becoming a eunuch

[philip1 (imported)]

Today my cat for some reason decided it would be fun to play hide and seek. Being her Dad for the last 13 years i got really worried and even broke down in tears thinking she got out and into traffic (there is a busy road infront of my house). then after 4-5 hours of worrying and crying she waltzes out of wherever and says feed me. I COULD HAVE KILLED HER!!! The important thing is she's ok and i can restart my heart and Bubie's too. Oh and on top of that I blew out my knee looking for her too torn paletor(kneecap) tendon no fun. I can now be called the gimpy eunuch

[Robby (imported)]

Today my cat for some reason decided it would be fun to play hide and seek. Being her Dad for the last 13 years i got really worried and even broke down in tears thinking she got out and into traffic (there is a busy road infront of my house). then after 4-5 hours of worrying and crying she waltzes out of wherever and says feed me. I COULD HAVE KILLED HER!!! The important thing is she's ok and i can restart my heart and Bubie's too. Oh and on top of that I blew out my knee looking for her too torn paletor(kneecap) tendon no fun. I can now be called the gimpy eunuch

Wow Phil, you sure had quite the experience! By your own words, it looks like you're emotional with the crying and still a little hyper that you blew out your knee in the hunt for pussy. Oh, did I say that, sorry, your cat.

Do you get the feeling you're in between your old self and the new Eunuch Phil? I'll bet you cannot wait for the full Eunuch Phil to emerge.

Take care Phil and say hi to Bubba.

[philip1 (imported)]

Robby

I'd say that as far as the real Eunuch Phil I'm about 80% there thanks to the androcur that I was on from september till surgery. Since surgery I have become even more emotionally in touch with myself and have found out who I really am.

[An Onymus (imported)]

Phil--

This is, I think, the only thread in the archive which is in (more or less) a journal or diary format, and which details the process of someone going from the sex condition of an uncastrated male, to the eunuch condition. And I would guess that is the reason why the thread has gotten 19,000 hits. I am personally somewhat skeptical about the benefits which might be derived from orchiectomy, but I have found the thread interesting and informative to read. You might consider editing your posts in it, into a regular journal or diary format. You should be able to get 20,000-50,000 words, if you include some background material, and you could probably post the story in the nonfiction articles section of this archive. If you keep a regular diary, of course a lot of people would find that interesting. I don't know whether a commercial publisher would accept a manuscript of that type, but the story would be of some value to those who are considering orchiectomy.

My reading of this thread has raised a question. It seems to me that your posts detail the fact that, in the transition from male to eunuch, there actually appear to be several different transwformational processes which go on. The physical change is obviously the most visible and prominent one, but there are also a psychological transformation, a social transformation (if you are open with people, regarding what is happening), a process of change in familial relations, and even a transformation in your circumstances in your place of employment. What I am curious about, is whether you perceive these various aspects of the change, to have proceeded together, or if there is an effect in which one area of the transformation "gets ahead" of the others, and then the others have to catch up (which most psychologists would say is a "crisis point.") My impression is that you've managed all the aspects of the change fairly well, up to this point. Hope you and Bub have everything work out right in the future. You do seem to have developed an upbeat attitude, and that's the first requisite for a success in anything.

[philip1 (imported)]

HMMMMMMMMMM convert this thread into a book HMMMMMMM might be interesting. I may start on that once the thread hits 20,000 it will take me some time but I think its doable.

[philip1 (imported)]

I have started to write the book

[philip1 (imported)]

I have posted a taste of the finished work in the nonfiction section titled "Making A Eunuch"

[JesusA (imported)]

As you would expect from Philip, he has produced an intelligent and highly articulate piece that is of permanent value for the Archive. I hope that he plans to continue his new thread so that we learn of his on-going experiences and of the emergence of the Phil that had been, too long, hidden.

Philip: The Making of a Eunuch ( http://www.eunuch.org/vbulletin/showthread.php?t=7423)

To maintain proper continuity of Philip’s eunuch autobiography, please post comments about that thread here. Nothing will be accepted on his new thread on the Nonfiction Board without Philip’s approval, except for a post directing comments to here.

[philip1 (imported)]

Those interested in the background story have a look at my non-fiction entry "The Making of a Eunuch" I will be expanding it as often as I can.

[philip1 (imported)]

today was a real rollercoaster I didn't have work today due to no orders so I spent the day with Bubie. He is taking his work situation really hard even though he tries to hide it. I had to almost tackle him with hugs to just keep him alive. then out of exhaustion I took a nap and had horrible nightmares. Fortunately when I awoke he was still alive and I cried. I cried because I was so happy he was still alive, I cried because I almost lost him, and I cried because in my nightmares I couldn't stop him. I love Bubie so much and I can't stand to see him hurting especially when he tries to hide it from me. We are so close I can see right through the front he puts up.

this evening we had the distinct pleasure of a visit from Surf-Toad. the tech gods were smiling on two of us (not me) and the conversation went to computers. I think Bubie needed the distraction even if it was for only a coupple of hours.