My third chemcastration trial

[erikboy (imported)]

T+18 days

Skin starts to feel dry. Acne is almost gone again. Masturbation rate is once every 5 days. Hot flashes are more severe than few days ago.

Muscle weakness is getting worse despite I do work out. Every next day it feels like I haven't done anything, like sitting in the office for a month and then suddenly try to run and jump. Also Breathlessness is getting worse. But generally if compared to previous castration period, effects are less bad. And I am continuing to loose weight. Which is awesome. I continue with my training programme.

Brainfog seem to appear when I am physically active. Is that a lack of oxygene in tissues?

[experiment (imported)]

Can I you tell us what your current dosages are also is masturbation getting more difficult to orgasm? Thanks and best wishes for a successful trial run.

[erikboy (imported)]

Currently on 100mg day. And yes, it is more difficult to orgasm. But then again, there is less interest as well. Often it seems like it is not worth to try. Also erections are weaker. Much weaker. It means penis is half hard. it is only engorged, but not hard.

[experiment (imported)]

Yes very similar from my own experience. Loss of interest, very low libido and soft erections. After awhile I really had to work on the masturbation to reach a weak, watery and not so rewarding dribbling. It was what I had hoped to see and feel. Good luck on your trial run.

[erikboy (imported)]

T +24 days.

More hot flashes, weaker despite training which is kind of frustrating. But generally I feel better than last time. I am still loosing weight. My diet is very simple. After 6pm no food. Or at least 4-6 hours before sleep. Now it is that difficult period when initial euphoria is gone and I have to get through it, to feel little better. Last time it took about 1 month.

I am still fighting with insomnia. I did some research. It seemss like there is some connection between low testosterone and high cortisol. Insomnia is well known effect in eunuchs. Plus it seems that Androcur amplifies that effect. As it stimulates adrenal glands to produce more cortisol. Also lower testosterone causes higher cortisol levels.

So, what I do to get better sleep is to stop physical activity 4h before sleep, as physical activity increases cortisol. Also no coffee 8h before sleep.

there is an article where my insomnia symptoms are described:

Sleep maintenance insomnia (SMI) occurs when you fall asleep but wake up repeatedly during the night. Alternatively, you could wake up too early in the morning to start your day, but can’t go back to sleep. This type of insomnia can often be attributed to metabolic or neuroendocrine dysfunction. Sleep is an extended fast that the body goes through every night. That is why we call the day’s first meal breakfast because the fast is broken in the morning. People with insomnia and AFS tend to have symptoms of hypoglycemia every two to three hours throughout the day and night, although laboratory glucose levels remain normal. As you fall asleep, your body gets hungry and depletes its glucose stores quickly. With glucose depleted, cortisol has to be produced in order to provide the body with sugar to function. As cortisol rises, the body wakes up thinking it’s morning and time to eat. This is a common cause of sleep maintenance insomnia.

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https://www.drlamcoaching.com/blog/inso ... l-fatigue/

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As I used to eat late at night, and I stopped doing that in order to loose weight. And could be one reason why I keep waking up at night. My body is not used to that. After many hours of interrupted sleep, I finally can have have around 6 hours of sleep which is good.

But also my adrenal glands do not work properly partly due to androcur, partly due to low T. It seems like my adrenal glands are more sensitive than others who sleep well even if castrated. I am jelaous

[erikboy (imported)]

T +29

Warning!

I have experienced it twice now. This warning is especially important for Androcur users, as Androcur affects your adrenal glands. It may be called adrenal fatigue. And you should avoid stressful situations. You might get over stressed. My experience is that I was almost incapacitated to function for 2 days. I became so weak I could barely stand, I did not eat anything. Almost anything. I womited many times. I felt so stressed. I felt real sick. Now I read that this situation is potentially life threatening. So be warned.

https://www.verywellhealth.com/adrenal- ... on-3231648

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Quality and amount of sleep determines the quality of my day. Sometimes I do not even feel that tiredness I used feel during my last trial. I think it is also related to my weight loss and daily excercise that allows me to feel pretty well. But despite that I feel physically very weak at times. And there is a brainfog especially during physical activity. I am currently in a difficult phase when. I would call it motivation loss. Probably it is related to dopamine reduction in my brain. Sometimes I feel that all that effort is useless in getting castrated. That there is no point at all. Or in anything else that I do, I might feel it is useless and pointless. But that is temporary thing. I know. Many people might develope depression at this point.

[JessicaH (imported)]

Sounds like you may want to try another way of reducing T so you can really see what being a eunuch feels like vs. a eunuch on androcur. Androcur has so many side effects so it’s hard to get an accurate feel for what surgical castration would feel like. Good luck and please keep us posted!

[Cseriess (imported)]

This is probably way off the mark and totally irrelevant and useless but, I have often camped in very cold conditions. It's very common to wake up frequently, but waking g up cold and hungry is very specific.your body is telling you it's all out of whack and desperately trying to keep you warm and alive. For this reason we keep a cookie on us. A quick nibble and the body has something to work with, and as all the levels settle down, sleep comes pretty quickly.

[erikboy (imported)]

Yes, I have had that bad habit that before sleep I eat a lot and after that I had a good sleep up until the morning. And when I did not eat before sleep I woke up at night very hungry and in order to get some sleep, I had to eat something. That is a bad habit that could make you fat very fast, if it becomes your lifestyle. Nothing bad with having snacks when hiking before sleep.

[erikboy (imported)]

T +37

Interesting fact. As I have measured my blood pressure for a long time, there are interesting statistics. Castration reduces my bloodpressure and heart rate at rest. Is that medically explained again? Noone seem to know again why this happens, is it good or bad? doctors have no clue and I have never seen anybody mentioning that effect. Probably there is less heart attack risk with lower pulse and blood pressure.

So, after I wake up I measure my blood pressure. Last year I did it not so often, but this time I did it almost every morning and collected data. Generally after 10 days after starting Androcur my bloodpressure dropped from 110-120 range to 100-110 range. And pulse from around 80 to even below 70. This is very noticeable if I watch the table. And I can remember from last chemcastration trial that my blood pressure and pulse seemed to be lower as well.

Physically I am frustratingly weaker despite all the effort trying to be physically active. One day I had to shorten my walk as I felt so weak that I thought I will not be able to return anymore. So much less stamina. Also every time it makes me wet all over.

Testicular size is decreasing again. But I still keep masturbating once a week.

One more interesting thing - I don't have post coital tristesse anymore. With high T levels I might have serious post coital tristesse, which is unpleasant. Has anyone experienced that?