Decision Made & Going For It!

[EricaAnn (imported)]

Hey, I'll say it again - you go girl!!!!!

Thanks Paolo. I'm going the best I can.

Congrats on the new parts all working and forget my question in another thread. Humm... So

about t

his toy... *Swapping toy info....

Hi Mr. T,

I'll send you a PM and te

ll you all about it!

Oh, hell yes. It is all good and it all works! Congratulations! --FLO-- Thank you Uncle Flo and yes, it works just fine.

[Danya (imported)]

Hi Erica Ann,

You already know how delighted I am that surgery worked out so well for you. From what I hear from local friends who have had GRS, your 'test drives' will likely become even more enjoyable as time goes by.

My laser technician knows about me and when she had me spread my legs so that she could get into that crease where your leg meets your torso, she just loo

ked at me there and said "that's incredible."

The GRS results are amazing. I want one of 'those' myself! I mean the full working model, like you have. One day, I will.

Best wishes as you continue to enjoy the new you.

Hugs,

Danya

[EricaAnn (imported)]

Well, I just made it through what has become the hardest day of the year for me, that being Christmas. This has now become the third Christmas that has pasted without being with my extended family.

I sat alone in the dark for awhile on Christmas Eve while a half of century of Christmases past passed through my mind. And while thoughts of my grandparents, mom, dad and my brother passed by, I cried over their loss in my life. I guess what hurt the most is that I knew that they were gathered together to celebrate the holiday without me. The outcast that nobody wanted to be with.

It's very hard to be transgendered at this time of the year especially with the way my family feels about me. I even tried to telephone my mom twice earlier this week and because of caller ID, she would even answer the call. It's sad.

Though I've never been happier in my life, it's difficult because I can't share this happiness with them. :-\

[kennath7 (imported)]

Erica

Sorry to hear of your loneliness it must be really hard for you

You have come a long way and you should be proud of the accomplishments

You over come to Finley love yourself and feel free

Keep up the good work

[tugon (imported)]

I am sorry you were excluded from your biological family but your EA family loves you and cheers you on. I hope one day they realize what an incredible person is missing from their celebration.

[Danya (imported)]

Well, I just made it through what has become the hardest day of the year for me, that being Christmas. This has now become the third Christmas that has pasted without being with my extended family.

Hi Erica,

I was very surprised I received Christmas greetings from my two brothers, but I still do not know if that tentative outreach will lead to anything more. The relationship with my family has been the most difficult issue for me since I transitioned. It still bothers me.

Christmas can be a very difficult time for people with family problems. I can relate and I am so sorry you have this pain in your life.

I sat alone in the dark for awhile on Christmas Eve while a half of century of Christmases past passed through my mind. And while thoughts of my grandparents, mom, dad and my brother passed by, I cried over their loss in my life. I guess what hurt the most is that I knew that they were gathered together to celebrate the holiday without me. The outcast that nobody wanted to be with.

I, too, thought about Christmases past this year. This is the first year that I was not invited to spend the holidays with my family. I am crying for you now, I know how difficult this is.

It's very hard to be transgendered at this time of the year especially with the way my family feels about me. I even tried to telephone my mom twice earlier this week and because of caller ID, she would even answer the call. It's sad.

Though I've never been happier in my life, it's difficult because I can't share this happiness with them. :-\

You once wrote something on my transition thread similar to "it is difficult to be us", meaning transgender women. It is extremely difficult at times.

I am so sorry that you cannot connect with your mom. I know what it feels like to want to share your happiness with your family and be unable to do so.

No matter how happy we are because we are able to be our true selves, there is always unavoidable loss and grief.

I wish I could you a hug at this difficult time. You are a wonderful woman, Erica. You are important to me and I value your friendship.

Hugs,

Danya

[mrt (imported)]

Well, I just made it through what has become the hardest day of the year for me, that being Christmas. This has now become the third Christmas that has pasted without being with my extended family.

I sat alone in the dark for awhile on Christmas Eve while a half of century of Christmases past passed through my mind. And while thoughts of my grandparents, mom, dad and my brother passed by, I cried over their loss in my life. I guess what hurt the most is that I knew that they were gathered together to celebrate the holiday without me. The outcast that nobody wanted to be with.

It's very hard to be transgendered at this time of the year especially with the way my family feels about me. I even tried to telephone my mom twice earlier this week and because of caller ID, she would even answer the call. It's sad.

Though I've never been happier in my life, it's difficult because I can't share this happiness with them. :-\

Well in my family we had a sort of similar thing. There was a place in the back for those of us who were divorced. That club was me and one cast of relative (the spouse who came to be with her kids) and it sucked.

I think there were times I would have rather been home alone but I do feel for you... This seems so.... dumb to me. Is there not some way to get it into their heads that this is medical? I mean you haven't decided to join the Nazi party or become some religion they don't agree with.

You had a medical problem. Its been corrected. Can we please move forward?

[frances (imported)]

i jest to a big step posted my photo dont know i will take this might go all the way and end 50 yr of pain

[EricaAnn (imported)]

Hi Frances,

Thanks for posting. Your pain will end when you take your first big step into being yourself. Both Danya and I can attest to that. But you have to proceed at your own pace and do what you feel comfortable in doing. It all depends on you.

I encourage you to explore yourself maybe by starting with a gender therapist. They can be very helpful in determining your desire to be the person you feel like within yourself.

My thread and my experiences can help.

If you have any questions you would like to ask, please feel free to contact me. I don't profess to have all the answers, but I might be able to help.

Take good care of yourself and be strong! The only limitations on you is you. Don't let the fear of the unknown paralyze you.

[EricaAnn (imported)]

Hi Everyone,

Well, I'm super excited today. I finally got my hair extensions removed today after 5 long months of dealing with them.

It's time to fess up. I did something really stupid last August and had my hair cut really short. What a disaster that turned out to be! I looked so much like a boy again that I cried for 2 days. My only out of that mess was to spend a bunch of money and had a full set of hair extensions installed all over my head...like to the tune of $700.00. The most expensive hair cut I ever got that's for sure!

After 5 long months of enduring the torture of the hair extensions, my hair has finally grown out enough to have them removed. I can't believe how wonderful it feels to be able to run my fingers through my hair again. Something you just can't do when you have extensions.

While my hair is still a little shorter than I would like it, I had it styled in a very cute bob, which I can live with.

It's now time to continue the great growing out process. It should be back to a length that I want it in about 3-4 more months. Until then I can live with it.

Lesson learned. Be careful what you wish for because you might just get it!