Decision made this morning: eunuch to be!

[Uncle Flo (imported)]

You're more than welcome. We are on your side. --FLO--

[Sac_mec (imported)]

Bud, I just wanted to affirm my congratulations to you also for this early anniversary. Thanks for your 1 month update. Here's to a reduction in the swelling. I don't think you're imagining the penile reduction, I reckon it's underway. It is great to see that you are chatting with your friends and associates and that you are getting from them such intelligent insight.

Earlier on you were saying just how helpful and supportive your own Doctor is and I am sure that he remains just that too.

As for your planned trips, excellent (just don't go economy class) indulge yourself. I didnot mean to be a wet blanket {do you have that expression on your side of the Atlantic?}, I felt concern for you but I can see that you are

aware of all the issues and I have no doubt that putting comfort first and

enjoying life and being ballless are all compatible.

Does the question of chosen words still absorb you? Eunuch is a kind of unique word and they sound the same to (almost). Isn't language interesting?

Congrats again on being a Bare Budley here for a month too. It was an enjoyable assertion that you made there

[BudleyBare (imported)]

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Does the question of chosen words still absorb you? Eunuch is a kind of unique word and they sound the same to (almost). Isn't language interesting?

Yes. And it is both interesting and confusing at the same time. For instance, I no longer think of myself as gay oriented, but rather asexual (or should I say non-sexual?). I tried to change my profile on this web site, but it won't allow me to make that change (because I refuse to put in my birthdate).

However, I do enjoy looking at the human body (both male and female varieties) and appreciate the beauty of our Creator's design. Intricate, complex, and yet simply beautiful, all at the same time. As a photo hobbiest, perhaps I should start trying to capture some of those images for posterity. The curves and shapes are captivating.

[BudleyBare (imported)]

At approximately 1.5 months post surgery, I now find my energy levels are beginning to plummet (amybe that is a bit too strong of a word, but it is definitely and noticeably going down). Could be related to the fact that I was travelling this past week, and did not follow my normal schedule and activity load (e.g., mucho walking), thus draining more energy than normal. However, now that I am back home, I plan to visit with my doctor this week, and to include a request that a full hormone panel be run. I did begin routinely taking a vitamin B complex supplement every morning, beginning about 2 weeks ago.

I'm not alarmed or concerned at this realization, but simply noticing and documenting changes in what has previously been "normal life" for me.

[BudleyBare (imported)]

Just short of 8 weeks since full surgical castration, and had my first major post-surgery blood work done. Testosterone is now at 0.26 ng/ml (normal for males is 3.0 to 10.6). I'm even at the bottom of the female levels for testosterone. Still no HRT and no intention to do so unless really needed. All other hematology numbers were right where they should be with one exception -- creatine is climbing slightly and at the upper limit. Don't know what they may mean, but will continue to watch.

I still have no ill effects -- meaning either physiological or psychological -- from the surgery, other than a significant dip in energy levels recently, but even that has somewhat come back to normal (normal for me).

Overall, this has been a good thing for me. Removal of a significant source of pain (read prior postings in this thread), and also gaining control over my life.

[tugon (imported)]

Just short of 8 weeks since full surgical castration, and had my first major post-surgery blood work done. Testosterone is now at 0.26 ng/ml (normal for males is 3.0 to 10.6). I'm even at the bottom of the female levels for testosterone. Still no HRT and no intention to do so unless really needed. All other hematology numbers were right where they should be with one exception -- creatine is climbing slightly and at the upper limit. Don't know what they may mean, but will continue to watch.

I still have no ill effects -- meaning either physiological or psychological -- from the surgery, other than a significant dip in energy levels recently, but even that has somewhat come back to normal (normal for me).

Overall, this has been a good thing for me. Removal of a significant source of pain (read prior postings in this thread), and also gaining control over my life.

Congratulations on the new you. Control over my life and behaviors is what I enjoy most about being a eunuch. I am happy you are not having any ill effects and I hope you will have no more need for any surgeries for other health reasons.

[BudleyBare (imported)]

A bit more information about my doctor's response to my latest hemotology numbers (lab numbers on my blood). He agrees with me that HRT, especially with regard to testosterone, is not a desired option for me. That is primarily because it would again make me more at risk for prostate cancer at some point in the future. So far there is no indication that I "need" HRT for any reason.

I have a truly wonderful health care provider, as well as a good friend, in my doctor.

P.S., Today I also started getting all the immunizations needed for my trip to Antarctica next January. Four vaccinations today, and more to come in a month, etc.

[EricaAnn (imported)]

Dear Budleybare,

It's great to hear that you're doing so well! Isn't it great to free from the bonds of testosterone? Never missed it myself and it's good to see that your doctor is also a good friend. That always comes in handy.

Based on the number of injections it sounds like you're in for....you're not only going to be the only eunuch in the Antarctic but also a pin cushion as well!

[Sac_mec (imported)]

Hi Bud,

I too had not heard of Creatine before but a quick search in Wikipedia suggests

that it is an acid that supplies energy to the muscles. A search via Google brings up loads of stuff about Bodybuilders, so it's something that is both naturally produced and no doubt bought by the bucket load by Body builders to nourish their muscles. A reduction in this nitrogenously produced organic acid seems to answer many questions as to why Eunuch energy level falls, it appears. Please don't be over-concerned. I see that in general you are delighted by your life now and as I suggested before Comfort is an important word in preserving energy and also sticking well within that comfort zone. Exceeding it is bad news but I know that some young eunuchs here don't share all that I'm saying entirely [and good for them]

The drop in testosterone is amazing and I can't help but feel that you must feel more mental freedom than ever before. I smiled at your comment about feeling less 'gay' and more asexual. Finding this space between the two sexes and enjoying it is such a relevation. I still feel a gay male but there are many

things pushed at gay males which are way off my chosen path and I'm sure that you agree. I think your decision to avoid HRT is a good one, but as a Chemical Eunuch you know that I'd be bound to say that wouldn't I!?

Enjoy the good times now to the full. Be aware that rest is good; that

applies to alot of folk. I just think that we become more aware of that.

I can feel your smiles and mirth and relaxed mind from here (I wrote this short thread some time ago about Eunuch Intuition, in case you were concerned).

It's great reading your updates. Really great.

[BudleyBare (imported)]

I am now a bit more than three months post-surgery, and find that little has changed in my life from a physiological perspective, but that my emotional situation has changed dramatically and is likely to change more.

The most obvious non-issue from the physical perspective is that my penis really hasn't shrunk much, or possibly not at all. It is more "drawn in" toward my body, and no longer gets erect. The scrotum is obviously less filled and thus smaller, but so what. I had previously considered removal of the scrotum, but now I think not. It just is not important for me anymore. And I have not had the problem of crossing my legs or sitting in an awkward position and causing pain. My skin seems to be clearer. The most significant physical change is that people continue to tell me how much healthier I look now. I am not aware of that change because I am with/in my body all the time, but others have a time lapse perspective of the changes in me.

The emotional side of my life is truly an unfolding story in the making. Aggressiveness is dramatically reduced. I am more centered on the things that I deem to be more important in life (meaning less of the material side and more of the relationship and spiritual side). I have no thoughts of sex. I can look at and appreciate a beautiful body (both femaile and male). My tolerance for children has increased, whereas in the past I could tolerate them for about 5 to 10 minutes, depending on the scream index.

I remain true so far on my desire to avoid HRT. I think I've had only two or three spells of hot flashes. My body does seem (subjective assessment here) to be running a bit warmer compared to pre-castration. And many, many people tell me I seem to be significantly more at ease and with an inner peace that they would like to achieve. For the first time in my life I am regularly exercising (and enjoying it as well) now for about one month. Strength training and cardiovascular performance are improving, but the cardiovascular gains are really limited and need a LOT more imiprovement.

Bottom line is that I continue to enjoy the journey that I am on. No regrets so far. And a lot of really neat people in my life, both locally, many by telephone and/or email, and then those here at EA. And I still am looking forward to my trip to Antarctica this coming January. Have purchased a Sony camcorder (first video camera ever in my life) and need to learn all the doo-dads before the trip. And I continue my work with the Course in Miracles and readings of works by people such as Eckhart Tolle, etc.