An experience of involuntray castration

[justine77 (imported)]

Hi, I've had several members ask me, was it an adventure for you when you had a castration you didn't see coming. Well for those who may be interested here goes. I lost my testicles in Aug 2015 as a result of a climbing accident. I fell awkwardly, landed astride a sharp rock and my testes were rammed backwards between my legs with a lot of force. It was so painful I nearly passed out, it felt like I'd had my balls ripped out the back of my pants. I was told later I'd torn the ball cords and twisted the testicles. Because of the remote location it took me 12 hours to get to hospital, the clinician attempted a repair operation but the extent of the damage and the long delay meant that is was unsuccessful. I was duly castrated and returned home a eunuch. I should point out that at this time I wasn't a straight guy, I IDed as androgyne and dressed as both male and female, probably about 50 - 50. At this stage I wouldn't call it an adventure, I remember standing in front of the mirror at home, looking at my empty sac and thinking now what do I do, I can't really be male anymore. I should have gone to an endocrinologist right away, unfortunately I didn't. I prevaricated for over a year, I was shy and embarrassed that I was a eunuch. There were consequences from this, as I wrote in other forum posts I lost nearly all of my body hair and later on when I was on TRT and could reach orgasm again I wasn't able to ejaculate. The physical effects came on quickly, I couldn't get an erection after about 2 weeks and trying to keep good muscle tone became increasingly difficult. The psychological effects are more difficult to explain, it mostly comes down to needing time to come to terms with the fact that I was castrated. Eventually I got used to the situation and after about 18 months started TRT (75 mg testosterone cypionate a week). Normally functioning returned fast and I felt very similar to how I did before except of course I didn't have any balls. The next stage in accepting that I was a eunuch was to have the empty scrotum removed, this was done just over two weeks ago. I like the extra space down there and the smooth area under my cock. Now 2 and half years on I can honestly say I prefer not having any balls. Although I don't advertise that I'm castrated and don't hide it either. Sometimes in the shower at my gym I see people looking at me and trying not to be obvious about it. I don't cover up anymore and if I like the look of them I'll arrange to bend over and give them a good look at my ball-less crotch. I am perfectly happy now to be an androgyne eunuch and wouldn't change it except perhaps to become more feminine, maybe MtF for the future. I am attracted to androgynous women, feminized guys, feminine eunuchs and especially girls who used to be guys, my best friends are tgirls. I would like to say I like eunuch and transgender society a lot and find the people a lot more interesting that vanilla people. If there are any specific questions anyone would like to ask about my castration or my experience as a new eunuch I'm happy to reply on private messaging or can reply on this thread to general questions. Regards, Justine x

[cutnbulls2ox (imported)]

Lucky you didn t bleed out or die from shock right away with those injuries. Shows how tough some men can be when neceassary. That long 12 hour journey back to help must have been a living hell. And all that time, knowing your balls were so damaged and likely dying by the minute. That pain must have been terrible !

I m guessing by being as androgynous as you were before your accident, that made it a lot easier for you to accept involuntary castration. Think how difficult it is for men wanting to be totally masculine to go through the same castration against their wills. What did you miss the most initially and now ?

Has the TRT returned everything in your body to the way it was before, body hair, muscles, sex drive, sweat smells, mind and personality, and similar for you, except no ejaculations ? Did your dr have any explanation why your ejaculations stopped ? Was it the injury damage or your lost ability was lost by your male hormones being gone for too long a time ? Any chance you might get your ejaculation ability back again ?

So, who turns on to you the most in wanting to have sex with you and pursuing you for sex now ? Males, females, trans, ? How is the sex now compared to with your balls ? Did you have a lot of pleasure and sensations during sex coming from your balls and spermatic cords before your injuries ? Or more of your sexual pleasures centered in your penis ? Most men s pleasures seem to be coming more from their penis and fewer men getting large amounts of pleasure from their testicles and testicle cords and tubes. Has that impacted your orgasmic pleasures a lot, medium, or not much ?

Did it seem like you had a high, medium, or low sex drive and level of testosterone in your body before the injuries ? How does that compare to now and being on TRT ?

Amazing you could make that big adjustment and feel ok with it all now ! Resiliancy sure pays off in life.

Thanks for your answers ?

[justine77 (imported)]

Hi, yes it was very painful, things went numb after a while though, probably a type of shock reaction. Being androgyne made it easier to accept castration since I had latent feminine tendencies anyway, nevertheless it still took over a year to adjust. Initially I missed not having balls, now I prefer not having any. After TRT most things were similar to before, muscle tone back to normal, mentally and psychologically the same but I did lose nearly all my body hair which didn't grow back. The most likely explanation for loss of ejaculation is atrophication of the prostate when I wasn't on TRT. It has come back very slightly now, 1 or 2 drops of clear fluid sometimes

. I am attracted to androgynous women, feminized guys, feminine eunuchs and

tgirls. Sex now feels pretty well as before but orgasms feel different somehow, just as intense but a different sensation without ejaculation. Most sexual sensation is from the penis but the area underneath is very sensitive too. I'd say I had a high sex drive before castration, it's still quite high now but is more variable. Justine x

[daifu-orchid (imported)]

All the best to you, as you make the best of how it is now.

If androgynous, do you ever want to change to TRT for ERT? Seems it might suit?

[cutnbulls2ox (imported)]

Thanks for the detailed answers. I can t be the only one wonder about all my questions. Your generous answers are very appreciated.

[justine77 (imported)]

Hi, daifu-orchid, yes I'm looking at switching from TRT to E. I'm researching the likely outcome now. Justine x

[april973 (imported)]

yes I'm looking at switching from TRT to E. I'm researching the likely outcome now. Justine x

One thing you will become more feminine like growing breasts, softer skin and the alike

[daifu-orchid (imported)]

I hope it works out for you. E or T? Being nutted allows us to choose the E or T or none. This is very cool!

E and T work slowly, so I guess you could start E and see how it begins to go. Continue if you like it and stop if you don't?

Can't help but think that back when, gender was binary -or we were told it was- and obviously permanent. But now my daughter in her late 20's, has some delightful friends and among them are at least two who are somewhere in the middle. Sometimes they present as more male and other times more female, depending on how they feel. Completely ok with the group as a whole. The millennial generation commendably accepts folk of all sorts much better than we did, and allows people to be themselves.

The world is getting better, even if too slowly!

[justine77 (imported)]

Hi daifu-orchid, I completely agree with you. Although not a eunuch by choice I've reached the point now where I actually prefer not having any balls or scrotum. I like the feeling of smoothness and the extra space at the top of the legs. As you said being nutless means you can go either way or neither. I've tried no HRT at all, that did didn't work out and caused problems. I've been fine on TRT but have been gradually drifting to the feminine side of androgyne. I have an appointment with a gender therapist next week and plan to switch from TRT to E. I'll see how it works out. I don't want SRS but would like a more feminine appearance. What will happen psychologically I have no idea, my guess is that I'll stay the same androgynous person I was when I was 15.

Justine x

[daifu-orchid (imported)]

I would guess much the same person, but maybe a little bit / a lottabit more feminine and happier?

Keep the folks here posted! -however it works out....