My first post again.

[astronomycat (imported)]

Before I submitted my last first post I cut half of it out because it seemed unnecessary than I cut out half of what remained because I could not get it worded right. This time I am going to try to do it right.

I am interested in chemical castration to eliminate sex drive, but there are several things that I am concerned about. My concerns (the ones I can think of at the moment) are possible side effects (like liver damage), feminisation, possible legal issues (using a prescription drug), and price.

If I were to decide that chemical castration was something I wanted to go for there are several things that would make things difficult for me. I find it difficult to talk to anyone about anything. I live in a small rural community with my parents.

I would have liked to go into more detail but the words are just not coming.

[happousai (imported)]

My concerns (the ones I can think of at the moment) are possible side effects (like liver damage), feminisation, possible legal issues (using a prescription drug), and price.

As far as I've heard, you can't get in legal trouble for ordering prescription drugs online; the worst thing that can happen is that customs stops your package (which happens at random) and returns it to the sender, in which case your money would be refunded a few weeks later, and there'd be nothing to stop you from trying again. Other people here have more experience than me in ordering prescription drugs online.

There were some other posts in this board (which seem to be missing right now due to the technical difficulties the forum has been experiencing) where people advocated ordering Depo-Provera from globaldrug.tv, and using it once a week until all traces of sex drive were gone, then once a month after that. It costs $21.66~$25 + shipping for each dose depending on how much you order at once. I just made my first order last week and it just entered and cleared customs yesterday according to the USPS tracking number.

Depo-Provera requires you to inject yourself in the buttocks with pre-loaded syringes, but one member testified that he managed to do it (without any prior experience) without any pain at all.

[tugon (imported)]

Before I submitted my last first post I cut half of it out because it seemed unnecessary than I cut out half of what remained because I could not get it worded right. This time I am going to try to do it right.

I am interested in chemical castration to eliminate sex drive, but there are several things that I am concerned about. My concerns (the ones I can think of at the moment) are possible side effects (like liver damage), feminisation, possible legal issues (using a prescription drug), and price.

If I were to decide that chemical castration was something I wanted to go for there are several things that would make things difficult for me. I find it difficult to talk to anyone about anything. I live in a small rural community with my parents.

I would have liked to go into more detail but the words are just not coming.

Hi astronomycat it is good you reposted. My first question is why you feel the need to eliminate your sex drive. I was castrated for several reasons and one was because I had become a sexual addict and it was controlling me. I also was not comfortable being male but not wanting to be female. My sex drive was not eliminated but greatly reduced and in a loving relationship I still need the physical pleasure and closeness. Another thing is that with the reduced testosterone is a heightened level of emotions. I am more sensitive.

On your profile you mention trouble with memory and that can be worse with lowered testosterone. Your memory problems are similar to someone who has suffered trauma. You do not have to answer this but I was wondering if you had been abused? Your dislike of sex and memory issues made me wonder about your history. There are lots of folks who have very good insights and I hope we can be of help.

Also please do not worry about how you might word things. If we are not sure what you are asking we will ask you. The only time any writing is checked for grammar or spelling is when it is submitted as a story. The EA is a good group of non judgemantal folks with which you can share anything. I know, I have.

[Christina (imported)]

Hi astronomycat,

Many folks here can tell you a number of different reasons they were castrated. They are as varied as much as personality is. One thing you must keep in mind is castration is not for everyone. Sadly, for those it isn't, not much is ever heard from them again. It also would be a very wise thing to do to make sure that this is your decision and it's what you need. You'll have to live with that decision for the rest of your life, good or bad.

I can't help but to say how much depression comes into play involving castration. That's one thing you must be sure isn't a motivation for castration. It's not a 'cure all' for all your problems. One thing many seem to overlook is the fact the largest sex organ in your body is your between your ears, not your legs. Self diagnosis is not always the best thing to do. Being open and honest can go a long way in helping you make that choice.

Please also feel free to ask anything here. There are a great many fine folks that can give you answers your questions, no matter how you word things. Your physical and mental health is a concern many of us share.

[astronomycat (imported)]

On your profile you mention trouble with memory and that can be worse with lowered testosterone.

I don't think that I have a memory problem (at least not when compared to most other people). My problems with memory are most likely all in perception and expectation.

As for why I want chemical castration I am not entirely sure myself. I have spent enough time second guessing myself that I am not sure of much of anything anymore. I mentioned lowering sex drive but there is more to it then just that. There is something about the whole concept on being male that I find offensive.

As for my history my two older sisters used to dress me up as a girl when I was little. The only thing I remember other than the fact that it happened is the kindergarten reaction to nail polish.

I always worry. In this case I mostly worry about being misunderstood. When I get answers to my questions they are usually not to the questions I meant to ask.

[madscientist1 (imported)]

As far as I've heard, you can't get in legal trouble for ordering prescription drugs online; the worst thing that can happen is that customs stops your package (which happens at random) and returns it to the sender, in which case your money would be refunded a few weeks later, and there'd be nothing to stop you from trying again. Other people here have more experience than me in ordering prescription drugs online.

There were some other posts in this board (which seem to be missing right now due to the technical difficulties the forum has been experiencing) where people advocated ordering Depo-Provera from globaldrug.tv, and using it once a week until all traces of sex drive were gone, then once a month after that. It costs $21.66~$25 + shipping for each dose depending on how much you order at once. I just made my first order last week and it just entered and cleared customs yesterday according to the USPS tracking number.

Depo-Provera requires you to inject yourself in the buttocks with pre-loaded syringes, but one member testified that he managed to do it (without any prior experience) without any pain at all.

I second that. The address is www.globaldrug.tv. They are cheap and reliable. DP is east to self-inject. Just go to www.google.com and enter "buttock injection" in the searchbox for techniques.

[Sac_mec (imported)]

Astronomycat you are on the right track and have found the right questions, I can see that. On another posting someone (apologises to them) has written that it is like deciding to be neither A or B. By choosing to be a Chemical Eunuch you can experience this sense of newly found well-being - a new centre ground It is a great feeling to be aware that you are male but that your mind is growing in new fruitful, interesting directions. The reduction of testosterone enables one to be aware of ones brains more than ones penis and that is a major advantage.

It is like finding a space to breathe again. I think your search is the right one; there is a "space" beyond being male and you are absolutely right to find that and enjoy it.