raj1tm115 (imported) wrote: Sun May 29, 2022 7:18 pm
Dear Billy,
You are a thoughtful soul indeed, especially when you sensed some of my issues without even me writing them.
Aw, shux. (Paws the floor)
raj1tm115 (imported) wrote: Sun May 29, 2022 7:18 pm
I have been having a rough time indeed for more than 5 years with work and family and everything. But the last 10 months were really tested me and I thought of just ending myself. Honestly, I didn't have the courage to bring my sexuality issues till my Psychiatrist said that unless we deal with the "iceberg", the mental issues were only going to get worse.
This is the crux of the matter, as far as I can see. Once you are inside that consultation room, you have to be incredibly brave and trusting. But it's like sex, it only hurts the first time
When I told my counsellor I was not a man and I wanted to be surgically altered to express how I did see myself, I nearly threw up on the way home, the physical shock was so great. It was so hard to do. I just blurted it all out in a rush so the fear couldn't silence me once I started.
Once I did though, I could feel the healing starting straight away. Since then, the fear has subsided a lot, and I'm much more comfortable in this "new skin". I think you will find much peace too, once you lift the lid on your own your own can of worms.
Sunshine and fresh air seem to be not so good for worms.
raj1tm115 (imported) wrote: Sun May 29, 2022 7:18 pm
I did come across the Monash University gender clinic, but I thought I could never be accepted there. Anyway, this week is big for me

as I have an appointment with my Psychiatrist (public) mid-week. I am planning to ask the following q's
Monash will indeed accept you, but there is a very long waiting list to get to see their in-house specialists. Presently about 12 months.
raj1tm115 (imported) wrote: Sun May 29, 2022 7:18 pm
Q1) I understand that chemical castration is being recommended as a Psych. may not be able to suggest an "invasive" procedure. But as a patient why should I opt this, considering that this is life-long and a big financial burden to me (based on another Psych. in public, he said avg. $2k every year on injections)
My GP has given me the names of four counsellors that can supply me with the required WPATH letter. Three of them are psychologists, and one is a psychiatrist. Both are considered qualified to supply WPATH documents.
I would suggest you ask whether your psychiatrist thinks you need to negotiate your "iceberg" before you make a decision about being permanently altered, or, is that decision, whether by chemical or surgical means, the iceberg. Another way perhaps to ask the question would be, "What would satisfy you that orchidectomy is the right way for me?"
raj1tm115 (imported) wrote: Sun May 29, 2022 7:18 pm
Q2) I have had a few friends in EA forum suggest me to go the WPATH way. Isn't this an option? If so, can I approach the Monash gender clinic?
If you need to go public completely, the Monash might be the option.
For myself, as soon as I have my WPATH letter I am employing the services of a urological surgeon, and paying the medicare gap. This is a very much faster path, but there are some dollars to be found.
raj1tm115 (imported) wrote: Sun May 29, 2022 7:18 pm
Q3) I have got a quote from a Thailand hospital of about $5k AUD (surgery and accommodation). Why should I not consider this
I thought about this way too. The biggest drawback I could see was getting my GP etc. up to speed once I came back.
Surgeons here can go ooggedy-boogedy and wave their hands as if conjuring up the white-man medical spirits, while trying to not sound racist as they imply that Thailand and India are a bit third world and would you trust them with this sort of thing? (It's called professional etiquette, and is why sharks don't eat lawyers, too.)
raj1tm115 (imported) wrote: Sun May 29, 2022 7:18 pm
Note: Billy, I just got this quote from Kamol hospital today morning. I know its expensive but it was huge huge relief as I now have a plan B. (In fact I was so desperate that I was considering plan C - DIY and was scheming it, but I put them off once I got some hope after your suggestion from the other thread)
Personally, Raj, I think you're off to a good new beginning. I would agree with you that you put the medico-holiday aside as a back-up plan. You should have no need to cause yourself pain and harm to become a eunuch today, so long as your mental state allows of it.
One little thing that's helped me along is turning up at my counselling sessions with a little notepad. I open it, and will say something like- "I've noticed that when blah, then, I something-or-other". This helps me because I have what I want to deal with clearer, and it helps to keep the conversation on topic when I have the matter in front of me in writing.
raj1tm115 (imported) wrote: Sun May 29, 2022 7:18 pm
Hope the above q's are ok. I do not want to offend the Psychiatrist in any way also.
Your counsellor will have a pretty thick skin. That's not to say you should come out swinging punches, but you are entitled to some concrete answers to the questions around you getting yourself to where you need to be.
I think you're a bit smarter than the captain of the Titanic, and you will deal with your own iceberg in a better way than "full speed ahead".
raj1tm115 (imported) wrote: Sun May 29, 2022 7:18 pm
Blessings to everyone
I am a bit happy today .... yay
raj
My comments are in line. If you scroll through the quote, you'll find my notes.
Billy.