Desperate to be a Eunuch

[tugon (imported)]

No news from my doctor but a big bill for the testing. The falls stopped as suddenly as they started. If you remember the time I fell next to your car and I had always been a faller. This was just a brief period of more frequent falls. I had some great black eyes that brought me attention at work such as the time my boss told a guest I would do it because she was my boss. I took off my glasses so the guest could easily see my "shiner" and I said this is what happened if I did not do as she said. Another time a frequent guest asked what had happened and I told him I just had my performance evaluation. Humor aside I was looking rough a few times at work.

I did not see the neurologist yet and now am worried about the extra expense. At one point upon returning from Paris my doctor thought my pancreas was failing due to elevated blood sugars. Next they were concerned about my low red, white and platelets but now looking at years of blood work they have decided my blood is stable and low is how I run. Now I wish I had not mentioned the falls since they had always been part of my lack of coordination. Next time I will wait until there is actually a problem and not a doctor making me feel like there is a huge problem looming.

Thanks for asking.

[plix (imported)]

No problem! I'm sure others were wondering as well. Rest assured that I also read each post to your blog, even if I as well don't always have a ton to say!

That stinks about the bill.....I've definitely been there before. The way I would probably look at it though is it's best not to take chances with your health. I'm a hypocrite though since there was the time I was having abdominal pain but refused to go to the ER despite everyone's concern about appendicitis. Like you, my concern was the cost involved. The joys of being poor.....putting money over one's health!

[tugon (imported)]

I took my dog to the vet for his yearly check up and his vaccines. He is negative for heart worm but positive for Lyme disease. She said some things after that but I had shut down. She is calling tomorrow to tell me more about his lab work.

Wow he is my world and I will do everything he needs to be as healthy as possible.

[sparkey49 (imported)]

So glad you are finding some peace in all of what you have endured and hope everything keeps getting better and to heck with anyone’s negativity!

[Peter47-NL (imported)]

I wish you both the best. I understand that you had shut down when she said some things. I know how much you love your dog and your dog loves you. I know you will do an

ything he needs to be as healthy as possible.

[tugon (imported)]

I wish you both the best. I understand that you had shut down when she said some things. I know how much you love your dog and your dog loves you. I know you will do an

ything he needs to be as healthy as possible.

Thank you and yes I would do anything for him. Saturday morning Corky went from Corky to Eeyore. Corky who is alert and watches everything to Eeyore who hangs his head and slumps along. When we returned home Corky got in bed and I watched his hind legs spasm. I gave him some pain medication but could not get him to eat. He has hurt his back before and the sign of his not eating or drinking indicated he would not be getting up anythime soon.

I had to work Saturday night but I hated to leave him. I had given him more pain meds at 4:00 PM but was afraid to give him anymore later since he was not eating or drinking. I did not want him to reach toxic levels since he was not going to urinate either. I cam home this morning and his tail was wagging which pleased me. Of course I was impressed he could go 24 hours without having to void. I gave him his usual half a pill when he is in pain and we have had two very nice walks today. So I am much happier today.

[tugon (imported)]

So glad you are finding some peace in all of what you have endured and hope everything keeps getting better and to heck with anyone’s negativity!

sparkey49 I just recently saw your post and I wanted to thank you for your support.

[tugon (imported)]

I awoke this morning after a very trying night. My sleep was interrupted by flashback nightmares. I remembered seven of them and after calming myself down I would go back to sleep. Once asleep a new one would begin. I have not had a night like this in so many years. It is not good to relive a violent past. I was very emotional this morning and my first thought is "I can no longer live in this body". Oddly the body has healed but the spirit and mind are still hurting.

[daifu-orchid (imported)]

Did Mr Corky have anything good to contribute? Usually reliable at difficult times.....

[tugon (imported)]

Did Mr Corky have anything good to contribute? Usually reliable at difficult times.....

He luckily is not burdened by the dark past. We did not know each other then. He of course is always a comfort even if he cannot comprehend the depths of my sadness.