I am wondering why men get castrated voluntarily if they still want testosterone

[dee2essohkay (imported)]

i can only go by my own life and experience. i self harmed all my life and i know it was directed at my genitals. i determined that it was because i needed to eliminate testosterone from my body. it was not that i want to be female (though i do feel that being female is as far from being male as a person can get - so if i can be, i will be). but for most of my life, even though i know my acts were to eliminate testosterone, i never put that into words.

so knowing my own need to get rid of the T, i wonder why men who get the orchi may still want the HRT with testosterone (and not estrogen or nothing). I can understand if the orchi was for a medical reason such as cancer, but if a man wants to rid himself of his balls, why then would he opt in for more T?

all my life i was haunted by the effects of testosterone on my mind. immediately after my orchi almost 4 months ago, that noise was gone. i finally have some of the peace i was so desperately wanting and needing. i’d never choose testosterone. i am certain that others would and maybe some others don’t, but i would like to understand why those who do, do.

[magusuk89 (imported)]

When I manage to get the operation I'll be on Tesosterone Replacement Therapy.

My general reason for the operation is medical -- I have had torsions for years and now have constant pain, and swelling that makes my Crohn's (autoimmune) disease impossible to control. But the arguments I am having with fertility-fetishist doctors, some of whom have told me they'd prefer me dead to infertile, are pretty wild. When faced with doctors like that, I'm aware I may have to go down the gender MtE route even though that's not quite the most accurate description of my desire to see the back of my balls. I expect people in the "sub-clinical" category of "my balls have given me reason to hate them" might also not have a desire to be low-T.

When we are born we don't know what does what. There is no reason all our T shouldn't be made in some other organ. So I think the association with having/not having balls with having/not having T is an academic rather than emotional kind of knowledge. They are separate load-out toggles on the dashboard of bodily idealisation.

[Nidaho Rachel (imported)]

My desire for castration has nothing to do with eliminating the natural testosterone source, I've never liked having the balls and scrotum hanging below my penis, these parts have never felt right being there for me. If they could be relocated to inside my body and still function normally without health risk (like cancer), I would choose that instead of castration.

[Valery_V (imported)]

My desire for castration has nothing to do with eliminating the natural testosterone source, I've never liked having the balls and scrotum hanging below my penis, these parts have never felt right being there for me. If they could be relocated to inside my body and still function normally without health risk (like cancer), I would choose that instead of castration.

I have a similar situation...

I have always tried to maintain the natural functioning of the endocrine system of my body, both before and after my "modification".

I avoided the use of chemicals that suppress the natural production of testosterone by the adrenal glands. For the same reasons, I limited the use of synthetic hormones (only on the recommendation of a doctor).

[T van Keel (imported)]

Almost the same story here. It was not the testosterone I wanted to eliminate, it was just a side effect of the nullification. That's the reason why I take testosterone after having my genitals removed.

[Fixet (imported)]

For me it was the elimination of testosterone.

If i had a choice i wouldn't be on HRT, but I'm on estrogen to protect my bones.

[dee2essohkay (imported)]

For me it was the elimination of testosterone.

If i had a choice i wouldn't be on HRT, but I'm on estrogen to protect my bones.

Yes this is very much as it is with me. can i ask why you wanted to eliminate testosterone? If you are ok with it, I’d love to hear. I wonder if some of us here have more similarities. for me it was because T was not compatible with the person inside trying to be a person. All my life it made me make many bad decisions, i was not able to live up to being male, it left me with much distress and heartbreak and self anger and rage. As for protecting my bones, fortunately at the moment my testing shows normal bone density, but testosterone is out of the question. i absolutely don’t want it. my doctor is ok with estrogen and i am too except that i have other health issues that might make it dangerous for me. and of course i do have some feminine leanings (now more than prior to surgery) that maybe others don’t necessarily have. I still have to see if my health issues can be resolved and if so then i’ll be on estrogen for sure

[Fixet (imported)]

Well the short version is, when i was young, I didn't really wanted to grow up, more in the sense of I didn't want to become a man.

When i went through puberty, i dislikes my bigger penis, hair started to growing on other places etc.

I also didn't like to masturbate, but i had to do it to get some relieve. What also didn't make it easy, I've never had sexual feelings for a woman, or man.

But i also don't want to be woman, that I am for sure about that. At this point even never talked to someone about this, and I ignored it for myself.

When i was like 21-22 years old, i also started to get hairloss, and then i started to panic kinda, and that was my trigger to starting my journey.

I found out what would be the cause of hair-loss (DHT, Testosterone) even developing more hate for testosterone. And in that same time period there was a talk show on the Dutch television about Transgenders more on the medical procedures.

Like they also talked on the show about puberty blocker and sex hormone suppression...I didn't knew what i heard!, i didn't know something like that existed. Then i started to search on the internet, and found this site as well.

And then I knew it, I wanted to be a eunuch, everything felt in place. My first topic about it: http://forums.eunuch.org/showthread.php ... ome-advice (ive lost the account one time of inactivity)

This is the story in a nutshell

Ow yes, my hair loss stopped, and gained maybe 90% back.

[Tim Gobin (imported)]

When it comes right down to it (no pun intended) some of us have a love/hate relationship with our genitals.

[ambiguous (imported)]

For me it was for the comfort and look of not having any nuts down there.

I also like to be in control of my hormone intake but mainly staying on testosterone.