self introduction

[woodwanderer (imported)]

Hello, I am new here. What follows is some of my history related to genital modification. Ever since puberty I've had vague fantasies of genital modification/castration & penectomy. One of my most vivid young teen fantasies had been to have interchangable genitals so as to morph from man to woman and back again at will. For a time I thought myself as either bisexual or possibly gay. In most of my fantasies I am the object of someone else's action rather than the actor. A passive and submissive partner who is made to perform humiliating and somewhat distasteful acts. I've come to the realization that I am most likely a submissive male in need of a strong dominant woman. Currently I've been thinking hard about losing my testes and would willingly lose them at my wife's serious request, but I am loath to bring up the subject lest I be ridiculed or possibly worse.