Slammr (imported) wrote: Fri Aug 11, 2006 7:52 pm It's getting to the point that I hate to see pictures of myself. Mirrors lie better than pictures, which are frozen in time. With a mirror, one can shift his gaze or turn his head, finding a better angle, "Oh, I don't look so old."
Pictures, though, are stark reality: "Who the fuck is that old man? Shit, it's me." They never match the image I have of myself -- in my head, in my dreams. I'm much younger there. I'm still a kid there, 18, 20, 21, somewhere around that age, not the old man that pictures say I am.
Yes, yes, but I take pictures the way Rembrandt painted himself repeatedly. I enjoy the comparisons. In a way, I died as a young person at 49 when my former wife left. Ah, the memories.