Remember me? I don't post very often. (I'm a born-that-way female just so ya know....)
I have a pretty serious question to ask...
I was laying in bed early this morning and I began to wonder if I weren't going crazy... (Crazier than usual that is...) I was thinking of things my new boyfriend and I have talked about. Just soundbytes replayed. I cannot stop thinking about it for very long since we got together Saturday afternoon. At the time, I told him he was wonderful and several other similar adjectives. I told him it was nice to finally find someone who loves and understands nuances the way I do. We also had a conversation here and there about this "eunuch friend" I have online- not from here actually. He got himself castrated and now regrets it terribly. So one day he sent me an IM out of the blue and I just happened to be talking to this boyfriend so I said "This eunuch IMed me and..." - started telling him the story. So of course along the way, said boyfriend and I have talked about genital mods and such because I have a site on circumcision- the subject of circ is one of my interests, but not because I want or need my boyfriends circ'd- in fact my sons are not.... we talked about this Saturday over lunch actually. He told me he'd had one undescended testicle when born but it was fixed.
Well, we'd been at his place and watched a movie. He'd said before that he'd pictured cuddling with me when we talked about what we'd do when Saturday finally arrived. (Our 3rd date btw.) He'd kissed me on the cheek on our 2nd date and I told him there was something different and "WOW" about it and that I looked forward to some "real kissing". Well, that "real kissing" Saturday was something I'd only ever imagined. It was me plus him of course... And I told him I'd never had the right person to reciprocate. He reacted like no man I've ever talked to or been with has. Not only that, but he was gentle and nuanced back.
Well here's where this applies to this board. This nuancing went on for hours and was lovely. No pressure but wonderful. He kept sighing- saying it was a very happy sigh. And we talked about men and emotions .... As a side not to what I'm about to say, he very obviously had an erection - though it must be stated nobody had any clothes off. (Okay- I think I took my socks off...
)On the way home, however, I say "When are we going to have that talk?" He knew what I meant. We'd touched on the subject in fair detail two days prior- the talk about birth control and STDs etc. before things got "any further". I'd thought we would've had it that night, but we really didn't (He actually stopped things on purpose saying "This is where I draw the line for now..." Shocked the hell out of me that a man would and could do that, but he'd warned me prior of this ability....) Earlier we'd actually talked about the eunuch friend and I'd said "Doesn't do it for me.... same with women. They just don't have the right equipment!" and gave some detailed reason as to why, of course, which doesn't need elaborated on here.
Well no deal on the talk in the car of course. He wants it to be in person I guess and not while driving. But he brought up the eunuch subject again. Odd - I thought I was the one with the weird fixation (being a woman and all...) Always have had an interest... So he says "You know some eunuchs still can get erections..." "Well this guy online," I object, "Says he can't at all..." totally letting that tidbit go straight over my head.....
Now, do you think I"m putting the wrong pieces together, or is this just a little bit too weird? I was reading the thread in this folder about how being a eunuch changes your sex drive...... Hmmm..... Any feedback is appreciated!
