Can't really say much ...

[Chibiabos (imported)]

I think I pretty much covered what I could in the http://www.eunuch.org/vbulletin/showthread.php?t=5719 thread I started, don't see a need to repeat what I said there.

Suffice it to say I'm bisexual, inactive for two years now pondering asexuality and 28 years old which I know most people view as young still, but I feel more like 82 with all the pain I've gone through with losing not one but two lovers who have passed beyond this world, three others that started intense but went bad (two of those became abusive for me, the third one wound up loving the bottle more than me). Through it all, I've been sexually frustrated ... I've had a strong yearning for sexual gratification but its never really been fulfilled. Two of my lovers actually used lines along the words of "Don't I do anything for you?" and that hurt, made me feel guilty. I don't think I really sexually satisfied any of my partners, and yet still I haven't been able to perform to meet my own sexual desire.

With a growing feeling/realization that sex is a source of frustration for me (as I acknolwedge, not my only source and probably not even my biggest), I wonder more and more whether there would be any harm in doing something to finally cut it out of my life. My willpower is weak, so I am once again, for what I think are good reasons this time, looking toward getting rid of the mental anchors dragging me down between my legs.

If any have questions, I'll try to answer. I am 99% certain that the full details of my sexuality don't belong anywhere on this forum, but if someone is overly curious (and I cannot caution enough that even the most open-minded person would get offended by it), I'd be willing to answer questions in private about it, you can PM or e-mail me. To clarify at least what it is not, it does not involve minors by any stretch of the definition, it is between consenting adults -- which should be the only important consideration but, sadly, isn't.

-- Chibiabos

[Christina (imported)]

Hello Chibiabos,

I do understand what you are saying here. Being in control of your sexual urges, for many here, has helped tremendously. I think you are a good canidate for chemical castration. I would advise you to be very cautious though because of your current depression issues. Castration would in fact worsen that condition. Even those with no indication of depression will have some type of issues whilst their body is adjusting to the lack of testosterone.

Being finacially challange does not help any either. I wish the medical community would offer a course of chemical castration for those that so desired it, sadly this is not an option which is readily available to most. For whatever reasons, (fear of doctors, funds, or just not knowing who to ask), I think a lot of people take this situation into their own hands. I would advise against it, but I too am guilty of trying it on my own.

The best advice would be to gather as much information you can, (causes, effects, and a general knowledge of the medications used), before you do anything you might later regret. One of the least expensive medications I know of, beside herbs, is a drug called spironolactone. As with any medication there are side effects. Being in good health and under a doctors care would be the safest way to accomplish this. It is a weaker drugs than Androcur, but I can attest that it does work.

I think most everyone here would agree that no one should undertake anything that would cause them harm without first seeking all the options. I believe that some people view this as not being a serious risk to one's health. On the contrary, the risk can be great, even deadly. I do hope that you will find the answer you need. Perhaps others will offer advise that can help.

[Chibiabos (imported)]

Christina,

Thank you again. I am trying to force some changes on myself, such as putting myself in the habit of regular exercise.

Unfortunately I've been at my wit's end about the depression for some time. I've had it my entire life save for 6 months or so. I feel my sexual frustration is feeding it and my anxiety. I know they are not the only sources, and I also know my depression is a biochemical imbalance that makes it impossible for me to recover normally from things other people can get over, such as losing a loved one or even small things like getting the occaisional insult or self-doubt.

I am very cautiously trying to find an appropriate and safe therapist, but the combination of lack of money, insurance and having very bad trust issues with mental health 'professionals' after the disastrously horrible person I had the misfortune of encountering the last time makes it a tough challenge.

It isn't easy and I don't want to, but just having found this site, I feel better just coming here and having a sense of belonging with some others who understand.



-- Chibiabos

[farharbour (imported)]

Listen,

I can relate to everything that you have written. I am 48 and find my bi-sexul sex life a cause for frustration and I dread to think of all the hurtfull behavoir that I engaged in ....hopefully I am going to be asexul by the end of the month.

Karl

[Eunuchist (imported)]

Castration would in fact worsen that condition.

This is uncertain - "can" instead of "would" are more appropriate, in my opinion. It must be noted that testostosterone itself can cause depressions. People have actually commited suicide out of sexual frustrations - this is something we must consider, as well. We all react different to hormones in our body (and there are many others besides testosterone), and yes, there are people who are allergic toward this particular hormone. It's not easy to tell wether you are, but if you are, then castration is likely to lift your mood back to a pre-pubertal state. I had somewhat similar suffering as Chibiabos and farharbour and can attest testosterone withdrawal lifted most of these problems significantly. I would never go back to that tyranny I once had to live with while my balls were constantly injecting this steroid in my bloodstream. It was horrible, in many ways - psychological and physiological alike.

It's nice we now have more or less safe options - such as chemicals - to try off for those interested. Try before you buy seem a logical approach. Perhaps this is the answer for Chibiados?

Best of luck to you all, take care.