose interest in sex? I would love to learn about those. Especially if they are cheap. This would be much better than getting a castration, which is so definite and permanent.

There is a drug called Androcur that will help lower your desire for sex..

If you do a search in the Chemical Castration & Hormones section you will find more details on it..

Welcome to the site and I hope you get sorted...

Confuzed

[Paolo]

Welcome to the zoo, buddy!

What you posted here reads to me like ALL the WRONG reasons to get castrated. If you're already depressed, it will probably only get worse.

To be blunt and to the point, if you get yourself castrated right now, as I read your post, you're making the biggest mistake of your life to date. For you, there would nothing "humane" about it.

As 'confuzed' recommends, there are some drugs you can try, with fully reversible effects after a short time off of them, that will mimic the effects of castration.

Cutting your balls off is forever. Chemical castration over a few months or so is not.

Please stay around and make use of the search function to find more threads to read.

http://www.eunuch.org/vbulletin/search.php

Just punch in depression, androcur, depo provera, etc. Happy reading!

[wolverine1 (imported)]

I totally agree with Paolo - If you're reading this please reconsider! I don;t mean to be patronising, but at your age there is every possiblility that your high sex drive could be the latter end of puberty?

I'm not claiming to be an expert but were you a 'late bloomer'? I didn't start puberty until about 14/15, but I had friends who didn't start until 16 - maybe your 'overactive' drive is normal, but you're more aware of it than you would have been at say 16? that's not forgetting that puberty can last for quite some time once things get moving so to speak.

I'm not saying 'do it' or 'don't do it', but I would ask you to seriously consider the outcome of such a life-changing decision - how long have you been thinking about this? personally, i've been interested in castration for a whole host of reasons since I was 16, and yet now at 29, i'm still intact and it's only now (through circumstances and support from people here in the archive) that i'm starting to feel comfortable enough that it's the right decision for me...

well, that's all I can say for now - I hope it helps, if you wanna talk then please drop me a line. best wishes, j

[Eunuchist (imported)]

While I disagree that a bothersome libido is a "wrong" reason for castration (I also believe that removal of testosterone can be helpful in certain types of depression, myself having benefited from it), I agree that there are more or less safe, reversible drugs out there that

mimic the effects of castration

and have been helpful for many people here in making a right decision for themselves. The drugs are also relatively inexpensive as a short-term "test drive". As I see it, the downside with chemical castration is that it tends to produce (depending on the type of drugs and dosage) a number of side effects that are not normally associated with surgical castration (breathing difficulties, liver toxicity, tumor susceptibility, etc.). It may also become relatively expensive to maintain an effective castration regime over time.

Surgical castration, while being the the most effective, quickest, cheapest and the most studied approach, is of course also a permanent one. It is permanent in the sense that it results in irreversible loss of testicles and fertility (unless one is already infertile at the time of castration). Today, what once have been an additional permanent effect of castration - loss of androgenic impact - have become mostly reversible by means of administration of various synthetic or bioidentical hormones for those who might be interested.

Having said that, I feel that a word of caution should be uttered against mind altering drugs such as SSRI's for the sole purpose of achieving impotence. These are powerful and dangerously unpredictable drugs that should only be taken as a very last resort, due to their association with lasting brain damage, the infamous debilitating "withdrawal syndrome" and other unwanted psychological side effects.

[twaddler (imported)]

Having said that, I feel that a word of caution should be uttered against mind altering drugs such as SSRI's for the sole purpose of achieving impotence. These are powerful and dangerously unpredictable drugs that should only be taken as a very last resort, due to their association with lasting brain damage, the infamous debilitating "withdrawal syndrome" and other unwanted psychological side effects.

Yes -- say 'No' to SSRIs. I'm going through some really wonderful withdrawals right now and it is truly awful (like firecrackers going off in my head a couple times every minute or three -- painful).

[MsJamie (imported)]

I would recommend to go see a therapist. Seriously. Preferably one that is familiar with gender issues.

I'm not saying that you have a gender issue. The reason is that many therapists that don't work with gender patients will immediately consider you to be one, and you don't really need to be paying them to convince them of that when you need to be working on the underlying causes of the depression.

A good therapist will help guide you into making the correct decision regarding castration. If it is truly right for you, then they can certainly help you find an appropriate surgeon and provide the referral that you will need.

I was clipped at the beginning of February, and it was the best thing that I have ever done. Mine was done in the local hospital by a wonderful urologist who really knew her stuff.

I did mine through my health plan, and followed the Standards of Care for TS patients. Even though I did spend six months seeing a therapist every few weeks, it was quite helpful for many issues not related to my gender issues. I would put the total cost of the surgery, including the therapist visits, to be around $600 total. I suppose that my surgery was approved a bit quicker than most would be due to the fact I had transitioned several years ago, and it's apparent that I've been on female hormones for a number of years. Even if I had to double the number pshrink visits, it would still come in well below the cost of a trip to Philadelphia (if he's even still doing it).

Jamie

[numnuts (imported)]

You guys are so negative. Twenty one is an excellent age for castration.

Life is short. If everyone waited for the perfect time for the perfect reason to do the perfect thing, no one would ever leave the house and we'd all die sittin' in a chair watching Jeopardy.

And BTW, did you SEE the three way tie!? Is that THEE most amazing........ NOT!

[jemagirl (imported)]

Hi,

I just want to say that if your questioning wether this is for you, then the way to find out is not to just do it and see. That's not something I'm saying to be harsh. You are 21 now and you have many years to love or regret your decision. So that makes it most important to know for sure if this is for you.

You asked if there are any meds that will have the same effect as castration with out side effects. First of all, All medications have side effects, even placebos if they are made of sugar. In fact castration itself has side effects. So you have to do looking into this to see whether the benefits are worth putting up with the side effects. Chemical castration even with the side effects is minor compared to surgical castration.

This is one of those life choices were you really do want to have a guide... not to choose for you but to help you choose for your self the life that suits you best. So I also agree a counselor would be a great help to you. Plus it's how you lay the ground work for getting the surgery if you decide that is what you want.

Take care and don't rush into it.

Jema

[OneBallBoi (imported)]

No matter what, I always recommend a test drive of real castration by trying one of the chemical castration drugs. The real thing is serious and can't be undone. I have been on Androcur for over 3 years now.