The Joys of Masterbation

[DrewR (imported)]

Sindy,

I'm attracted to nullos whether they appear male or female. Basically, when I was 12 my mom was the first woman I ever fucked. It's a long, sad story that ended in lots of blaming me and making fun of my little dick. My heterosexual feelings for women who were born that way shut down in self-defense. My lover before that was the 18-year-old boy next door, and that was all good but he went off to college. I wish I'd followed my original instinct and found the eunuch or nullo of my dreams. The thing is, I thought is was just a dream.

Sister Krister,

Is it as simple as that? I've never been totally clear on the top-bottom thing. I definitely want to fuck, but only if it my lover likes it as much as I do.

[Gil (imported)]

Top = Fucker

Bottom = Fuckee

Both excellent positions!

Thanks. Whooda thunk it would be so simple.

But I beleive in this context, the proper noun would be Fuckor.

[ssindysmith2002 (imported)]

Sindy,

I'm attracted to nullos whether they appear male or female. Basically, when I was 12 my mom was the first woman I ever fucked. It's a long, sad story that ended in lots of blaming me and making fun of my little dick. My heterosexual feelings for women who were born that way shut down in self-defense. My lover before that was the 18-year-old boy next door, and that was all good but he went off to college. I wish I'd followed my original instinct and found the eunuch or nullo of my dreams. The thing is, I thought is was just a dream.

Sister Krister,

Is it as simple as that? I've never been totally clear on the top-bottom thing. I definitely want to fuck, but only if it my lover likes it as much as I do.

You had sex with your Mom???

[DrewR (imported)]

Sindy,

Like I said it's a long, sad story. I had the usual sex play with other boys, and that was all good, but it ended when I was 12 and woke up coming in my mom's mouth. She showed up in my room that night and jacked me off. A few nights later we fucked for the first time. I feel perverted to say I got into it, even instigated it sometimes, and let it go on for a year. Then somehow it was all my fault, there was always something wrong with my male friends, I couldn't have a girlfriend because my 4 1/2 inch erection was too small, etc. Years later she did the deed with my brother - in front of me in my own bed - and raved about his big dick compared to mine. By my early 20s I was such a loose fit during intercourse that if my partner was relaxed or wet at all I couldn't feel it. If I couldn't, then how could she? My heterosexual feelings shut down in frustration and self-defense. I'm still attracted to other intact guys but never the emotional attraction or intensity I feel for eunuchs or nullos.

I hesitate to tell the tale because I don't want people to think I'm damaged goods. My brother eventually got drugged out of his skull and was killed in an accident. I moved to the West Coast and came out of it amazingly OK except for this huge unfulfilled need to meet

the eunuch or nullo of my dreams.

Guess I just felt like getting it off my chest. Hope I don't weird you out too much.

Drew

[A-1 (imported)]

Top = Fucker

Bottom = Fuckee

Both excellent positions!

Krister,

I guess then that in your whole life that you have NEVER "FUCKED UP".

What a novel concept...

A-1

[ssindysmith2002 (imported)]

Drew I was just a little shocked to hear you had sex with your mom sorry it drug up bad memories.

[DrewR (imported)]

Sindy,

I asked for it.

Drew

[chrys (imported)]

Drew,

Thank you for having the courage to share.

These things happen to more people than ever acknowledge it, and the veil of silence allows them to continue to happen to others.

[DrewR (imported)]

Thanks, Chrys. The anonymity of the internet helps with bravery.

Here's the deal. The only way an adult could get away with sex with a minor is to seperate them from other kids. The isolation sticks. Toss in threats to keep quiet, and you've got a recipe for post traumatic stress.

I want people who're attracted to kids to get that. If it takes being castrated to control their urges, cool. It's an act of love.

Drew