One Day in the Life of a Wolf - Memorial 7-25-20

[MacTheWolf (imported)]

Either I'm losing my mind or I just left the Twilight Zone. The TV died at 2:00am.

It's 2:32am now. I just finished up some paperwork on the computer and decided to give the TV one more chance to come on, you know, like kicking a dead horse.

S-t-r-a-n-g-e-l-y it came on and all channels are working. I'll try it again in the morning. Maybe the TV is getting older and that was a warning.

Or...I really am bonkers. I can think of several from the chatroom who would agree to my lack of sanity

[MacTheWolf (imported)]

STRANGE night. I went to bed about 2:40 am and thought of my ex-wife until 6:30 am without any sleep. I'm tired but not sleepy. I turned on the cable then the TV and it worked.

I think I'm going back to bed now. Night all.

I hope my ex-wife is happy

[Milkman (imported)]

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Measure the duration of the present? Interesting hypothetical idea. Might take a greater mind than ours. Somebody like Jesus, maybe. Our Jesus, not the 2,000 year old one. At least, I don't think our Jesus is that old.

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The present is actually the slight future between static states. The ancient Greeks starting with Zeno of Elea knew that in order to occupy space an object, even if it appears moving, had to be completely stopped and motionless on some small time scale. The absolute present is therefore a silent motionless place. What we perceive to be the present is in fact the infinitesimal time point between these static states. An infinitesimal can be described as the value on the Y axis as an asymptotic line approaches infinity on the X axis. It is an algebraic number usually expressed a 1 - .99999.... (repeating decimal)

[Bagoas (imported)]

It approaches zero on the Y-axis as it approaches infinity on the X-axis. In terms of the duration of the present, it means that the value of the duration of the present is less than any specifiable number, however small it may be.

The reasons that the subjective present seems to have duration are the vividness of the short-term memory which gives continuity to our experience and the finite rate of response of our senses.

Alas, this does not solve the logical problem that the infinitesimal duration of the present allows no time for anything to happen.

[MacTheWolf (imported)]

I am rewriting this post because I am receiving calls and messages from friends saying, "sorry about your mother's death."

Mom is quite alive and frisky.

The news I received today was the SECOND worst news I could get. Mom's nursing home called me to tell me, since I can't come up the $560 a month needed to pay mom's extended stay at the nursing home of 1-3 more months. they are going to seize mom's social security check and her retirement check.

If they do that, mom (and I) will lose the house. Without that income I can't pay the utility bills, property taxes, purchase food or get anything fixed.

It seems I have but two options and both put me

between a rock and a hard place:

Option 1 - Leave mom in the nursing home and face losing her income and a place to live let alone let alone food for me and the dog.

Option 2 - Take mom out of the nursing home Against Medical Advice and be visited by the police who will arrest me for elderly abuse due to the fact the cockroaches and mice have returned. I can't hire an exterminator this month because I already shelled out $120 to fix a leaking toilet. Adult Protective Services, upon seeing the cockroaches and mice, would remove mom

for health reasons. YES, the nursing home said they

would call both the police and Adult Protective Services if I attempted to take mom out of their facility.

I won't do the second but I seem doomed whichever course I take.

I hope my attorney calls today. Sheesh

I call my attorney and left him a voicemail message of the situation as he was in a meeting.

At this point, I'm at my wits end and don't know what to do next.

The nursing home mom is in, called me last Monday asking me to come out and sign her in. I refused because a nursing home mom was in a year or more ago talked me into signing her in and now I owe them $3,000. Considering the threat of loss of all income, maybe I should have incurred more debt and signed her in.

The nursing home she is in now is not taking good care of mom. They have allowed her to pull out her feeding tube four times now And had to resend her back to the hospital ER.

[MacTheWolf (imported)]

Not having heard from my attorney yet, I decided to be diplomatic. I called the nursing home mom is at and said, "thee is no way I would put my mom's health at risk by

taking her out Against Medical Advice. I

told them I would try to come up with the $560 a month (stalling tactic).

Free advice, short of suicide*, will be most graciously accepted

Since my posts tend to be misunderstood sometimes, NO, I am NOT considering ending my life. I meant I'll take any free advice except "Mac, go play on the freeway."

[Milkman (imported)]

Yikes, what a situation. you are not able to work yourself due to health problems?

[MacTheWolf (imported)]

Yikes, what a situation. you are not able to work yourself due to health problems?

I'm 61 and in good health as far as I know. I am lacking a car though. I'll start looking for a job as soon as I hear from my attorney. On Tuesday I'll go trim my several inch beard to a "socially acceptable level."

Milkman - for the last four years I have been my mom's unpaid 24 hour a day care giver. Being 93 and having dementia etc meant mom needed round the clock care, which I, as her only child, provided.

I know I'll get my reward in heaven but, I could really use advice or assistance NOW to get this two ton rock off my body AKA nursing homes and poverty

Sometimes you're the bug, sometimes your the windshield. I've been the bug for 1,460 days on May 15th.

I think I need some sleep BUT, I'd settle for a new life

Anyone want to trade?

[MacTheWolf (imported)]

I finally found my attorney's email address and sent him a two page description of my life the last several weeks. Hopefully, he gets either the email or my telephone message or both. Hopefully, he cares.

[Blaise (imported)]

I finally found my attorney's email address and sent him a two page description of my life the last several weeks. Hopefully, he gets either the email or my telephone message or both. Hopefully, he cares.

You have done a good job for your mother. Now, you will probably enjoy working again after you begom a new job. However, I know how hard it is to begin new careers--not from finding one but just from starting doing something new. We all ""turn on a dime these days.