Eunuch i am, i am...

[homptydumpty (imported)]

I thought I was still willing to hide myself from the world, today I am not.

I have had time to think and process my life, its a hard thing to do but sooner or latter everyone should. I was castrated in Philadelphia on October the 18th. To speak the truth, this all has not settled completely in. or rather everything hasn’t sunk in. im still alive, this is the best of all things. Lately i had been thinking back to my really low pointz in life where i had planed suicide or even attempted it, i also thought about my relationships with others and the impact my life has on others.

This is not an easy thing to do, and it can take some time, but once again i say this is something we all must do. Face our facts.

I think what i am trying to say is that everything leading up to my castration was so hard, every day was a struggle to survive myself and my body. I was angry and disturbed with having testicles and it took allot out of me to function in every day life. The surgery for me was the easy part. Not that the surgery came easy, believe me, every day i went to work i thought of my one reason to get out of bed, which was to save up the money needed to get what needed to be done, done. Now i look back on the months of this year in which all i did was work, every day, 24/7. This wasn’t easy but it did pay off and it kept my mind busy.

I hate to be one of those long dry stories. What im getting at is the fact that the surgery has to be well thought threw and planned.

Today i feel i am really and truly myself. This is more than i would have been able to say a month ago. Let me know if yawl would like to hear a bit more of my story. If there are any questions, please ask. I just don’t want to bore anyone.

Z

[kristoff]

I thought I was still willing to hide myself from the world, today I am not.

I have had time to think and process my life, its a hard thing to do but sooner or latter everyone should. I was castrated in Philadelphia on October the 18th. To speak the truth, this all has not settled completely in. or rather everything hasn’t sunk in. im still alive, this is the best of all things. Lately i had been thinking back to my really low pointz in life where i had planed suicide or even attempted it, i also thought about my relationships with others and the impact my life has on others.

This is not an easy thing to do, and it can take some time, but once again i say this is something we all must do. Face our facts.

I think what i am trying to say is that everything leading up to my castration was so hard, every day was a struggle to survive myself and my body. I was angry and disturbed with having testicles and it took allot out of me to function in every day life. The surgery for me was the easy part. Not that the surgery came easy, believe me, every day i went to work i thought of my one reason to get out of bed, which was to save up the money needed to get what needed to be done, done. Now i look back on the months of this year in which all i did was work, every day, 24/7. This wasn’t easy but it did pay off and it kept my mind busy.

I hate to be one of those long dry stories. What im getting at is the fact that the surgery has to be well thought threw and planned.

Today i feel i am really and truly myself. This is more than i would have been able to say a month ago. Let me know if yawl would like to hear a bit more of my story. If there are any questions, please ask. I just don’t want to bore anyone.

Z

Boring or not, that is what this place is for, not just questions, but support, sharing, understanding, teaching, etc. Our experience does all of that. Do share.

[homptydumpty (imported)]

The journey to my castration was not just a 5 or 6 hour flight. but this is where i will pick up.

When i got to Philly, i though wow, what a shame im going to miss so much of this city. I knew at that point that i had made the longest journey of my life. For my (castration).

The time it took to get there was nothing compared to the time it would take to get back home. I only hope that future pre-op. Eunuchs, wont have to face such long travel to become who they truly are.

I have so much more I should share

[DonnyMac (imported)]

Z,

I am so glad things worked out for you. You seem in a better place, and that is important. I am sure I speak for most of us, we are interested in your story and progress. I have found this is a great place to share.

Don

[OneBallBoi (imported)]

Congratulations! Yes, keep us updated on your progress. We are all here to help, to be a support system and to answer questions where we can.

[BudleyBare (imported)]

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Let me know if yawl would like to hear a bit more of my story. If there are any questions, please ask. I just don’t want to bore anyone....

First of all, congratulations on your progress toward becoming who you want to be. I, for one, would like to hear more of your experiences and feelings/emotions as you journey forward, and I seriously doubt that it will be boring. But so what if it is. ¡ Es la vida ! (That's life.)

[tugon (imported)]

Yes, please continue to share. It is good for you and for us. I have learned more about myself from sharing experiences and emotions with others. I am glad you are becoming the person you want to be. Becoming a eunuch was life saving for me.

[Kangan (imported)]

As someone thinking very hard (no pun intended) about surgery, I'd really like to hear more of your story, both the before and the aftward parts. Thanks!

[homptydumpty (imported)]

Yes, life is great. im home from my first of many to come 10hour work dayz. I love life! Getting back to work now is a good thing, i couldn’t have spent another day on my ass. im not the type to sit around allot, unless its at "work".

I was feeling very sexual last night and it felt weird. i couldn’t help but touch myself. When i touch myself, there is something about it. It makes me feel better. Not having someone around to luv, i have to luv myself.

My body doesn’t feel much different, i do feel differently about my body. im wondering how long its going to take for the lumpz in my groin to go away and reabsorb? Anyone know...? is my sack, or scrotum gana shrink any?

i do feel sleepy though...... i think in the morning im gana wake up really fem!

Before i had the surgery i just didn’t feel myself. Now i feel more myself, yet some what lost. My life feels even more than ever to be the unknown.

Calm cum, cause i need you......

I cant do it any more I need sleeepy!

Z

[alberto161 (imported)]

Congratulations, I'd never thought one like you, I mean so young, had had the courage to take such an irrevocable step. But you did. Congratulations again. Just keep updated on how life will be going on with you.