Well today, July 27th is my third year anniversary of my castration. Do I look back and wonder if it was a wrong choice. Simple answer is NO. To be ball less was something that I wanted as far back as I can remember. I did the research on the effects, I look within myself and said that it was right for me. I did the test drive for over 2.5 years with androcur.
Quick snapshot of some of my life changes. There are many more that I am not covering here.
·Little has changed physically or mentally in the last year. Think I was still changing in both areas in the first 2 years.
·Weight I am about 10 pounds less then when castrated. Eat less.
·Erections I still get them. Mostly from morning wood. Not very hard. Spontaneous are gone. Great effort to achieve a minor erection that does not last.
·Strength Loss a great amount. Am sure a good amount has to do with lack of physical activity. Retired around the same time as
Far less physical activity in my personal life. Think the changes in my life plus the lack of testosterone compounded the strength loss.
·Energy Less energy goes along with the strength I think.
·Hair Face and body hair is less, thinner and softer. I was never all that hairy to start with. Head hair is still decreasing at about the same rate. Wish that would have been different.
·Eunuch Calm That one is hard to call. I guess I do not get as mad as fast as before. I may count to 8 where I would count to 6 before I would blow up. I do take more time to look at the other side.
·Aggressive What others say I am still aggressive and one that takes to control. Am I more or less is aggressive today? That is hard to grade. No one has seen what I was before. What they could be seeing is a watered down version of a far more aggressive person. I have always been more likely to in management of a project then to be follower.
·Emotions I have always looked at things logically and with little emotions. What others tell me it seems that may not have changed much. I am more emotional in many areas where I know I was never before. I care for others where I had little care before. Bottom line I am more emotional but think most would like to see me for more the what I am.
·Friendships For most people that would not even be mentioned. For me it would be one of the most powerful changes I had. I did not have friends. When my testosterone levels went down my need and desire to have friends grew. Seems strange but it happened. As a result I developed a few friends that became very very close. We ended up living together. I developed some good friendships from the archive. Somehow testosterone prevented me from having friends.
·Osteoporosis Yes I have it. I took more than enough calcium pills and vitamin D. I was just over 2 years with androcur when I got tested and found that I had bone loss. Enough bone loss where the doctor said that I need to be on fosamax. I will most likely have to be on it the rest of my life unless I start taking some HRT. Well I am very happy without testosterone running in my body. Hell I do not want any of that estrogen messing me up. So it will have to be fosamax. I just have to get tested every 2 years and see if the dose needs adjusting. Hope they will have a better drug in the years ahead.
Was castration the right choice for me? I thought about it from my teen years. I liked the smooth look as far back as I can remember. I did the research on the effects, risks and life changes that castration will bring. I was on chemical castration drug androcur for over 2.5 years. I had blood test done that showed that I was at castration levels. I was at this level for a long time so I knew just what I was getting myself into. For me it was the right choice. If I were asked would I do it again I would say YES.
One test was for osteoporosis. That number was better then the one I had 9 months ago. I have been on the Fosamax for over three years. There was little change in the numbers from the start to last fall. I did increase the calcium another 400 units. I am around 1600 units now. Maybe that was the difference. The scan was done on a different type of bone scanner so that could also be a factor. My number is still in the bad area but is improving. Time will tell. Just hope I do not test the bones till they crack.
