Tell me: why are *YOU* into castration?

[Sledge (imported)]

Personally, (SWM,44,never tattooed or pierced...), I have always had "gender issues", but have until recently not been able to admit it....wouldn't make a very "passable" girl anyway!

Although I'm hetero, I've always been attracted to TS/CD/Shemales....probably a reaction, or a way to BE HER vicariously.......

[dfinder (imported)]

As some of you know, Finder's erotic high is the story/thought/image of one or more women doing things to his (or another man's) penis, preferably very erect and ready to ejaculate. Like Farrell S says, is it possible to analyze this all the way down to its roots and understand it? It's hard to do for him because the arousal component always gets in the way, have to be totally spent to look at it objectively.

Is this a clue? Finder's earliest true memory is this: his mother is changing his diapers (he's maybe 3 yrs old, had long time getting over night bedwetting) - he points to his penis and asks, "What's that, Mommy?" and she says, smiling, "That's your penis." Now I never did feel any kind of Eodipal thing if that's what you're thinking - but the memory is there.

Teenage fantasies were more like - being the only male left in some apocalyptic scenario and the girls in his high school class were sweetly cooperative in re-populating the world with him.

Married: "I want you to do things to my penis." She does not respond, probably anxious about where that will go. He seeks female doctors who might view his erection should he be fortunate enough to respond that way while being examined.

He frequents medical libraries, copying huge numbers of studies on the male anatomy, erection studies, surgery of the penis - shocked and aroused response to the deepest darkest treatment of all - removal! Someone actually takes a knife to the organ, cuts it off! It's very clinical but it's all true, he devours this.

He has a relationship on the side with a woman who will do anything, tell him stories of revenge and justice, penis is the focus of the story, ultimately removal the outcome, while she strokes his fierce erection, holds a knife on it. Stories from Bosnia and Thailand.

The Eunuch Archive and FemCan images connect him to the rest of this strange community. Yes he is unusual. No, he can't understand, in the end, why it's so arousing. It just is. He can write stories and someone else will appreciate them. And someone else writes stories for him. Aaahhhh that feels good.

Finder

[davejohn8 (imported)]

I visit this site because I'm seriously considering castration. I'm a 47yo male, have been married 30 years, and have sired 3 sons. My male libido is so excessive that it controls my life. My wife is not interested in any sex and my sex drive is sky high. Thus, I have various multiple sex partners outside our marriage. My drive is so high it keeps me awake at night, interferes with my work, and is a constant wedge between my wife and I. I have talked with a surgeon that has agreed to do my castration and am still wrestling with decision as to whether or not being castrated is my only solution. I can't imagine what my life would be like without my balls and the constant need for sex 3 or 4 times a day. On the other hand I've been told that without my balls I would experience an immediate calmness and peacefulness in my life and that is what I so desparately seek. I do know I need to make my decision soon. Any input here, would like to hear from other men with the same libido delima.

[Andrew (imported)]

I can't imagine what my life would be like without my balls and the constant need for sex 3 or 4 times a day. On the other hand I've been told that without my balls I would experience an immediate calmness and peacefulness in my life and that is what I so desparately seek.

It may not be an immediate calmness. Of all the aspects of Eunuch biology, this is one of the biggest YMWV (Your Milage Will Vary). But over time, yes, your sex drive will diminish, perhaps to the point of total nonsexuality. "The Eunuch Calm" also takes some time to develop, from several months to a couple of years.

But those of us who are elective eunuchs, and have come to enjoy this peaceful calm of a mind not obsessed with sex or masculine aggression, have no desire to go back or try testosterone replacement therapy (TRT).

[polecat (imported)]

I don't like the feelings of sexual maturity, the physical changes and needs. They interfere with what I really want to do, and frequently force me into situations I do not feel comfortable in. Simple sexual arousal is enough to make me want sex... enough to make me a person who wants sex, and frankly that's scary. I don't like being made into a different person. Thankfully it fades after fulfillment, at least for a little while.

[Leona Lee (imported)]

I don't like the feelings of sexual maturity, the physical changes and needs. They interfere with what I really want to do, and frequently force me into situations I do not feel comfortable in. Simple sexual arousal is enough to make me want sex... enough to make me a person who wants sex, and frankly that's scary. I don't like being made into a different person. Thankfully it fades after fulfillment, at least for a little while.

Well now! Welcome to adulthood.I agree with your analisis and it is bothersome.As a matter of fact,that is exactly the main criteria of this web site.You'll get lots of comments on this one.Hugs,Leona

[sag111 (imported)]

Interesting coment polecat thats the way i felt about my life with testosterone you see it changed me into a person i didnt like anymore and i just couldent live that person anymore.So yes the changes were worth the problems i may face i am so happy now.

[stevesd (imported)]

I served 20 years in the Miltiary and knew of men who got testicular cancer, sometimes both testicles were removed and they still stayed in. Why do you need your balls to be in the Service? Women serve in the US Miltiary just as men do, with exception to submarine and Navy SEAL Special Warfare. Guys were always talking about their Nads in the Navy.

Steve//

[Bagoas (imported)]

I was 15 when I realized that I am homosexual: a queer, a fairy. (The term "gay" wasn't used until the late 1950's.) I was horrified and as disgusted as the normal boys I knew would have been to know this about me. I was filled with self-loathing and considered suicide. Fortunately, I had always been a timid child and was much too much of a coward to take "the coward's way out." I did make a couple of half-hearted attempts, and one time, after failing again to carry it out, I said aloud "It's no use, I just don't have the balls to do it." Suddenly, I realized THAT'S IT ! If I didn't have balls, I wouldn't have any sex urge and I wouldn't need to worry about being queer. From then on, I was obsessed with the idea of being castrated. I read everything I could find, mostly in books on animal husbandry, about castration. At 18, I began asking doctors about having the operation done. None of them sympathized with my desire at all and most of them recommended that I see a psychiatrist. I have never accepted the fantasies and dogmas of the shrinks. I shall not dignify these ideas, especially Freud's obsession with Greek mythology, as theories and hypotheses. I definitely did not want these crackpots meddling with my psyche, lest one of them get the idea "to grasp this sorry scheme of things entire [i.e. my personality] and mould it closer to [his] heart's desire." I gradually came to terms with my homosexuality, though it took until my early 30's, but the desire to be castrated has never left me. Age has, finally, pretty much solved the problem, however.

[Timothy (imported)]

Castration is the LAST thing I want. I would NEVER agree to be "nutted."

When I was about six or seven I had nightmares about being nullified. I remember one very vivid dream from the time I was that age. In this dream for some reason I had agreed to be nullified and I felt such incredable remorse that I had let "it" be taken from me. When I woke up I can't discribe the sense of relief when I found that it was still there.

Some people write about Vimpires and Ghoasts and monsters because that is what scares them.

I write about my nightmares not about my happy dreams.

Timothy