Shame and regret...but I’d do it again!

[russianboy (imported)]

I am afraid that I will regret castration. And it stops me to remove my testicles. Most of castrated guys regrets!

[Qunuch81 (imported)]

I am afraid that I will regret castration. And it stops me to remove my testicles. Most of castrated guys regrets!

Hi russianboy, if you feel like you need to have it done, you may want to just go ahead and do it. Do you think you will not have peace if you don't do it? Do you think you'll regret not having done it? In my post, I was trying to point out that it's not as simple as "do it and you'll feel great" vs. "do it and you'll feel miserable." I think you may very well have a mix of emotions, much like you do now. Do with that knowledge what you will. Good luck!

[Begoneboy (imported)]

TopMan, thanks for that reply. And LoseThem, you’re a sweetheart as usual ��

The difference between being castrated vs. having a surgi

cal scar is that we live in a gendered world.

“No

t having balls” means a lot of things a scar does not. I’m not denying that it’s wrong to marginalize anybody. I’

m just saying that social programming also plays a role in my self image. Though of course that

’s true for all of us...

How you said volumes. Social programming indeed plays a huge roll on everybody. We are now living in a generation of young people who have been socially programmed to believe that it is one of lifes requirements to continue on to college after K--12 basic education. Of course that basic education is strictly designed to give youth the ability of reading and understanding the rule of society and to function with the system society created for trade. Not every young person needs or is capable of higher learning. In fact we as a society are now suffering from the lack of trades craftsmen thanks to the philosophy that you're nobody without a college education. We as a society need to get away from all of this social engineering. Society hates individual thinking because society feels it cannot control the individual who thinks for themselves. And let's face it, society is ALL about controlling every member of it. Of course it also played a roll during my life. I did not go to college because society pressured me to do so. I went to college in order to learn how to learn and in my profession that is the most basic core principal. However, society did pressure me into doing the expected things of society. Making money to pay taxes, having a mate to procreate in order to increase the size of society etc etc etc. Society did not enable my individual desires and in fact attempted at every level to mitigate them. It was only when I realized that I did not live to benefit society but needed to live for me that things improved in my life. Had I simply gone along with the so called "social norms" I would not be enjoying my life as I do now. SO to hell with society. Do what is right for you rather than what is right for society. Of course without causing harm to another.

[Zebedeee (imported)]

How you said volumes. Social programming indeed plays a huge roll on everybody. We are now living in a generation of young people who have been socially programmed to believe that it is one of lifes requirements to continue on to college after K--12 basic education. Of course that basic education is strictly designed to give youth the ability of reading and understanding the rule of society and to function with the system society created for trade. Not every young person needs or is capable of higher learning. In fact we as a society are now suffering from the lack of trades craftsmen thanks to the philosophy that you're nobody without a college education. We as a society need to get away from all of this social engineering. Society hates individual thinking because society feels it cannot control the individual who thinks for themselves. And let's face it, society is ALL about controlling every member of it. Of course it also played a roll during my life. I did not go to college because society pressured me to do so. I went to college in order to learn how to learn and in my profession that is the most basic core principal. However, society did pressure me into doing the expected things of society. Making money to pay taxes, having a mate to procreate in order to increase the size of society etc etc etc. Society did not enable my individual desires and in fact attempted at every level to mitigate them. It was only when I realized that I did not live to benefit society but needed to live for me that things improved in my life. Had I simply gone along with the so called "social norms" I would not be enjoying my life as I do now. SO to hell with society. Do what is right for you rather than what is right for society. Of course without causing harm to another.

I couldn’t agree with you more.

I have spent the first forty six years of my life trying to conform, doing what’s expected of me and trying to make others happy, and I just ended up a miserable pretty much suicidal alcoholic… Now I’ve started to do my own thing and I’ve never been happier, and haven’t needed a drink for over six months and counting.

I used to be confused - now everyone else is, and I’m finding that I much prefer it this way round!

[justine77 (imported)]

Completely agree with Begoneboy, your sexuality is whatever you want it to be. I never fitted in with society and don't plan to start now. Justine x

[MikeGrant (imported)]

This is just lazy of me! Sorry. Just going to cut and paste something i posted elsewhere on here as it seems relevant.

So I have been off Androcure for a couple of weeks now. As someone quite active, the shortness of breath was at a level that i found scary. Gasping for breath at levels of exertion that didnt come even close to my usual activity levels was just something i could not continue, and something that was evident to people around me. The loss of libido and the feeling it gave me where so positive. The mental / spiritual feelings it gave me are truly confounding. Dont know if this is the Eunuch calm i have read about, but it turned out to be a life changing effect for me. Perhaps i would have made these changes anyway, perhaps not. I will never know. I do know i have started on a new path in my life, and i hope my new mental state is permanent.

I was someone who was just going to get surgically castrated. Feeling this was going to be the answer to my life issues. The complications of its effects on my career became so difficult to navigate i had to stop and rethink. Chatting to men on here who took that route made me realize what an absolutely massive, and irreversible, step i was about to take. It would have been a mistake for me. As a widower in my mid 50s, still totally in love with my wife who took her own life, i have no desire to have anything but platonic relationships. Since her death i have struggled with depression and self medicated with alcohol. Alcohol use led me to dangerous and degrading behavior, and then the search to stop my sexual drive. Hello Eunuch Archive! Obvious solution found here. i communicated with Drs had the cash and was ready to go. Then the road blocks. Androcure has given me the ability to experience castration, its effects were very rapid for me, 2.7 ng/dl after 2 weeks of a half tablet daily. If i find my new mental/spiritual state changing, i know a couple of weeks of Androcure will bring me back. i dont know if others do this, i havnt read about it here, it seems more common to be castrated and use T to control your life. i know everyone's path is different, i am glad i found mine. i think surgical castration is on that path, its just way further down it than i thought.

At the end of the day, you be you cowboy!

[russianboy (imported)]

If I will want to father children???

[cutnbulls2ox (imported)]

Pretty much every man wonders if he wants to be a father some day and if he will ? That s the reason most men wait until after they are finished having all their kids before they get castrated. There s enough time in a lifetime to do it all, but in stages and when you are ready for it. No rush, you are young and have fatherhood and decades of great sex to enjoy your balls before most men get old enough to choose losing their balls. Most men do all those things first and get castrated after those are accomplished.

[Decimus. (imported)]

If I will want to father children???

You could always have your sperm stored cryogenically before undergoing the knife. I've never had this done and don't know the ins and outs of actually getting a hospital or sperm bank to take and store it for you (there'll probably be a yearly fee involved for the freezer space), but I know for a fact it's technologically possible. Something to look into if that's the only thing holding you back.

[paring (imported)]

Younger this has never crossed my mind, but since the last 4-5 years, I thought about it. After I ended my chem castration, myT level was so low that I had to be on TRT. That didn't help with my sperm count. I quitted TRT almost 5 years ago and started to work on elevating my T level as well as my sperm count. It's going up slowly, at my last blood test my T level was quite normal but my sperm count was still a bit low. I intend to make a sperm deposit as soon as my sperm count will high enough. One of my dreams is to father a child. I can garantie that it will happen but I"ll try. At this point my castration desire is at its peak and this is bugging me a lot., I don't want to get it done too soon and ruin my chance to father a child. Just like Qunuch81, I might have regrets to have lost my testes and I might regret it even morte if lost the chance to father a child. Just like Qunuch81, I have this irresistible desire to be castrated but I'm also conscious that I might sometime regret it.