Changing relationship to penis

[Qunuch81 (imported)]

An interesting thing is happening to me. Ever since I decided that I’d definitely become a nullo some day, my dick started getting erect less often. Also, ever since I banded it for about 45 minutes over a month ago, I’ve felt less sensation in it. In general, it seems smaller too and I notice it less. I'm a eunuch on testosterone, and I haven't changed my levels. I wonder if my body is aligning with my mind. I'm kind of torn about it. On the one hand, yay, closer to nullo. On the other, if I have to have a dick for now, part of me prefers it more fully functioning.

[cutnbulls2ox (imported)]

It does make you wonder how much your penis and testicles are controlled by your mind and your thoughts.

Its tough to know if your penis is being affected by your banding or your mind or both ?

Maybe you are missing your penis s virility already ? Think its time to re examine your plans and if you want to stay a swinging and erecting dick if you feel torn about anything ?

[hormonalEunuch (imported)]

I've had the opposite experience, which I suppose goes to show how different people can be. Since I've gotten serious about my penectomy (therapists are on board and I have a surgeon lined up), I've been having daily involuntary raging hardons (which just reinforces my desire to get rid of it). It's like it knows it is going to die soon

[Begoneboy (imported)]

I've been having daily involuntary raging hardons (which just reinforces my desire to get rid of it). It's like it knows it is going to die soon

Oh MY! I want one of you guys with those involuntary RAGING hardons to enjoy before it goes by by. Just saying! I mean the hardons I get to enjoy are on others.

[hormonalEunuch (imported)]

Alas, I really don't like the feel of it, so having it played with wouldn't be very nice for me... happy to play when it's gone tho

[DifferentZach (imported)]

Alas, I really don't like the feel of it, so having it played with wouldn't be very nice for me... happy to play when it's gone tho

I’m not really in a position to be critical of the feelings you have toward your penis since I’ve developed something similar with my testicles. All the same, I’m envious of guys who get raging hardons. What do they feel like? How is it different from when your penis is soft? Is it more sensitive when it’s really hard? What does it feel like when guys masturbate their own hard dick? What does it feel like when you have sex with it?

I’m asking all those questions just from my own ignorance, so please don’t be offended. I can describe what I feel when I’m aroused, but chances are it won’t match what you would experience after a penectomy since I don’t have a “before and after” comparison. My penis was removed too early in life for that. This is a true case of “YMMV.”

Best wishes whatever path you take.

Zach

[Chesleyt (imported)]

hard ons can hurt at times and stimulation for me isn't as strong as anal stimulation which for me is 100 times more intense but that's what I feel others will have different experiences every body's bodies are different.

[hormonalEunuch (imported)]

It's a strange feeling... somewhere right on the knife-edge between arousal and pain. And the dick feels as engorged as it can possibly be. Very hard, very turgid, and seems to stay that way for longer than normal.

[SquirmingSub (imported)]

As a couple, we took traditional intercourse out of the mix years ago, replaced it with oral as our primary method of sexual intimacy. Through the years, my relationship with the penis has indeed changed and I no longer associate my penis with a sexual organ nor does it get used for such. I have been sitting to pee for years, yes by choice, and similar to others on the forum, it is simply an appendage that really does not serve a purpose beyond being an outlet for pee-time.

[Royal Creative (imported)]

YMMV

The first time I banded I regret it so I cut the band.

But when I tried to masturbate I could not get the same feeling and it has never come back. So I killed a nerve after just 5 min !!!

Today I've used a least 100 green rubberbands and my penis is "

it is simply an appendage that really does not serve a purpose beyond being an outlet for pee-time

".

It's kind of weird feeling when wearing trousers there seem to be something down there that not being my body part.