19 year old eunuch biography

[chris_uch (imported)]

well id like to to tak a moment to introduce myself first, my name is chris i was born in california ,where apon my testes were removed directly at birth for some reason or another my mom always tells me it was because i ad gangreen my dad didnt even know about it and openly dobts it, however i have had a surgery were the doctor cut me open to see if i had anything, sure enough i did not now see im alone in the dark on this, and io think ther might be a greater mysery tol com, i had a hard child hood growing up, my mom always told me that "some day were going to to the doctors and there going to fix youre ball" as inreplace them i think, but that is not a possibility as i understand now, but im rambling ive been in foster car since i was very young in and out but for about 9 years total and about 7 years strit up untill i turned 18 ive always made it a point that i dont need any one if they dont like me or my struggle they can just fuck off i dont need them ive got just what i need,anyways i started noticing the diffrence as well as my peers who would commonly ask "why do you sound like a little kid "? ;about middle school, then there was highschool which was ackwardbut iwas a freshman and had somewhat common interest with my punk rock friends and the goth type sceneat that time i was taking hrt some times , like whenever i remembered i seldome did but iguess it was enough about my3 year of hifgh school i was frusterated all of my friends could only talk about who they wanted to fuck and all of this crap that at the time scared me, the girls i knew only wanted one thing, yk lol, so in one summer all of my friends were gone to me , i was suddenly plunged into this world were to me i had no real perpose, until i heard a certaint band, afi, that really changed my perspective on life , i mean here was this young eunuch up on stage with pants so tight you could see that he was aeunuch without paying much attention muscles ripped tight torso tattoos and he was screaming about how much he neede no one but himself and how powerfull he was no matter what cards he was dealt this empowered me, but before i get much farther into this, ill tell of what can only be known as the "felicia incident"; ok here goes i was seventeen and me and my friend andrew were lkke major potheads i went to his house i was then living with my auntwell anyways i saw the only that ever made me feel funny, not sexually much better than that, as far as i know anyways ,but any ways things got crazy the most beutifull girl i ever knew wanted me i didnt know why but one day i took her aside and told her how i felt and what i was she was fine with it she thought, then she kissed me and we did some things that are only recalled in small porions of dreams that haunt my sleep, i was so dumb later she told me that she neede a man, and that killed me i dont know why i didnt kill myself but i didnt i didnt even try i just think its funny that emotions are ded to those that are "normal" bodys arre all that matter to them and i hate it no one care s no one hurts they just want to take and take and take and it reallypises me off2 strat years later hear i am stil trying to convince my self that im over it, i mean after al the time we spent after how well we knew eachother someone still got left behund i dont think that life should allow this you know its pure horror, but anyways yah that a brif summary of who i am and how i feel i gate her now and i hate sex i hate relationships, and i love lif the end

[farharbour (imported)]

well id like to to tak a moment to introduce myself first, my name is chris i was born in california ,where apon my testes were removed directly at birth for some reason or another my mom always tells me it was because i ad gangreen my dad didnt even know about it and openly dobts it, however i have had a surgery were the doctor cut me open to see if i had anything, sure enough i did not now see im alone in the dark on this, and io think ther might be a greater mysery tol com, i had a hard child hood growing up, my mom always told me that "some day were going to to the doctors and there going to fix youre ball" as inreplace them i think, but that is not a possibility as i understand now, but im rambling ive been in foster car since i was very young in and out but for about 9 years total and about 7 years strit up untill i turned 18 ive always made it a point that i dont need any one if they dont like me or my struggle they can just fuck off i dont need them ive got just what i need,anyways i started noticing the diffrence as well as my peers who would commonly ask "why do you sound like a little kid "? ;about middle school, then there was highschool which was ackwardbut iwas a freshman and had somewhat common interest with my punk rock friends and the goth type sceneat that time i was taking hrt some times , like whenever i remembered i seldome did but iguess it was enough about my3 year of hifgh school i was frusterated all of my friends could only talk about who they wanted to fuck and all of this crap that at the time scared me, the girls i knew only wanted one thing, yk lol, so in one summer all of my friends were gone to me , i was suddenly plunged into this world were to me i had no real perpose, until i heard a certaint band, afi, that really changed my perspective on life , i mean here was this young eunuch up on stage with pants so tight you could see that he was aeunuch without paying much attention muscles ripped tight torso tattoos and he was screaming about how much he neede no one but himself and how powerfull he was no matter what cards he was dealt this empowered me, but before i get much farther into this, ill tell of what can only be known as the "felicia incident"; ok here goes i was seventeen and me and my friend andrew were lkke major potheads i went to his house i was then living with my auntwell anyways i saw the only that ever made me feel funny, not sexually much better than that, as far as i know anyways ,but any ways things got crazy the most beutifull girl i ever knew wanted me i didnt know why but one day i took her aside and told her how i felt and what i was she was fine with it she thought, then she kissed me and we did some things that are only recalled in small porions of dreams that haunt my sleep, i was so dumb later she told me that she neede a man, and that killed me i dont know why i didnt kill myself but i didnt i didnt even try i just think its funny that emotions are ded to those that are "normal" bodys arre all that matter to them and i hate it no one care s no one hurts they just want to take and take and take and it reallypises me off2 strat years later hear i am stil trying to convince my self that im over it, i mean after al the time we spent after how well we knew eachother someone still got left behund i dont think that life should allow this you know its pure horror, but anyways yah that a brif summary of who i am and how i feel i gate her now and i hate sex i hate relationships, and i love lif the end

Well you need to go see a doctor to make sure you aer getting the right amount of hormones and whether you need ant-depressants. Growing up as a euncuh in a place like SD must be very painful.. Remember you are a beautiful person and your body is beautiful... yes it is different from others but many of us here on EA find a man with no testicles attractive.. you have come to the right place..

[Thiru (imported)]

Hi,

Too bad that girl dumped you just because you're a eunuch seems like it's a lot of waste of emotion, anyway, I just want to say good luck in your life and any one who is a eunuch, I think it takes guts to live a life like that so different from others. I couldn't do it, but it's interesting for me to read about somebody elses perspective, so if you hadn't been changed at birth would; that is; if you had had a choice would you still want to be a eunuch?

Warmth

Kailash (Thiru)

[lilac (imported)]

Hello chris, I also wanted to welcome you here among all of these wonderful carring people. They will help you with almost any info you need. So please keep posting and ask what ever questions you want. I also wanted to tell you that I am sorry the way the girl treated you. I see that it has prolly turned you against women. I am sorry for that. There are some very special one's out there. Well, there are some, im sure, some that do understand and care, and not looking for one thing. Well anyway, take care sweetie, and hang in there you will find a special person one day.

Love Lilac

[wolverine1 (imported)]

hey there! just a quick note to say that I echo the sentiments of all the members who've replied before me.

I won't give you the 'i know how you feel' speech - nobody will truly know how anybody else feels, they can only guess. Although i still have my balls for now, I've had a similar experience with a now ex-partner ; to give ya the short version, my balls are no bigger now than they were at 16 (well below average) and this one lad had been the nicest guy i'd met until it came to the 1st time we slept together - the following day he did nothing but take the p*** so i basically got rid of him pronto!

what i'm trying to say is that while there are shedloads of shallow people out there, there's also far more people that will look beyond your outwards appearance and fall for who you are inside - they're the ones that will truly be worth having as a part of your life. ttyl jamie

[chris_uch (imported)]

thanks alot guys i appreciate youre support , well if i wasnt one at birth i dont think id be one now you know? i have no desire to be anything apart from what i am, and im sure it would be likewise i got some dhea by the way it seems to work, a little it definanly does somthing for depression and sleep thnx again

[littletits (imported)]

Chris do not let anyone put you down or beliitle you because you hapen to be a eunuch. You are not alone. Thousands of people around the world are eunuchs for one reason or another. I became a eunuch by accident in my mid twenties,adapted and grew to enjoy being a eunuch . I cant say I miss the loss of my manhood any more. It is just a fading memory. Surely my life is on a different path but still is very very good. See a a doctor who can put you on hormones to give you a male sexuality if that is what you want. I am content to be asexual but I knew what it was like as an intact male. You can always stop the hormone treatment at any time you want. Life is to be enjoyed and celebrated regardless of whether your genitals fit into the defination of either of the binary "normals . Be proud, not ashamed of who and what you are.

[tugon (imported)]

Littletits I think that since this thread is from 2006 and the OP has not returned either they found what they were looking for or lost interest. I am sure they will never read your response. It might be more helpful responding to current questions being asked than bumping really old threads.

[Cainanite (imported)]

Littletits I think that since this thread is from 2006 and the OP has not returned either they found what they were looking for or lost interest. I am sure they will never read your response. It might be more helpful responding to current questions being asked than bumping really old threads.

Agreed.

Closed.