Forgive my poor english but it is not my tonge. However i will try to express my ideas.
i´m new on this site. I have castration fantasies since , when i was a child, i watched a spanish film: "streets dogs" ("perros callejeros"). There the boy of the film have a punishment: being his penis cut off for becaming a girl pregnant.
First, when i watched that scene i felt repulse, but in many years this repuse has became in ...fantasy, curiosity.
In present days i ´m aware of that fact: castration in all its forms (penectomy , nullification, etc) causes in my sexual excitation, like a kind of fetish.
Finally , it was a great thing for me to searching this site. I never thougth that it can be men who want to be castrated and live like an eunuch . When i comment the existence of this site with my friends, they shock.