Why?

[Joanna (imported)]

Why have you done this?

I have my own reasons, plans, etceteras. I've been reading posts here and wonder am I crazy, lonely, bereaved, desperate, or just plain trapped in perversion? Please ... take no offense to this.

I've gleaned that there are many reasons. Pain in the testicles. TS issues. Leave the testosterone and receive calm. Other things I can only guess about.

About me. In my 50's, been married a couple of times, exploring TG feelings. I hate those "things" down there ... or do I?

Well, for now, I'd just like to hear why, to get a sense of this eunuch world. To maybe see if I'm really real? Sounds kinda corny when I read it, but ..... <enter>

[Joanna (imported)]

13 views, no replies.

Perhaps I'm not in the right place for answers.

[Paolo]

It's Friday night in summertime.

Things are slow right now.

That and not everyone who reads posts.

Actually, only a handful of members DO post.

I think you're in the exactly the right place, and you sound just like a lot of us did "back in the day", so to speak.

Give the regulars time to read and respond.

I'm afraid you'll find there's no easy answers to your questions, though. What each person here feels/felt is unique unto them. But you are not alone. AND YOU ARE NOT A FREAK. You're not the only one with these thoughts. All of us have been there (are there) and here we are.

Every single person here has a story, and a reason.

And we share them and take comfort in that.

Welcome to the zoo.

[JesusA (imported)]

Last edited by Paolo : Today at 09:56 PM. Reason: typo - not bad for a broken hand!

Who or what did you hit???

Anyway, a flock of the regulars are meeting on the West Coast right now and have limited time and access to computers. Give us a few days to scatter back to our various parts of the country and reconnect to the Archive.

It's now 10:30 at night and I'm just back from dinner with the crew. Again, tonight we were the last patrons in the restaurant – and getting dirty looks form a staff that wanted to go home. We were simply having far too much fun.

Your questions are good ones and deserve an answer when I have a keyboard that I can touch-type on, rather than do a one-finger dance.

[Robby (imported)]

Joanna,

Like Paolo says, we all have our own personal reasons for being here. In order for a good conversation to start, it would help if you open the discussion with more on your situation. Members with like situations may post and continue the conversation which in turn may help in your understanding of our new lives and maybe your's.

The West Coast E.A. Meeting of Members is well underway but I will be back to see your posts. If I can help, I will.

Hope this helps and please don't hessitate to reply.

Take care,

[Joanna (imported)]

Let's see. Been married twice. Failure twice. Only after the second did I go to these TG feelings. That could possibly be because of the internet and its eye opening world. 'nuf said.

So here I am. I sometimes wish I was a woman. Other times I do not. I many times wish I could just rid myself of those things between my legs, sometimes to replaced by a vagina, sometimes I don't care. I want to be smooth and clean.

But I worry. Is it a fantasy? I worry I'll miss it and all the feelings it brings. I suppose the "chemical castration" is in order, so I'll know what it's like to be sans ..... sans ... just testicles or will I really know what it's like? I'm sure I'd need to go to counseling with one who is versed in this area. I love women, and without is that gone? It's gone now I guess, because I'm jaded. Is that it?

Damn, I'm just rambling, pouring out, I know not what else to do. Sorry.

Damn, I just read what I wrote. Clean? I need serious input, not just the typical flippant 'net 'put.

Jo

[Christina (imported)]

Joanna,

Glad you could join us here. Many TG folks start out as you are, questioning their identity and feelings about who/what they are. It's a hard decision to make on your own. The internet has much information to offer in these areas, if you know where to look, and sometimes it can be overwhelming as well.

I am transgender also and had spent many years gathering information and questioning myself as to why I felt this way too before going ahead with anything that would eventualy become permenent changes.

Here on this site you will find many personal accounts of eunuchs and transsexual's that may offer you a glimpse of what to expect and how they have delt with it. You will also find some information on chemical castration and the effects it has. As for what is best for you, no one can really say for sure. That must be left up to you. I can tell you that to transition from one gender to another is not an easy thing to do by any means. There are many financial and social hardships involved in transition.

I hope you take the time to explore and read this site and all it has to offer. And do not hesitate to post any questions you might have.

[Joanna (imported)]

OK, now I'll just be silly .... if I do "it", will I still love Tool, or will I only want to listen to Lilith Faire type stuff??????????????? I'm listening now to 10,000 days, and such raw backbeat power!

Crap, sorry. That's SO sterotypical, but I guess that's where my head is at. Will I change much?

Jo

[Christina (imported)]

OK, now I'll just be silly .... if I do "it", will I still love Tool, or will I only want to listen to Lilith Faire type stuff??????????????? I'm listening now to 10,000 days, and such raw backbeat power!

Crap, sorry. That's SO sterotypical, but I guess that's where my head is at. Will I change much?

Jo

Most likey your attitude towards sex (and/or that "tool") will change a great deal. You may find yourself not even thinking about sex. From a personal view point (and one who is on female hormones) I find that I still retain somewhat of a sex drive, but much different from a males sex drive. I no longer have the burning desire to think about sex 24/7 and yet I can be arroused on occasion if the mood permits. In other words, I am in control of my desires now.

[Christina (imported)]

Let me clarify that some. The things you love to do now may or may not change. You may find that your priorites will. That is, you might put more meaning on other things that do not seem important to you right now. Atitudes can and do change, mostly from the emotional change you will experience.