becoming a eunuch

[Losethem (imported)]

How true Phillip. I know I am moving closer everyday and I will be doing to be my true self. Like you, it is deep inside me. People don't understand why I want this when I tell them my goal is to simply be a man without testicles. "Why remove your natural source or testosterone?" they say. I don't have a good answer other than I just know it is what I need to do to be who I feel

I am inside.

Again I must say Castration is not for everyone. If you think it would be a cool scene then Castration is NOT for you. If you wnat it for the sexual thrill then castration is NOT for you. there is in my opinion only a few reasons to be castrated those are:medical reasons, reduction of an out of controll libido (I am hesitant on this one) and to be your true self (this is my reason and it is deeply seated).

[lilac (imported)]

Hey Phil,

This is my first reply on your first post. Sorry it took me so long. Im the type that would rather talk to you in the chatroom. Dont know why, guess im not must of a reader, not sure. Well anyway, I knew a lot of what you had said in the chat...but really didnt realize all the pain you had mentally in your early years as a child, teen and young adult. I am really glad also, that you shared it with everyone. Now you know I told you I wanted to be there with you in Philly, and I would you know that if I could... but as you know im in the process of getting this foot of mine healed, so the date you have picked my foot brace wont be off untill after that. And as I told you that I wont be able to be there with you. Yes it upsets me that I cant be there with you as I was with Christina and Bubba. We are always told *Things happen for a reason*.... so, this must not be our time to meet. You know I think of you as a little brother and I want the best for you Phil. I'm so happy for you babe.guess it's less then 2 weeks left, I know your hearts pounding faster every day. Well I will call you when you get up there to see how it goes. I love ya little brother. see you soon, your big sis, Lilac

[sag111 (imported)]

You know Phill how can we not love our Lilac .

[guy26 (imported)]

On April 8th i will be undergoing

a surgical procedure performed by Dr. Murray Kimmel.

Someone mentioned to me in the chat room that Kimmel is retiring and will no longer be performing castrations in the near future. Is this true?

[philip1 (imported)]

at this time he is not retiring but it may happen someday but not right away

[Riverwind (imported)]

I wish you the very best my friend.

River

[philip1 (imported)]

Today is the seven month anniversary of my trip to Seattle, although it didn't truly hearald the entry of a new eunuch into the world, I feel I was a eunuch emotionally from the moment I started the car for the drive up. This week I will be having the surgery to fix the physical problem. Over the last Month I have had a lot of pain in both of my cords while this is strange to me I looked at it as motivation to continue forward with my plans.

I wish to thank in advance those who plan on visiting me while I'm in Philidelphia

[DrewR (imported)]

Hey, Phillip.

I just read all the posts at once. It's amazing. I'm 3 hours from Seattle, too, in Portland. It would be so cool to know someone going through what you did and help them out with the drive, laundry, groceries, whatever to make the transition easier. I wish I knew you.

Drew

[sag111 (imported)]

Hello DrewR i plan on stoping and seeing Phill this summer who knows maybe we can sit and have a cup of coffee as i pass through your city.I have had the privlage of meeting five people from the chat room now and i have found them to be some of the nicest people i know. Good luck on your jurnery.

[philip1 (imported)]

It's Thursday April 7th tomorrow morning is surgery and I am actually kind of getting exited. My exitement is more of a releived exitement than just exitement. we had a nice walk arround the city today and man I'm tired. I will need to get to bed early tonight so I will be somewhat awake tomorrow morning. I will attempt to post an update tomorrow afternoon if I feel up to it.

thanks for all your prayers and concern

P.S. I couldn't do this without my best friend Bub

THANKS Bub