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[homptydumpty (imported)]

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and an odd discomfort in my body I call "the fragile feeling." ("Fragile feeling" occurred daily but only for short periods of time, usually around 4-6am.)

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Terri,

It is so strange of you to mention this today, for this morning oppugn wakening at 4am, I had the most intensely sickening feeling so strong i couldn’t hold myself upright. Laying down the feeling left as quickly as it had arrived.

This feeling was most helpless and "fragile". an emotion i am not to fond of. i hope this doesn’t become regularly or im going to dread waking up each morning for work... herbal HRT sounds fun, although im not sure where to start, maybe a naturopath?

Z

[erikboy (imported)]

I am not a endocrinologist, but these symptoms could be related to a period in a night when normal human males have highest testosterone levels. The pituary gland (am I correct?) is actively releasing gonadotropin in hope to receive response from testicles, elevating T level in blood. As testicles are missing the system does not work correctly. Gonadotropin levels go too high as pituary gland tries to rise T levels. Instead of testicles adrenal glands do response to such activity with releasing adrenalin among other things I can't remember that is causing hot flashes.

This "fragile feeling" could be a side effect to such reaction.

Just guessing. Any other theories?

[bryan (imported)]

herbal HRT sounds fun, although im not sure where to start, maybe a naturopath?

Z,

Try the menopausal-relief of any pharmacy. There you will see Estroven and similar products. For DHEA, go to the "vitamin and supplement" section of the pharmacy.

Thanks for backing me up on the "fragile feeling." I don't recall others mentioning it and was wondering if others get it.

Terri

[OneBallBoi (imported)]

From all that I have read about DHEA, it stimulates the adrenal gland to produce extra T.

[homptydumpty (imported)]

I didn’t get up early this morning, there for didn’t get that feeling of helplessness.

erikboy,

I think the theory on adrenaline, and lack of testosterone sounds correct. Come to think of it, there was such a sickening feeling it was almost comparable to a traumatic experience in which your body is overwhelmed with adrenaline and you feel weak, as your body comes down off the rush.

I hope your as strong willed as you sound, its never too late to make the right things happen.

Im not ready to seek out any HRT, i feel that i wont unless its direly needed. Although it probably wouldn’t be the best idea to wait for something to blow ups and causes a problem.

[BudleyBare (imported)]

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Im not ready to seek out any HRT, i feel that i wont unless its direly needed. Although it probably wouldn’t be the best idea to wait for something to blow ups and causes a problem.

My sentiments as well.

[homptydumpty (imported)]

I had the worst day at work. I don’t know what’s gotten into me, I feel so angry at places, and things. My job is on the line and im not sure if it’s going to be there when I go back in the morning.

People and things take a different toll on me these days. I feel so tire, yet can’t sleep. Im not hungry but I can’t stop eating. Im irritable towards lives responsibilities. Im unsure how much longer I will last in this situation. Rage is overpowering me.

I don’t like being on the edge. Yet I am teetering on the brink of self-destruction. Im so fearful of what around the next 90 degree angle. Living a worthless life of shame.

[Marc8 (imported)]

This is the time when we all have a need to include someone close in our lives - going this period alone is not a good idea. This is not to say we all go out and get a bf/gf or significant other, but when close friends need to be even closer to us - stability is the name of the game in this instance, and we all have to be stabile in order to function, even minimally.

Call someone you hold dear to you, talk this out with them, and then you'll feel less alone and fragile - the other friend will be there to help you go through this. Hormones play a great deal of influence in our lives/bodies, and when there is a change to the "normal" make-up, the body reacts. You're not crazy to feel the way you do today, it's a natural outcome of what the body is adjusting to, and is something that will, given time and continued awareness of your changing physical nature, will ultimately work through the mazes of emotions and physical challenges. Just don't give up and think it's a lost cause - it's not.

[kristoff]

I had the worst day at work. I don’t know what’s gotten into me, I feel so angry at places, and things. My job is on the line and im not sure if it’s going to be there when I go back in the morning.

People and things take a different toll on me these days. I feel so tire, yet can’t sleep. Im not hungry but I can’t stop eating. Im irritable towards lives responsibilities. Im unsure how much longer I will last in this situation. Rage is overpowering me.

I don’t like being on the edge. Yet I am teetering on the brink of self-destruction. Im so fearful of what around the next 90 degree angle. Living a worthless life of shame.

I would suggest that you might wish to speak privately with your employer / supervisor, and explain that because of recent health issues, you are experiencing difficulties with emotions as a result of body chemistry changes. Ask for tolerance and understanding. Tell him as much or as little as you feel comfortable sharing.

At the same time, I would inquire, are you seeing any one to help work through things, such as a therapist, counselor, etc.? That is, beyond the all important friends and family? If not, please consider it. There is often a lot of adjusting that needs to be done when transitioning through hormone changes, and it is not always easy.

Best to you

[Paolo]

And we're here, too.

Look us up on IM's if you want. I've spent many a long night with other EA'ers just typing or chatting or voicing.