becoming a eunuch

[philip1 (imported)]

I'm now employed

woo hoo

[JesusA (imported)]

Congratulations!

You pack up and move across the continent to follow Bubba. You have no contacts to speak of in your new location. You find a job in a week!!! This does say something important about your competence. I know you'll do great.

[philip1 (imported)]

thanks everyone for your words of encouragement,

Day two at the new job:

today went better than yesterday I didn't get hyperthermic and we got a lot done. I actually drove myself to work and back without getting lost. But this manual labor thing I don't know how long I can do this. I really know that my my lean muscle is going away ugh!!!

[philip1 (imported)]

can you say major mood swings................................

This message has been eliminated because it would make things worse rather than better.

[Robby (imported)]

my existance has ruined the plans of everyone I have ever been involved with... I wish my mom remembered the pill then I wouldn;t have fucked up every life I have had contact with......Wow Philip,

Is Bubba okay today? Sounds like you're having a bad day.

Life is difficult and there are no easy answers. Tomorrow the sun comes up and we start over again.

Hang in there buddy.

[philip1 (imported)]

I will be taking some time away from the archive. I know I am emotional now so what I wasn't ever before in my life. Right now I have a lot of stress in my life and I do not need any armchair quarterbacking. right now I just think its best that I be left alone for a while.

[philip1 (imported)]

OK.....

So in case anyone was paying attention I hate Birthdays I have been depressed 25 out of 32 birthdays and I expect this trend to continue till I am too old to remember that I'm old. I find birthdays to be a horrible reminder that I was tossed upon the earth wrongly equiped and that I am one year closer to death. ugh

I am ok the cursed day has passed I am better but I HATE birthdays.

[bobweekend (imported)]

getting castrated/nulloed/etc is a very personal choice. I read about guys done because of their wife/boyfriend/master, etc...

For me I knew the time was right and have no regrets.

Bob

[philip1 (imported)]

this thread is a documentary about my

transition from genetic male to

Eunuch/ neutrois I welcome comments but try to keep them on topic otherwise it degrades the origional intent of this thread.

[philip1 (imported)]

now that I have been free of testosterone for 10 months or so I have noticed some significant loss of muscle strength while supprising it is not anything to panic over as I did expect it going in.

I have a question for the members here and please be honest...

How many here are castrated and are NOT taking any kind of hormones?

I ask as I kind of feel alone in that I have no intention of ever taking them.