Body mods and motivations

[Begoneboy (imported)]

the question just keeps cumming up. As to the motivations, there simply is not a "one answer". As many men as are out there is as many motivations.

I've already proffered my own motivations so no point in beating a dead horse. As to the questions regarding the ability to have orgasm, Again with each individual it will be different. I happen to believe a lot of it has to do with desire to climax. I have that desire and can pretty much do so at will. When I was intact I actually never masturbated even once so cannot speak for the amount of effort that my be required with all the junk still there. Without any of it I will say that it takes time to have an orgasm alone or with somebody. Which is pretty much the point. I mean after all, who wants to rush a fun thing. Get all the pleasure possible and for as long as possible. If that's not the desire then you don't need to promote it and you won't have it. After so may years without "T" and way too much "E" aboard my body it's safe for me to believe the documented many times over fact that the gland in out head enlarges and thus changes the way we desire and seek sex.

[Brycenosak (imported)]

From puberty I felt I had a fairly defined gender identity. Apart from my 'oversize' balls being out of proportion to my lean, 160 pound, 6ft tall body. I am good looking, masculine, not macho. Pretty laid back. This changed with my vasectomy. In one stroke my pride and joys became the orbs from hell. I was treated as such a 'freak' by the doctors, I didnt know where I fitted in anymore. I was a sexual cripple. For over 4 years I battled what I had become. The self loathing was destroying me. It dawned no me that my balls had to go. There was nothing else left to do. On 28th of august 2002 I was duly castrated. My penis scrotum and entire pubic region was completely numb. That was unexpected! My young wife, though sympathetic, got tired of the lack of sex and a changed husband left me for my 'friend' 7 months later. Now I was really lost. For over 4 years I battled with what I had become. My 'shrink' friend suggested prosthetics, as the feeling had come back. I wore those for a number of years. I still couldnt fit in to anything tangible. I was a guy without balls, but I had some. I felt like a fake. It was weird. About 2 yrs ago I had an epiphany. I wanted to be me. A eunuch! That is who I am. That is my gender. With the prosthetics and ballsack gone I now have peace that I 'present as male' and am a masculine eunuch. My identity changed from the vasectomy event and the trauma that started. It was a long time coming, worth it in the end. The wisdom of the EA contributors has helped me find my true self and I thank you all

[notsomanly (imported)]

the question just keeps cumming up. As to the motivations, there simply is not a "one answer". As many men as are out there is as many motivations.

I've already proffered my own motivations so no point in beating a dead horse. As to the questions regarding the ability to have orgasm, Again with each individual it will be different. I happen to believe a lot of it has to do with desire to climax. I have that desire and can pretty much do so at will. When I was intact I actually never masturbated even once so cannot speak for the amount of effort that my be required with all the junk still there. Without any of it I will say that it takes time to have an orgasm alone or with somebody. Which is pretty much the point. I mean after all, who wants to rush a fun thing. Get all the pleasure possible and for as long as possible. If that's not the desire then you don't need to promote it and you won't have it. After so may years without "T" and way too much "E" aboard my body it's safe for me to believe the documented many times over fact that the gland in out head enlarges and thus changes the way we desire and seek sex.

I came to hate sex partly because of premature ejaculation. Tried all the recommended techniques and medications to no avail. It was a constant struggle and took all the enjoyment from sex. Now with the help of estradiol I can have orgasms from nipple stimulation and those take ~5 minutes of very enjoyable build up. Way better than before.

[Andi-T-uk (imported)]

I have always loved body modifications, really like the split tongue look, and would love to lose a leg below knee possibly the left leg. I have also over the years, done my own Prince Albert piercing, then split it through the head, then removed part of the head. I have always wanted to be a eunuch with penectomy. I have been very frustrated and always thinking how I can improve my genitals.

in 2017, after a half marathon, I decided it was time to do something drastic! I had an elastrator and some topical aneasthetic so I tide of my penis after inserting a bit of plastic pipe in the end of my penis, tied it off, then put 3 elastrator rings behind the head of my penis. after a day the head went completely black so I cut it off ! No pain after a couple of months, waiting, it still hadn't healed properly so Checked into hospital and ended up 3 months later and 2 months with a catheter, finally lost half of my penis ! and it seems to be shrinking I think ?

I had tried ethanol injections for about 6 months in the past with not much difference, but Since then, 2 nights ago I injected CaCl+ethanol 0.6ml in each nut.. Wow it has swelled massively poss 2.5 times original size and nuts hard and and very uncomfortable, but not too painful.

Very early days yet, Ibuprofen is working well to reduce pain and swelling, but not sure how soon I'll see results. I'm hoping i wont have to inject again, but not sure how to get a T check-up ? any advice on that would be greatful ?

once this has healed properly, I will push for Urethral re-route (perineal Urethrostomy) and then push for full penectomy, but may do the elastrator option.

Not sure how far to go with GenderGP, as I dont want to draw too much attention to myself with my doctor (yet)

[Cseriess (imported)]

T yesterday are easy to get online. Just Google it. You spot in a time when you wake up and send it off.

[Andi-T-uk (imported)]

T yesterday are easy to get online. Just Google it.

Is that spelled right ?

I cant find anything called T Yesterday

Please advise - Thanks !

[Nutsbegone (imported)]

I am new to this site and I'm starting the process of obtaining a bilateral orchiectomy with a scrotal excision thru surgical measures with a licensed surgeon. I've always considered myself gay or bi even though I'm married to a supportive wife. Since I retired three years age at the age of 60 I've felt a strong desire to let myself go and to hell with everyone, to hoot with what they think...My thinking ? But anyhow I've gotten two full tattoo sleeves, ribs, chest, and full back I guess my brain say's if your gonna do it don't be shy about it do it till it's done, which I did and I'm done with that for the most part and happy with it. I've tried piercing my own cock it was easy to do I liked the look I didn't like the hanging jewelry and the obsessive cleaning of urine odor and finally my wife hated it during intercourse so I removed them. I seen videos of subincisions in earl 2018 and literally fell in love with the look and have been cutting ever since, about 3/4 of my shaft is complete....Two months age I seen a full sub incised penis no testicle no scrotum a smooth eunuch and it hasn't left my mind to the point that I want it and want it bad it's the most gorgeous thing to me. that is what led me to where I'm at today....I tell myself maybe I'm queer gender or non-binary or I wanna be a women inside...But the truth I believe is simpler than that, the reality of it is I think it looks wonderful and I want it to the point I'm going to do it. You only go around once in this world and my time is getting shorter and shorter I'm gonna do what I wanna do. Finally my wife of 32 years is behind me on this (god bless her she's never said no to me) so you'll never know what's on the other side of the door unless you open it.....

[eunuchjeff (imported)]

I'm fascinated and strongly identify with the direction this discussion has gone and is going. My experience is not dissimilar from others here. I was castrated 20 years ago, partly for medical reasons. I never thought at the time that I'd develop an interest in "body mods" per se, but I have. I'm now moving towards removal of the much diminished sac (used to bother me, but not so much any more) and a near-total penectomy. I know now from experience that I'd likely not lose my ability to orgasm as long as my prostate remains healthy, which it is. I don't know that I'm gender queer or neutrois/non-binary, only that I'd like to be smooth in the crotch. And while I never had an interest in tattoos, I can now see myself doing something around my thighs, buttocks and near-vacant pubis.

The nullos I've talked to say that YMMV when it comes to orgasming. Seems like most eventually figure out a way that works for them consistently. Anybody want to weigh in on that?

[enkuenku (imported)]

I want to be castrated first, experience life as a eunuch and then get my penis removed later on.

[texas2020 (imported)]

I struggle with my desires and what they would actually mean. I put my penis in a cage for a bit. Still do that occasionally.