Seeking thoughts of Eunuchs, Nullos, and Penectomized, and serious wannabes

[kazimirmanxie2044 (imported)]

Patience is a virtue, not something I have I am afraid. When I seeked medical help about whatever is going on in my life, I had already fargone my limits. I would've and should've gotten medical help in my teens however due to sexual abuse and being afraid of my father, my mind was very preoccupied with other things. I think you'd be able to understand that. You should never use sand as the foundation to build a house on, it'll likely collapse. That is a metaphor for my poor and vapidly declining mental health. I was talking with my therapist and psychiatrist about my goals for "transitioning" and they said they wanted to help me, however couldn't because I don't want to accept their help. So I explained there is a number of things I want to do however, for me a symbolic first step is to have an orchiectomy. Its extremely important to me, for reasons I have researched and compiled data for, and to alleviate my physical issues.

The truth is, my body is completely irreversibly destroyed by the verilization from my natal sex hormones, so even if I had wanted to be a male-to-female transsexual it'd be disingenuous and be very negative for my mental health since it'd be impossible to be socialized as a woman, for reasons one and two. One, being cis-passing is extremely important because looks denote how you get treated; somebody who looks like a transvestite is unlikely to gain proper socialization because people will treat them like a natal male sans pronouns and name out of courtesy. Two, I have ASD meaning I failed to socialize like a neurotypical male of my birthsex meaning I am essentially defective or in other words, have experiences completely atypical of the normal male social class: I wouldn't change it for the world because that what makes me unique.

My point is, I want it because I desire the same abstinence I felt pre-puberty and want asexuality. I feel very similar to most male-to-female transsexuals except for the parts where I don't. Maybe its the fear of being associated with degenerates that are most likely the autogynephiles seen in the media, maybe its because of trans radical activists pushing a very literally insane ideology like pushing the idea that women who where born as natal males should compete in sports with natal women, natal males have very clear biological advantages over natal women; longer legs, higher muscle density, lower q-angle, large differences in hormones produced by the adrenal glands; its brutal. Then saying its "transphobic" to have genital preferences and trying to guilt men into dating transsexual women. Most transsexual women I have spoken to want to not be recognized as trans, its not a badge of honor being recognized as trans like being impaled though the chest, most want to be seen as natal women; it is painful and trans radical activists are not making it easier.

That's why I am taking a very methodical approach to everything. It doesn't help that Blanchards "friend" who wrote the specification on the DSM-V is a proven paedophile and the WPATH uses those idea's to identify and give treatment gender dysphoric patients. I much prefer Benjamin's work, it has a better application to the male-to-eunuch model. And don't get me started on the atrocities by that "John Money" person who castrated a boy and made him do sexual acts with his uncle and brother and forcibly tried to socialize them as female to prove a strawman argument. The boy, later found out he was lied to and found out he was indeed a man and tried to pick up scraps of what was stolen from him "transitioned" into a man using trt but ultimately shot himself.

My apologies for going on a vent. Its easy to drown in the negativity. I have been completely enveloped by it. Which is why I will never be a transsexual woman, because it'd be too painful. I am a serious wannabe eunuch since I still want to still have some resemblance of a male identity. It allows me to cure my dysphoria with getting pummeled to death by some uneducated dunce that would otherwise make false assumptions about myself and want me buried 6ft under the earth.

[Valery_V (imported)]

Do not despair! The main thing - your internal tranquility. Get yourself together. At you everything will turn out, but, of course, not at once. It depends not only on your mood, but on external real circumstances. You are so young. Take your time. You do not know yet precisely what you want. You do not need to hurry.

[justapup (imported)]

I am a Eunuch identifying as non-binary. Being non-binary and honesty about what I have done to my testicles is how I got my operation covered by insurance! ❤

[Majicdan (imported)]

I present myself as a male in society.

I am a Eunuch. A castrated man.

I have small breasts.

My penis has shrunk and atrophied to the place that it normally stays up inside of me.

I have read that there are somewhere between 600,000 and 900,000 castrated men in the USA.

[Brazilian_Guy (imported)]

Man. Just a man with a desire to get rid of his penis in the next years. Bisexual with preference for women.

I never viewed myself as anything other than a man who doesn't like his own penis.

[BillyBlogs (imported)]

It's a funny thing, I was just thinking along these lines when I hit on this thread.

OK, what am I now? I'm not too sure. I would usually answer trying as hard as I can to avoid the word "man". Maybe gay guy? Recently I was talking with someone, and they said something like "so you're a (something I can't remember) man. Reluctantly I sort of accepted the epithet. But really, nope. It didn't sit right, and I wasn't comfortable with the term. Never have been though.

Boy might be better, but it carries connotations from the BDSM world which don't apply.

For me personally, eunuch is also tainted by the same movement. It's too often equated with submissive and slave, of which I'm neither.

I don't see myself as a man as such, but I accept that I have more masculine characteristics than some imagined neutral point. So how shall I term myself? for the time being, I'll stick with trying to not use common or popular labels, because I don't yet know of one I like.

I do describe myself as becoming a gelding. I think that's how I'll prefer to term myself once the process to a less sexual being is completed. I am a gelding sounds good to me.

[Valery_V (imported)]

It's a funny thing, I was just thinking along these lines when I hit on this thread.

OK, what am I now? I'm not too sure. I would usually answer trying as hard as I can to avoid the word "man". Maybe gay guy? Recently I was talking with someone, and they said something like "so you're a (something I can't remember) man. Reluctantly I sort of accepted the epithet. But really, nope. It didn't sit right, and I wasn't comfortable with the term. Never have been though.

Boy might be better, but it carries connotations from the BDSM world which don't apply.

For me personally, eunuch is also tainted by the same movement. It's too often equated with submissive and slave, of which I'm neither.

I don't see myself as a man as such, but I accept that I have more masculine characteristics than some imagined neutral point. So how shall I term myself? for the time being, I'll stick with trying to not use common or popular labels, because I don't yet know of one I like.

I do describe myself as becoming a gelding. I think that's how I'll prefer to term myself once the process to a less sexual being is completed. I am a gelding sounds good to me.

Though I became the full eunuch in youth (in my profile on our website details are specified), in usual life and at work always represented myself as the man. Of course it was regularly necessary undress completely, having medical examinations according to requirements at the enterprises where I had to work, or for sports activities. But doctors found me healthy, they were not frightened by absence at me some parts below a belt. In private life of my relatives quite arranged absence at me these parts, and moreover it even for some reason was pleasant to them .

[grapesoda19 (imported)]

Using 2021 language, here's how I'd answer this....

Gender at Birth?: AMAB or Male

Current Biological Gender?: Male

What do you identify as?: Male

Future Biological Gender?: Nullo

What will you identify as then?: Male

What is your (current) sexual orientation?: Panromantic Asexual (or PanroAce)

[Mac (imported)]

I present myself as a male in society.

I am a Eunuch. A castrated man.

I have small breasts.

My penis has shrunk and atrophied to the place that it normally stays up inside of me.

I have read that there are somewhere between 600,000 and 900,000 castrated men in the USA.

How are you effected by having your penis that tiny?

[Mac (imported)]

Virilization is disgusting. I wish i had choice of how my body developed. Now I am going to have to spend thousands to undo the mess that is my body.

A massive fuckoff jawline, a protruding browbone, facial and body hair. I didn't want to develop like a male, but i didn't want to develop like a female either.

My failures to manage hormones with my chemical castration attempts to escape the monotony of a mans libido has given me breasts. Which I don't like.

I was with my psychiatrist and therapist on Tuesday, 18-24 months... I have to wait for. Part of the reason I don't want to be transsexual is because i dont want to be seen as a degenerate.

Because apparently the WPATH is based off of blanchards transsexual topology, i am not an autogynephile.

my body is torture. i would rather be an entity disconnected from any physical being.

being a man is disgusting, it is my bane.

If I could have had my choice: I would have had no facial and body hair, cute tiny breasts like size "A", and female genitals.