I was just thinkning about it and relized I have kinda (well it seems like) always known I have wanted to be castrated. So I was wondering how everyone else came to the conclusion that they wanted to actually be cut. I still have yet to be cut however I am going to be "fixed" on the 18th of April. EEEE I cant wait. Sorry I love tangets. Ok so Along those same line I was wondering how every one else decided it was right for them. Also how you told those close to you of your desires. Anyones thoughts would be greatly appreciated.
I started out in my twenties, just cutting, not really wanting castration. After a prolonged period of several years, the thought of castration developed and I'm not sure why. It was not there initially but seized upon me. After a while it was all I could think about. I attempted it several times, eventually cutting open my sac and pulling my testicles out, again fear shocked me back and I put them back in. I got an infection and went to the emegency room. The doctor went nuts and I walked out. Finally, with the help of a female co-worker who was sympathetic, I had one removed. She wouldn't help with the acutal removal, but was there to help should something go wrong. The other testicle I finally abused until it was non-functioning. It's the size of a pea now. In reality, looking back, I was out of control sexually. I do regret not having any sexual feeling without some HRT. Hash
A good many eunuchs or soon to be have had this feeling going back to age 10 give or take. I know for me as I left the doctors office heading down the hall I felt complete. I told my ex, she told our kids, most all of my friends know. So I am very open to the subject. That is not true with other eunuchs.
For those of us who don't desire orchiectomy, an interesting and analogous question might be, when it was that we realized a surgical alteration of that type was possible, and we either didn't want it, or were repelled by the idea. Having grown up in a circumstance where I was aware that animals were routinely castrated, I knew from early childhood about that type of surgery, and was aware that it could be done to humans as well as to domestic animals. Don't think I ever felt that much fear about castration, because, when I was young, I didn't know of any person who had had an operation like that--I knew castration of a person was possible, but didn't take the possibility seriously. I think I have known since age five or so, that I had no desire for any physical alteration. My orientation has always been, to do whatever was possible, with what was there. Maybe feelings about that sort of thing, are an innate part of an individual. Either you have an urge to alter your body, or you don't. I have no tattoos, and wouldn't want one. In fact, the first time I accessed the archive, the reason was that I was trying to find out how to have a discoloration resulting from a puncture injury removed, and I looked at BME's site, on the theory that a tattoo-oriented site might have information about getting the things removed. I had already realized that the acceptance of eunuchism by those who are attracted to it, indicates that they have rejected the pattern of sexual identity which society attempts to force on them. So I might eventually have accessed the archive anyway. (Turns out, the discoloration caused by the injury is fairly deep in the flesh, and some rather invasive surgery would be needed to get rid of it. It's not in a conspicuous place, and I guess I'll live with it.)
I don't want an orchidectomy myself. I want a guy who had one.
My earliest memories, 5 or younger, were of wanting to be sexually intimate with a eunuch. Amazing, isn't it, that the instinct should develope before I knew about sex or eunuchs.
My walk has been much the same as others in that my libdo was out of controal and i felt the only way i could controal it was to lower the testosterone.About three years ago i went on depo provera and i found out how normal people felt and thats when i knew i needed to have my surgery done.And with much prayers and thought i found a doctor that was willing to help me with this.I have not regretted a singel day of it and i know my life has been rewarded by this decission but remember everyone is diffrent and we need to always try this out befor we have the surgery it is so perminant you see and cant be reversed.Thanks for your post on this.
I think with all of the people who I have talked too that have liked the out come of being castrated (which has been all of them so far eventhough i havent talked to to many yet) have wanted it since they were younger. Another interesting point i think I have kinda found out is that the peorson did it for themselves and not just to try and please another person. I dont know yet though hehe I am still young I guess. So I think what I belive it was Drew brought up was in interesting want, that of wanting to be with an eunuch yet not be one yourself, I wonder why one would want that? hehe Sorry I know I ask lots of Questions
lossemylitguys (imported) wrote: Wed Apr 06, 2005 8:45 pm
I think with all of the people who I have talked too that have liked the out come of being castrated (which has been all of them so far eventhough i havent talked to to many yet) have wanted it since they were younger.
Chris,
That's the answer. I've dreamed about being intimate with a eunuch or nullo since I was 4-5, way before I knew about sex. It's instinct.
