Napunsaka : His/story on the archives

[napunsaka (imported)]

... If I had met a bodybuilder who, in order to get the easier way the hormones needed for his work had been castrated...

if I had, more surely, met a gay guy, who got castrated, to enjoy more his sex life as “a bottom” an did ever after his castration

I’ll would myself have been castrated.

My fantasy who started being clear, in the late eighties as I was writings some stories illustrated with collages were clearly have my balls removed and feel my belittled penis as an extension of my joy hole. It was not to fight against a libido considered evil but to live it fully according to my feeling, my whole being.

Unfortunately I never met (without or without the archives) either the castrated bodybuilder nor the happy castrated passive gay. And things became less possible as the forum was more and more clearly medically oriented. We were then finding, for sure, more advices, more warnings, but therefore more transgender oriented guys (in a largest of the meaning possible : I included people who for religious reasons considered “libido” evil per se or at least something that must be transcended, the ideal being androgynous, and of course the ones who envisage castration as just a necessary step to be transform, reassigned sexually etc.). It was clear that fantasies even maintained in stories were - at least it seems so to me - on the board strictly “reassigned”

In a way this did help me to realize, clearly and distinctly, I am on the “stories” side.. therefore I am continuing dreaming about the “impossible” castrated bodybuilder and happy gay guy and let my imagination floating in a world I’ll be castrated… or more wishfully, of meeting them finally and getting castrated myself (always, in spite of... wishing to do it... )

I for sure still enjoy the eunuch archives !

Friendly yours.

[homptydumpty (imported)]

What an awesome post. You’re a very up front, honest guy. I like the fact that your willing to share your desire for eunuchs, and to modify you body. It sounds like as you said the castration of your own body has been more of a fantasy, than something worth making a reality has. Is this correct? Under the right circumstances you give the impression that you would seek castration

The idea of meeting an ideal castrated lover or companion is sweet.

It’s nice to see in all honesty your idea of the changing topics here, and your classification of fantasy. I myself have explored most aspects of the archive here, yet the fantasy is a bet new to me. Now that I am a eunuch, I have opened up a whole different idea of what it means to be a eunuch. I once would have thought of myself as gay, also transgender, and now I am content being androgynous. I am not afraid to admit that I was born male, yet now without my testicles I do not feel male at all, nor do I feel any desire to be female, I am neutered. A neutered human, I feel very please with my new body. As my body adjusts im very turned on with the power my mind now has over my body. I feel like a born again being, exploring my body for the first time, and its amazing. I cant wait to share this feeling with another, if that time comes, if not , there is always the fantasy.

[napunsaka (imported)]

Sorry I just sent you a mail not seeing you had answered my thread. Hope we can talk. Love and support.

[drew28 (imported)]

I like your picture homptydumpty. I desire to be female and definitely want the male sex drive changed in me.