I have been messing around with blockers and fem hormones on/off for 20+ years. The entire time I kept my personal gender and sexual thoughts to myself.
Two years ago I began a social transition that involved a unique blend of masculine and feminized clothing. I confessed my sexual behavior and preferences to friends , coworkers and family. I basically shared what I have here on the archive. In homosexual relations, my past exclusively includes myself assuming the female sex role with men. Easing into IT helped! I love myself now, and am adjusting to not have the ability to create a strong male energy within myself to mitigate social situations. The entire transition I was on/off testosterone blockers and estrogen.
I quit taking meds over 1 month ago. Stopping because of physical changes, I desperately wanted to stay on the medication. I believe the social transition and the introspection brought helped me love this strange blend of genders which was who I always was.
I curious if anyone else has had a similar experience in the real world.
Does socially transitioning provide clarity?
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Re: Does socially transitioning provide clarity?
chilliwilli (imported) wrote: Tue Dec 20, 2022 7:14 am I have been messing around with blockers and fem hormones on/off for 20+ years. The entire time I kept my personal gender and sexual thoughts to myself.
Two years ago I began a social transition that involved a unique blend of masculine and feminized clothing. I confessed my sexual behavior and preferences to friends , coworkers and family. I basically shared what I have here on the archive. In homosexual relations, my past exclusively includes myself assuming the female sex role with men. Easing into IT helped! I love myself now, and am adjusting to not have the ability to create a strong male energy within myself to mitigate social situations. The entire transition I was on/off testosterone blockers and estrogen.
I quit taking meds over 1 month ago. Stopping because of physical changes, I desperately wanted to stay on the medication. I believe the social transition and the introspection brought helped me love this strange blend of genders which was who I always was.
I curious if anyone else has had a similar experience in the real world.
What you call "a social transition" doesn't seem to help you change internally.
It seemed to me that you associate this with changes in your appearance.
If I were you, I would remain the way you always wanted to be.
Manipulations with hormonal agents, most likely, can interfere.
(But I'm not a doctor. Have you sought qualified help?)
The main thing is that you like yourself
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Re: Does socially transitioning provide clarity?
chilliwilli (imported) wrote: Tue Dec 20, 2022 7:14 am I have been messing around with blockers and fem hormones on/off for 20+ years. The entire time I kept my personal gender and sexual thoughts to myself.
Two years ago I began a social transition that involved a unique blend of masculine and feminized clothing. I confessed my sexual behavior and preferences to friends , coworkers and family. I basically shared what I have here on the archive. In homosexual relations, my past exclusively includes myself assuming the female sex role with men. Easing into IT helped! I love myself now, and am adjusting to not have the ability to create a strong male energy within myself to mitigate social situations. The entire transition I was on/off testosterone blockers and estrogen.
I quit taking meds over 1 month ago. Stopping because of physical changes, I desperately wanted to stay on the medication. I believe the social transition and the introspection brought helped me love this strange blend of genders which was who I always was.
I curious if anyone else has had a similar experience in the real world.
No relevant personal experience, but it seems to me that you need to separate what you do medically / drug wise from what you do socially...
Socially it seems that you are best off to have a presentation that matches how you feel about yourself and makes you happy, at least within the limits of what works in the larger society.... It seems to me like having to 'fake' a presentation that isn't "you" is a recipe for being stressed and unhappy...
At the same time I'd suggest staying with any of the medications that you feel are doing well for you unless they are really causing problems - nobody else (except your medical team) needs to know what you have in the medicine cabinet. The important thing is to stay healthy....
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Re: Does socially transitioning provide clarity?
I prefer to have a Dr monitoring, that is the wise choice. The challenge is working thru the system. In the 3.5 months to get an endocrinologist followup I have been back on for 2 months and now off about 3 weeks.
Being raised out of your gender wrecks havoc on an individual's life. It is a tried and true method to affect a person's gender identity and in my estimation their future interests in sex partners. For me personally, reining in hormones can help take control of this aspect of self. This is a personal choice that I feel both honors and respects the self.
Being raised out of your gender wrecks havoc on an individual's life. It is a tried and true method to affect a person's gender identity and in my estimation their future interests in sex partners. For me personally, reining in hormones can help take control of this aspect of self. This is a personal choice that I feel both honors and respects the self.