At what age were you aware that other boys were excited and terrified of castration?

[paring (imported)]

Yep, the highway to hell is paved of good intentions. I'm sure, your father has never thought that would ever triggered your castration fantasy, same for mothers who threaten to cut their son's penis.

[paring (imported)]

I only found out that other men were excited about genital mutilations at 40 y.o.. Prior to that I thought that I was the only men in the world to have such fantasy. When I got internet, my first search on the the web was for castration. I was relief when I discovered BME and EA.

[Atreyu69 (imported)]

Around 9-10, when my dad starts to threaten me to have me circumcised. I had not any fu **** g clue of what a circumcision is, so I thought about a partial penectomy.

I suffered a bad phimosis, and my parents tried to made it looser. My father actually thought it was a whim issue, as if I could retract my foreskin if I would. The circumcision threat was ,, in his mind, a good incentive to convince me to uncover my glans, but he just seeded in my mind this kink

As a boy I was never threatened with castration, not even the hint of if. If my dad had suggested anything like that to me I shudder to think how much more screwed up I might be!

[CircItaly (imported)]

I'm not too much messed up, at least since I embrace this emasculation kink! I was aroused even back at the time, at that age I couldn't handle some powerful erection I got during medical checkup! My honor was saved by the doctor who explained my dad that the erection come from my hypersensitive glans.

Back in the day I was too frightened about the loss of my precious pecker to really enjoy the whole experience.

[veryshyboy1995 (imported)]

It's similar to another post. I was aware of it in my 12.

[Hopeful1 (imported)]

I guess I was more or less pushed into true awareness of castration at age 12 when a doctor discovered I had a hernia and an undescended testicle. I had heard boys talking about balls but it never dawned on me that I should have two instead of just the one. Also before that around age 8, I had discovered that I could push that one up inside me and make it appear I didn't have any balls which was a look I liked. Anyway, back to age 12. I was at an Army hospital getting a physical for summer camp, the first year they had required them. (I was a dependent) When the doctor did the hernia check, he discovered the testicle up in my abdomen. Because of Army regulations at the time, I was referred to a civilian urologist. After he examined me, I still remember the discussion in his office with my mother. Since my mom was a Registered Nurse with a BS from the University of Tennessee Medical School, he talked far more technical with her than normal. I remember them talking about three different options along with the hernia repair. First was an orchipexy, bringing the testicle down in an attempt to keep it in the scrotum. Second was a unilateral orchiectomy on the right side. My mother asked the doctor about the possible cancer risk and would bilateral castration be a better option. That was the moment castration was put in my mind and I masturbated thinking about it for the first time that night. What was eventually done was the orchipexy and I was in the hospital for a week or so with a cord attached to my testicle, running out the scrotum and taped to my leg. The orchipexy didn't do any good since the testicle atrophied and moved back up into the inguinal canal. I do remember how horrified my friends were about surgery on the balls and yet how they seemed to be fascinated by it.

[Atreyu69 (imported)]

My mother asked the doctor about the possible cancer risk and would bilateral castration be a better option. That was the moment castration was put in my mind and I masturbated thinking about it for the first time that night.

Hi Hopeful1

It's interesting how much attitudes have changed over a relatively short period of time. Not so long ago the castration of young boys wasn't the taboo subject it is today. Do you remember how the doctor reacted to your mom's suggestion? My guess would be that he wasn't crazy about the idea of castrating you but, at the same time, he wasn't particularly shocked or horrified either. I can only imagine the effect that conversation must have had on you.

Atreyu

[Hopeful1 (imported)]

Hi Hopeful1

It's interesting how much attitudes have changed over a relatively short period of time. Not so long ago the castration of young boys wasn't the taboo subject it is today. Do you remember how the doctor reacted to your mom's suggestion? My guess would be that he wasn't crazy about the idea of castrating you but, at the same time, he wasn't particularly shocked or horrified either. I can only imagine the effect that conversation must have had on you.

Atreyu

No, the doctor wasn't shocked and they did discuss it for a minute or so but in the end the orchipexy won out. Today, I don't think the orchipexy would be considered since the testicle had been in the warmer area of the body for all that time instead of the cooler area of the scrotum. Pretty much a certainty the testicle wouldn't survive.

Yes, that conversation had a big effect on me. It put the possibility of castration in my mind and it took many years but I finally accomplished it.

H1

[CircItaly (imported)]

I had a similar experience. I didn't knew what a circumcision is untill it was performed on me (12 years old). I thought was a kind of glansectomy, and I suspect my father intentionally favored the misunderstanding. Anyway, when I finally found out the truth, I wasn't relieved but disappointed: somehow I wished to cut more.

Once I was circumcised, suddenly everyone at my school found out about it. I was extremely embarrassed, but the other kids was morbidly curious. They demanded to know how and how much I was cutted. They were fascinated too...

[Atreyu69 (imported)]

I had a similar experience. I didn't knew what a circumcision is untill it was performed on me (12 years old). I thought was a kind of glansectomy, and I suspect my father intentionally favored the misunderstanding.

I get the feeling that some adults (parents, doctors and caregivers) sometimes get a wicked thrill from discussing genital mods (circumcision & castration) within earshot of boys. It's a not too subtle reminder as to who's in charge. If grown ups can have a boy's genitals cut what can't they do?