Depo, orgasms and arousal

[NesGreenz (imported)]

I am not really sure where to start with this post but after lurking for so long I found myself hoping someone can maybe help point me in the right direction or answer questions. I am sorry if this isn't the right section of the form to post in or the right material for this section just let me know.

After many discussions over years my wife and I decided to try chemical castration using Depo 150mg injections. We started back in August/September and my testosterone as of a few weeks ago is down to 2.6ng/L

Overall I have been very happy with the experience, but surprised to find that in most cases with I can still get 70 to 80% erect with constant stimulation and with an hour+ effort I can sometimes get off. Most of the times though we meet her needs and are happy with that. Over the last month+ I have noticed orgasms, when I do have them, are becoming more whole body and intense.

Is that a "normal" response at 2.6ng/L or should I be having a different response?

Is that too low or is that not important if I am happy with the results?

This brings us to my last question but I think requires some background. I had some childhood trauma that we have been working through successfully, it's easier when you feel safe and stable with a ridiculously supportive partner.

On Friday she decided to surprise me with a Kink session which went very well with more than an hour in subspace. Since then, waking up Saturday I have experienced something that I haven't before and I don't know how to process it/what it even really is. Overall I have had a ton of walls up around sex and while I am happy to make sure my partners needs are met I have a lot of self control issues and limit my experience. So since waking up Saturday I have experienced a very weird positive feedback loop when I have any sort of physical contact with my wife. I don't just mean like kisses or anything sexual; I mean like her putting her hand on my shoulder or touching me. I tried many times to describe it and the best she could think of was Hyperarousal, New Relationship Energy or wondering if another wall has some down and it's something else entirely. I usually don't get aroused at all even before the Depo. We tried to have sex and it was a very very overwhelming experience for me, I couldn't focus on anything I just wanted/needed more and it was like being in subspace without being in subspace. After an hour and a half we gave up on the idea of me getting off I was hopelessly overwhelmed. She is thoroughly enjoying torturing me with this new issue and to be honest it's enjoyable but I feel like I have no control over it and cant turn it off so I am just a passenger in my body once she touches me and all my brain wants is more contact. I don't know if this is something temporary, something permanent, something I should consult a therapist about or what is going on. So if you managed to read this jumbled story and have advice I am all ears...

[Begoneboy (imported)]

I am not really sure where to start with this post but after lurking for so long I found myself hoping someone can maybe help point me in the right direction or answer questions. I am sorry if this isn't the right section of the form to post in or the right material for this section just let me know.

After many discussions over years my wife and I decided to try chemical castration using Depo 150mg injections. We started back in August/September and my testosterone as of a few weeks ago is down to 2.6ng/L

Overall I have been very happy with the experience, but surprised to find that in most cases with I can still get 70 to 80% erect with constant stimulation and with an hour+ effort I can sometimes get off. Most of the times though we meet her needs and are happy with that. Over the last month+ I have noticed orgasms, when I do have them, are becoming more whole body and intense.

Is that a "normal" response at 2.6ng/L or should I be having a different response?

Is that too low or is that not important if I am happy with the results?

This brings us to my last question but I think requires some background. I had some childhood trauma that we have been working through successfully, it's easier when you feel safe and stable with a ridiculously supportive partner.

On Friday she decided to surprise me with a Kink session which went very well with more than an hour in subspace. Since then, waking up Saturday I have experienced something that I haven't before and I don't know how to process it/what it even really is. Overall I have had a ton of walls up around sex and while I am happy to make sure my partners needs are met I have a lot of self control issues and limit my experience. So since waking up Saturday I have experienced a very weird positive feedback loop when I have any sort of physical contact with my wife. I don't just mean like kisses or anything sexual; I mean like her putting her hand on my shoulder or touching me. I tried many times to describe it and the best she could think of was Hyperarousal, New Relationship Energy or wondering if another wall has some down and it's something else entirely. I usually don't get aroused at all even before the Depo. We tried to have sex and it was a very very overwhelming experience for me, I couldn't focus on anything I just wanted/needed more and it was like being in subspace without being in subspace. After an hour and a half we gave up on the idea of me getting off I was hopelessly overwhelmed. She is thoroughly enjoying torturing me with this new issue and to be honest it's enjoyable but I feel like I have no control over it and cant turn it off so I am just a passenger in my body once she touches me and all my brain wants is more contact. I don't know if this is something temporary, something permanent, something I should consult a therapist about or what is going on. So if you managed to read this jumbled story and have advice I am all ears...

If I am to understand correctly you are enjoying a new experience of what it feels like to pleasure you wife. And she is experiencing much more attention and responding in kind. Enjoy the moment in time and space while it lasts.

[HumanFly (imported)]

I've been on DP for months at a time and it doesn't make you impotent. If you decide you want to have an orgasm and you stimulate yourself you will get an erection. It's fantasies and sexual thoughts that it works on. This is why it's prescribed to sex offenders who want to control their behaviour and is ineffective when they don't.

[JessicaH (imported)]

I think you brain is processing body contact differently with low t. Like many women, it sounds like you are getting a flood of endorphins from the body contact without being immediately drawn to the “lets get busy with sex” part. If I understand correct, your body is just processing erotic body contact in a new and different way that still seems foreign to you but it sounds like it will be a wonderful experience once you adjust to it.

My guess is that you are getting a flood of dopamine and oxytocin and you could probably enjoy being intimate without any rush to orgasm and even have a wonderful time even if you don’t orgasm.

[Philcheck (imported)]

Agree with those above too. Also maybe you are more focused on her needs and wants now than just you getting your orgasm.

[attistoC (imported)]

I think you brain is processing body contact differently with low t. Like many women, it sounds like you are getting a flood of endorphins from the body contact without being immediately drawn to the “lets get busy with sex” part. If I understand correct, your body is just processing erotic body contact in a new and different way that still seems foreign to you but it sounds like it will be a wonderful experience once you adjust to it.

My guess is that you are getting a flood of dopamine and oxytocin and you could probably enjoy being intimate without any rush to orgasm and even have a wonderful time even if you don’t orgasm.

That sounds really good ...