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[daifu-orchid (imported)]

Seems that there is a lot of choice as to how complex the surgery needs to be.

Here, in approximately ascending order, as described by the surgeons who do it:

http://www.mexicotransgendercenter.com/ ... edure.aspx

https://www.davisplasticsurgery.com/gen ... ation.html

https://vimeo.com/147806692

http://www.drchristinemcginn.com/servic ... plasty.php

The more complex, say, including a penetratable vagina take a longer time to heal. Lesser procedures with orchiectomy already done, seem to be much faster. Maybe not running in a week, but Dr Aguilar (first link) suggests 11 days might be reasonable.

[Brycenosak (imported)]

I'm quite happy with my penis, some more sub-dermal implants would be cool. I researched the cutting of the suspensory ligament to effectively lenghten it. Its done widely overseas but here you need to have a micro-penis to even get looked at here. I dont come close to qualifying for that I did think if it was a medical need to remove it, I dont think I could deal with a partial. All or nothing! I met a guy back in my surf/ late teens who had no penis at all. Only a big set of nuts. When he was a toddler playing naked with a puppy, the dog bit, degloved and shredded his penis. Repeated infections and attempts to save it resulted in the entire structure being removed. The doctors involved, he said, wanted to remove his testicles and turn him into a girl His parents steadfastly refused. His dad quoted as saying, 'you lose a finger, you dont cut off the whole hand' My botched circumsision nearly resulted in the same thing happening to me. That option was offered to my parents. I was impressed he could still pis standing up by lifting his nuts up. He seemed pretty chilled about it

[Jan_Linde (imported)]

Hi, I've wanted to be nullified smooth since puberty. Not possible at that age of course and many delays and deferments meant I wasn't castrated until recently at age 30. I feel I'm only half done but am on track to complete my emasculation next year. I don't hate my male parts or want to be female but I really want to be completely smooth.

[SplitDik (imported)]

I was castrated almost exactly a year ago and chose to have the empty scrotum removed soon afterwards. Once done I assumed I would continue much as before dating mostly girls and perhaps an occasional feminine boy and that sexually I would perform the same but just look a bit different. Well things didn't work out that way at all, the testosterone replacement wasn't successful and I am now somewhat feminized and not able to get an erection. My penis has lost a lot of it's original size and could be more accurately described now as a cock stub. When my partner suggested recently why not have it removed and go completely smooth, rather than being alarmed by the idea I found it rather appealing. I've got no plans to go ahead with it at the moment but perhaps in a year or two..., the only thing that puts me off is the complexity or the surgery involved and the longish recovery period required afterwards, unlike when I had my nuts taken out and was up and running in less than week.

I'm curious when you said "

the testosterone replacement wasn't successful

". As someone how has taken steroids and been around people who take steroids all my life (heck when I was teenager in the 70s it wasn't even illegal, everyone in high school and college was soing it), I am quite certain that legitimate testosterone will work to masculinize or preserve masculinity (including libido and erections).

Legitimate testosterone is exactly the same as what your body would normally have, and other steroids are derived directly from testosterone. It should definitely work like your natural testosterone.

If it didn't work, it was one of four possible problems:

a) the testosterone was not legit (this is problem for people who obtain theirs via black market and overseas pharmacies), but I assume you had a proper prescription. If you did buy it online, you can also buy testing kits fairly cheaply that can prove whether it is what it is claimed to be.

b) You took it in a form where the dose wasn't controlled and/or sufficient. If you took a patch or cream it isn't really a good way, although I've had decent effects from good creams (I recommend AndroForte which is intended to rub directly on your genitals). But for people on lifelong medically prescribed TRT I highly recommend getting injectibles with exact doses.

c) You didn't manage the aromatization. People who get spikes in their testosterone levels, which is common when receiving it from external means such as injections, your body will react by turning any testosterone it deems excessive into estrogen. This is why body builders can get "bitch tits" (gynomastia). I highly recommend that anyone getting TRT also takes something to manage this, such as aromasin, or a SERM.

d) your serum binding globulin was too high and bound your testosterone. You see there is your testosterone level but most of it is not available for the body to use, that is why ideally you need to be tested for free testosterone. The rest is caught up in your serum binding globulin. You can figure this out with good blood work. But I recommend almost anyone wanting testosterone boost, even guys with healthy gonads should consider taking medicine or suppliments which free up testosterone.

In any case, anyone on TRT needs to get an endocrinologist or andrologist who knows their stuff and specifically tests for free testosterone and helps manage that and helps prevent the aromatization into estrogen.

[Rafaella (imported)]

Hi SplitDik and thank you for your insights. My TRT partly worked in that I felt OK, energy OK and didn't get hot flushes, where it didn't work for me was with sex. I had erection difficulties from the word go, soft erections, erections that would only last a few minutes even with stimulation from my partner. After about 9 months (August) I became completely impotent and have not had an erection since. I also lost penis size and body hair. and became slightly feminized. I had injectable T cypionate prescribed by an endocrinologist at a reputable clinic and was monitored for overall T level and free T as well as some other readings. My initial prescription was 75 mg T cypionate once per week, this was later raised to 100mg. The majority of tests that I had gave a T and free T score in the expected range for a 24 yr old so there was no obvious reason why it didn't work. After 6 months I went to a different endo in Canada for a second opinion, I had a variety of tests as before but also liver function and circulation. The endo couldn't give me any answers except a rather vague idea that some males are poor responders to artificial T, he said in about 5 - 10pc of cases TRT doesn't work too well even when everything looks OK. I also tried Proviron tablets (mesterolone), not available in the US but a friend got me some from Europe. That didn't do anything either so in the end I gave up with TRT. Both myself and my partner studied the subject and thought the most likely reason was what you suggested in c) as I had some degree of feminization, not gynomastia but loss of body hair and softer skin. However all hormone tests scored normal, overall testosterone, free T and estrogen. I've given up on TRT now and take low dose estrogen instead, I feel better for it and very comfortable with my body. I feel now that I wasn't destined to be a masculine eunuch and perhaps there were psychological reasons as well as physical ones.

[Brycenosak (imported)]

Hi guys, I been on various forms of TRT since 2002, We cant get the creams, so the only type I havnt tried. I'm on Reandron 1000. Testosterone undecanoate 1000mg/4ml. Every 6 weeks. It took alot of trial and error to get here. My biggest challange was not getting a baseline T and Fsh level pre-castration. I have a very supportive doctor and monotoring these levels and symptoms, its just about right. the endo just wants to change everything to get it to a 'normal' range. I seem to need to be a little bit higher on the T to keep the FSH levels low. I'm still as masculine as I was, though cant get an erection on demand. That may be my age or attitude? Even though I'm on a 6 week cycle I still get the early morning boner. I'm guessing thats my adrenals still maintaining the circardian rhythm? I have lost no penis mass. Even though the TRT is close, I'm sure there are subtle differences to the brew your balls produce

[SplitDik (imported)]

Hmmm, that is pretty weird honestly. There are certainly people who don't respond to testosterone generally due to genetic reasons, but it is strange if there was such a difference with TRT. Testosterone cypionate is expected to be bioidentical with natural testosterone.

The one other hormone that often gets overlooked is progestrogen. It is actually functional in men and has effect on erections.

Basically I think it is likely that the testosterone itself was working but when natural testosterone production is disrupted it means quite a few other hormones get unbalanced including some brain chemicals.

Based on this and also on how you have so quickly and radically switched to a sissy lifestyle perhaps you do have some genetic predisposition to not develop in a completely masculine way. In any case, you seem pretty happy so I'm glad for that!

[Rafaella (imported)]

Hi SplitDik, thanks again for the insights, it's good to hear from someone with experience. My partner agrees with your analysis, she thinks I had latent tendencies and actually wasn't very masculine in the first place. I looked the part and dated a cheerleader but if I'm honest about it I never felt comfortable around aggressive males and never got the thing about having to win at sport. I went along with it in order to conform but it was all pretense. I am a lot more balanced about things now and am confidant I can express myself the way I feel. Also I have met some nice friends who accept me as I am and how I choose to look, eunuch with a boy clit, sissy boy with make up and perfume, weight lifter at the gym. I could go but that's sort of it in brief.

[SplitDik (imported)]

I'm honest about it I never felt comfortable around aggressive males and never got the thing about having to win at sport. I went along with it in order to conform but it was all pretense. ..

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Yeah, honestly when you're a testosterone-fueled naturally masculine guy you thrive on competition, risk, violence and domination.

In my life I can say almost more than my constant sex drive testosterone also drives my constant enjoyment of imposing dominance in every situation. Captain of every sports team, president of my student council, always getting the best girl, always getting the biggest raises, the fastest promotions, etc. Literally every handshake, where I stand in a crowd, how I make eye contact, is all fueled by testosterone. I'm addicted to violence just for the fun of it, with my main sport being boxing which I both practice and like to watch (already got my PPV for the Deontay-Fury fight tomorrow!). When I'm near a police officer I have to literally talk myself out of wanting to fight them, and as a youth we went to bars specifically for the fights in the parking lot afterwards.

The interesting thing is that it is all for FUN!. The violence is not about being mean, or an asshole or anything. It is just about a thrill. Imposing my will on another guy in a boxing ring is just so satisfying. There's no pretense in it, just unbridled interest in testing oneself against every possible adversary.

I'm pretty certain it is an effect of testosterone because I've juiced at different levels throughout my life and it definitely intensifies when taking certain steroids. I personally really like the feeling but a person also really has to take care cause "roid rage" is a real thing and can lead you into doing things that you regret. Very similar to how high libido can feel really good but also lead you into doing things that you regret.

[justine77 (imported)]

I was also castrated around 3 years ago (Aug 2015). At the time I had no thoughts about further surgery but once I'd accepted my castration and adjusted to my new life as a eunuch I was keen to have the empty scrotum removed. I had that done in April 2018 and am very pleased with the clean cut look and feeling of empty space down there. Not long after that however I started looking at the possibility of nullification. Once I started on estrogen and my penis became a boy clit I knew for certain I wanted to be completely smooth downstairs, it was just a question of deciding on the right procedure and finding the right clinic to do it. All being well I'll have a penectomy combined with non-invasive SRS and a urethral re-route early next year. I have no plans for any other modifications once that has been done. I don't have any tattoos or piercings (except earrings and navel) and am not thinking of having any.

Justine x