Decision Made & Going For It!

[EricaAnn (imported)]

Perhaps get some personalized photo Christmas cards made. Send them one at that time with a nice happy contented message wishing them well. See what happens. By that time they should have had enough time to reconsider and get off their horses - it IS a long way down, you know.

What a simply wonderful idea kristoff. I always knew there was a reason I liked you. And I love that devious streak in you!

[plix (imported)]

I just wanted to thank you for your reply to my thread. It was supportive and encouraging

[Christina (imported)]

EricaAnn,

My oh my, how you've come such a long way. I just love your new avatar, it really does reflect the new you. Way to go girl!

I do like Kristoff's advice, don't let your family drag you down. It's nothing you could have prevented from happening. I know it might be hard to do, but don't let them think they have got the best of you, show that you still care for them.

[lilac (imported)]

Hey Erica Ann, I am so glad your doing well. I think it's great you and Terri get to see one another. Even calling is wonderful. I think it's so good for Terri to have such a good friend to talk to in person. Of course here at the EA is wonderful also, but very nice to be able to talk in person. I wish Christina was closer to you both, you could be known as *The Three Missketeers* Also, I loved Kristoff's xmas card idea. Well keep moving on sweetie, we only have one life to live.

hugss and love, Lilac

[EricaAnn (imported)]

plix, Christina and lilac,

Thanks so very much for your kind words. They are always appreciated!

I must be regaining my confidence from that nasty "little situation" that occurred 9 weeks ago, because if I wasn't, I wouldn't be posting a photo like that as my avatar. That picture was taken this past Saturday night just before we left for Hunter's. 10 months on HRT and 7 months post castration.

And on that note, today is the 7 month anniversary of my bilateral orchiectomy. 10 months total time as a eunuch. As far as the changes I've experienced, they have been many, both physically and mentally.

I really don't have much aggression in me any longer and that in it's self is something, considering the "old me". I'm also far more calmer than I can ever remember being. I'm just more happy and easy going. I used to be very much your typical "A" type of personality and now...I would definitely classify myself as a "B" type.

I have also found that I now need more sleep than in the past. I used to do real well on 6 hours a night, now if I don't get at least 7 hours, I'm really kinda dragging the next day. That seems to be inconsistent with the experiences of some of the other members of our community who now find they need less sleep.

Another thing. Contrary to a past post I made in this thread, I can no longer achieve an erection. Even with the proper stimulation. I'm now impotent, but that's okay especially in light of the fact that I'm transsexual and never really had any love for my male genitals.

I've also found that I have a lower tolerance to alcohol. I used to be able to drink 6 vodka martinis in a night and think nothing of it. If I have maybe 3 now, I'm almost on the floor. WOW, big change in that area!

Now the real questions are...how much of this is directly related to becoming a eunuch and what role does the FHRT play?

[EricaAnn (imported)]

Hi,

It's Monday night and I've done my weekly facial electrocution session a day earlier than usual. OMG, this is so painful, but the good news is with one more session, she will have totally cleared my upper lip area. WOOHOO! Progress at last. Oh well...no more mustaches for me!

Going to see my endocrinologist tomorrow night for my usual 2 month appointment. It will probably be the usual thing with blood tests for my hormone levels, a quick going over and the purchase of more estrogen. I'm currently at 6 Mg.'s a day so we'll see where he takes me from here. I'm also going to ask him for a prescription for a 5% ELMA creme. It's supposed to be a great help in numbing the skin and reducing the pain level of the electrolysis.

God...

the price we TG/girls pay for beauty.

It's been 12 weeks now and still no word from the family. Oh well...time to move on without them. I'm actually okay with it now. I've come to realize how "needy" they all had really become and how much more peaceful my life is without them. So I'm good with it.

[Christina (imported)]

Hi Erica,

One of the electrologists I was seeing told me about trying ELAMAX. It's very similar to EMLA but does not require a script and is supposed to work better. I can't say that I've tried it because I had a supply of EMLA at the time, but it might be worth checking out.

[EricaAnn (imported)]

Hi Everyone,

Just thought I'd post up with all the latest happenings and most, if not all, are good.

Spoke with my doctor regarding the latest results from my hormone tests the day before Thanksgiving. Everything looked great with the exception of my estrogen levels, which he felt was still too low, so he has boosted my daily estrogen dosage to 7 Mg.'s. I'll stay at this dosage until December 20th. As of this date I get another boost up to 8 Mg.'s a day. OMG, I just love it! My breast are getting a little tender again and I'm starting another growth spurt. I'm up to a full "B" cup now!

Electrolysis is going well, especially with the 5% ELMA creme. What a God sent that stuff is. She has finished my upper lip area and is now concentrating on my chin. My skin in the area that she's completed is now so smooth, I can't believe it. Like pre puberty!

Went to a wonderful Holiday party last night sponsored by the Chicago Gender Society. There had to be 130 girls there and what a great time we all had. Wore my "little black dress" and I felt that I looked pretty good last night. Just my own opinion. The CGS is also holding a TG Christmas luncheon on December 26th. I'm getting the feeling there are a lot us out there without families because of this whole GID issue.

Spent my first Thanksgiving without my family and that was a little sad, but I've got to get used to it. Christmas is coming and I'm getting the feeling that Thanksgiving is just going to be the first of many Holidays spent without them in the future. What makes it even worse is that my youngest son is going to spend Christmas with his girl friend in Rode Island. This will be the first Christmas without him since he was born. These two events have really just washed away any Christmas spirit in me. I'm beginning to understand the depression that many people feel around the Holidays. :-\ I don't even feel like putting up the decorations this year let alone doing any shopping which is really not like me...I love to shop!

Oh...and by the way, young son has spent some time tracing me down on the Internet and has discovered this web site. He took the time to read all of my posts and then confronted my spouse with everything I've shared with all of you. WOW...he'll take the time to research me, but won't do the same to try to educate himself on GID. I've also not received too much acceptance or understanding from him either. His far right wing Christian view points will not allow him. He just likes to beat me up with his Bible, which he knows very well. God, you have just got to love the far right wing don't you? LOL! The one thing that they all seem to forget is that our Lord loved and accepted all who loved and believed in Him! A rather limited practice of Christian values if you ask me!

[drew28 (imported)]

I too think I would benefit by having less testosterone so I will be less aggressive, more feminine all the way around

[Zac (imported)]

Even by taking 200mg of Androcur for the past 6 month, I am still as aggressive as before.Not that I am happy about that. Just a fact. So less T doesnt necessarily equate to less aggressive. In my opinion.