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[Scottie (imported)]

EVERYBODY! LISTEN UP AND LISTEN TIGHT!!!!

I am sitting in my office, with a severe ache in my left scrotum, where my testicle used to be. I have those pain episodes once in a while, they are very uncomfortable.

I am writting because I just got a note from someone who wanted to know how I did my self mutilation. I would not, and will not tell ,what I injected into my Testicles. I almost died as most senior members know. It is very disturbing to me that after the hell that I went through that anyone would want to try that method again. Human nature being what it is, I do understand, but I do not approove. IT IS TOOOOOO DANGEROUS.

I injected myself about 2 years ago. I over injected my testcles and I almost passed out becasue of the pain. PAIN PAIN PAIN AND LOTS OF IT!!!!!!! Here for a reminder is what happened to me. After the swelling went down I went to the internist. He told me to wait and see what would happen. He didn't want to intervene yet. That weekend my scrotum formed open soars to allow the liqued to drain. I was taken to the ER as a result of that. The draining started an lasted for almost 3 months in all. The second drainage was full of puss and black dead tissue from the testicles. It burrned, itched, was dirty, felt stickey and was stinkey! It was in my underware and eventually had to wear female sanitray napkins. When that didn't work I ended up in diapers.

To say the least it was awful awful awful. The doc said that it was normal for the body to act this way. It was expelling the now dead testicle tissue. Painful, irratating, inconvieniant. When the drainage stopped, it never did all the way, I went to another Doc who was a urologist. I hd to have several tests. First an ultra sound. Second a scrapping of the tissue of the scrotum and the testicle inside. OUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! No Fun at all!!!!!! What nobody told me... except people here was... !. I had to be careful that I didn't get blood poisioning, and gane green. I didin't listen to them and almost died. After the tests, the surgery was scheduled. The doc tried to do a Full Orchictomy by entering the lower belly, I have a scar from one side to tht other, that still hurts at times, He was going to lift the testies up through my lower belly and not have to cut the testicles. When he got there he found that both testicles had fused themselves to the inner scrotal tissue. He then closed the belly cut and had to open both sides of the scrotum with large cuts to scrape the testies off the scrotal wall. As a result of that larger incession, I got infected and almost lost my penis and my life. The wounds would not heal. I was put on IV Zosen a very powerful antibiotic. It casued dehydration and constant diareha. I had stomach pains and aches and I lost 50 or 60 lbs. I had a nurse come in everyday to change my dressing and to meassure the wound. I know this sounds sexie to some. All the nurses where old hags and it was embarasing and it hurt. It was not sexie or fun!!!!!! Well after a few months of this, I had an internal bleed in the scrotum. What I used to start this process had decayed all the scrotal tissue all the veins and artaries. The proces had not stopped yet and it was still eating the tissue. I went back into the hospital and had to be opened up and cleaned out all over again. This time the doc packed the wound with gauss. When the gauss was to come out, he left in a piece and I was sewed up anyway. Finally I got -re-infected and re-opened and they found the gauss that was casing all the problems. I was awake as they tugged on all the tissue to find out what was tissue and what was gauss. SO YOU WANT TO TRY THIS HUH???? Well after another month I was healing. The pain was going away.

When I went to stop the pain medication I began to go into withdrawl. I had been on Pain meds for over 5 months. I was put back into the hospital for a weeks stay of detoxification. WHAT FUN!!!!! NOT!!

AS A RESULT OF MY FOLLY....

Today I still get pains where the testicles used to be. Feels like I have testicles that have been kicked most of the time. The scar pain flairs up once in a while. On some days It is uncomfortable to walk and on other days it is uncomfortable to sit. If you asked would I do it again I would say... NOT THAT WAY. Do I like being a Eunuch???? Yes I DO! I take hormones male but it is controlled by my wife. I spend a lot of time off of any hormones. I take calcium to prevent bone loss. My wife demands sex sometimes so I take cialis or viagra. I like sex also so that isin't an issue.

Recently I was turrned down for life insurance for on the report from the Docs they mentioned this whole episode and the injection of that chemical.

I can not get disability insurance or anymore life ins. I HOPE YOU WANNA BE'S GET THE PICTURE HERE. If I would have listened to Andrew or Scag or any other member I would have not done this to myself. Im not asking for anything from anyone here. I just want all to see the downside of the way I chose to castrate myself. I almost died.

If I where to do it again, being castrated, i would find a sex change Doc, or even an obgy that would do the proceedure. I would not use Dr. Kimmel as he has also had his share of problems and issues. Dr. Spector is tooo old and he is senial. If you use a cutter make sure they KNOW what they are doing. Get references. Most of all go slow and think it through. It is a great turn on to have it done. After it's done now what???? Now what becomes everyday life. I PRAY THAT YOU GOT IT, THAT THERE IS NO SHORTCUT, ONLY STUPIDITY AND DESIRE. God Bless all of you!!!! Scottie

[A-1 (imported)]

Scottie,

Your story is exactly why I hang out here and I want to be the first to agree with what you have to say.

I have seen cases similar to yours and only the strong survived.

Please, who ever you are, listen to Scottie. He has paid dearly for his wisdom and so you don't have to pay for yours. He is offering it to you free of charge.

Please listen to him. If you are careful and you are persistant, you will find what you are seeking without killing yourself in the process.

Please, for the love of the E.A., don't do it...please.

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[Glenda J (imported)]

Scottie, I am sorry about your experience.

Yet, I think the point has been made around here many times that a person should try chemical castration first before considering surgery. Secondly that the EA has always provided the names of responsible doctors a person can turn to if they desire full physical castration.

I will throw in my own two cents worth. The one thing that blows my mind is when a person on the one hand is castrated physically and then turns around and takes hormones to achieve some balance. The testicles do provide some needed hormones for crying out loud. I know several happy and satisfied eunuchs and I am not someone standing up here saying that being a eunuch is wrong sinful etc. Even Jesus himself said (Matt 19:12) that being a eunuch is okay.

But, please folks be responsible about this. And the EA certainly has done that very thing in all the time I have been here. Yes, fantasy stories can be erotic and you may get off reading one. Great. But that is fantasy and reality is something else.

[Dayhunter (imported)]

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Recently I was turrned down for life insurance for on the report from the Docs they mentioned this whole episode and the injection of that chemical.

I can not get disability insurance or anymore life ins. I HOPE YOU WANNA BE'S GET THE PICTURE HERE.

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I don't know how old you are but if you're 50 join AARP. You can probably get insurance from them. I'd start wth term and eventually switch it to full life. You could also try GEICO for term. Get a new GP and don't volunteer any info you don't have to. The competion is so stiff (heh-heh) some of these outfits will cutoff one of their own nuts to get your business. I know some will think it's dishonest but "don't ask don't tell" can cover a lot of sins.

I'm 68. I'll be 69 if I make through Jan '06. A few years ago I went in for my annual exam and as an after thought I said to my GP that maybe we ought to do an EKG since I hadn't had one for a few years. I think this was '98 or '99 and my last one had been in '94 when I had a neck fusion. After I got home I got a call from the nurse explaining that they didn't want me to be alarmed. BUT my GP had seen something she was concerned about and she wanted me to see a cardio man right away. (Yeah Right) The first thing I did was call my insurance guy and double my policy. Eventually it turned out that I had had a silent heart attack. Of course I didn't know that when I upped my policy.

[A-1 (imported)]

If you want life insurance, try this.

Tell them you were an life insurance agent and you bet your balls to your district manager that you could remain in the insurance business and yet maintain your integrity.

They'll surely understand.



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[sag111 (imported)]

Thanks again for shairing this as we get people all the time wanting to know how to do this they seam to think all you have to do is inject yourself and sit back and wait.Scottie you went through this and lived to tell everyone about it and now i just hope they listen to you and us.Thanks again my friend and its always good to see your posts.

[madscientist1 (imported)]

Scottie, I suppose it is sadly ironic that after all that misery you have so much groin pain whereas my testicles are almost completely numb from over 3 years of Depo-Provera. Folks, if you wish to castrate yourself with a shot take DP in the butt & let it castrate you. Apparently, with what we know about the Burdizzo, banding & testicle injections the testis are REALLY hard to destroy. Stick with DP or surgery.

[madscientist1 (imported)]

Eventually it turned out that I had had a silent heart attack. Of course I didn't know that when I upped my policy.

What, exactly, is a silent heart attack? At the risk of being called "anti-doctor" it seems to me to be another medical "thing" devised to scare us all needlessly and drain our wallets, like the many tests we are told to have and later told we do not need. If it is silent then I guess it is not much of a problem, unless it is allegedly a precursor to a "noisy" one