(Mostly) limp and numb

[Qunuch81 (imported)]

I've been a eunuch since June 2015. I use 2 pumps of Androgel every morning, and until recently it's kept my body and sexual functioning operating (as far as I can tell) at pre-castration levels.

Over the past year or so I've developed mixed feelings about my penis. I fantasized a lot about impotence, but didn't want to cut back on T because I was worried about the other nasty effects of androgen deprivation. Even so, I noticed that my relationship to my penis was changing. I became less interested in using it during sex. I'd stroke it purely because that was what I needed to do in order to get off. I became interested in prostate orgasms. Haven't had one yet, but still working on it!

Now here's the strange thing. The past few days, my penis has been feeling kind of numb. I noticed last night that it was a lot more difficult to get an erection, and when I did, it was a weak one. I managed to get off without too much trouble, but the orgasm was less intense than usual. Furthermore, I've become aware of my penis in a way I've never been before. It feels like a dead thing hanging there. Loose flesh.

My doctor told me last week that my T-levels were low (200s), but I haven't cut back on my Androgel. Yet even if I had, my pre-castration T-levels were high 200s, so it seems unlikely that my current level would produce such a change in my functioning.

I kind of like it and kind of don't. I like it because I like the idea of shifting the focus of my erotic energy from my dick to my prostate. I suspect the "don't" is simply coming from a place of fear...the old fear of change. I have been thinking pretty seriously lately about going nullo, so this may be a good intermediary step.

Not sure what I'm asking, or even if I'm asking anything. Thoughts? Commiserations? War stories?

[daifu-orchid (imported)]

Viagra / Cialis? -if it troubles you, if not enjoy!

[madnomadtoo (imported)]

Having had some extended periods of T deprivation in the past, my experience matches yours somewhat. In spite of regular T shots now, my erections are shorter, softer and pliable. My penis has no erogenous feeling any more. On those rare occasions when I can reach an orgasm, with some really rough treatment, the climax is mild and disappointing. Sometimes I feel like I'm having a full hardon, but when I check it is only slightly larger.

I read somewhere that stretched flaccid length is closely indicative of erection length. Years ago my two inch flaccid would stretch to over five inches. Now it stretches to just under four inches. It has lost elasticity, like the chambers no longer have room for the blood. In your words: "a dead thing hanging there -- loose flesh." I feel a definite sense of loss and frustration over this.

[TopManFL (imported)]

Viagra / Cialis? -if it troubles you, if not enjoy!

True, if you are concerned a chat with the doc would make sense. There are meds that push the up button on the elevator.

Be sure to go over any medications that push the down button as well. Beta blockers, central nervous system drugs, pain meds (even tylenol or aleve) can all make the cock have less feeling and more difficult to maintain an erection. Any recent changes in health or medication.

Good luck

[Losethem (imported)]

Your T is definitely low. You need to get the level up, then you'll see your pecker rise.

[Qunuch81 (imported)]

Yep. Increasing T + porn = robust boner and satisfying orgasm. Phew. This experience has taught me I don't want to be a nullo after all.

[daifu-orchid (imported)]

Some fine upstanding members are less so after many birthdays. Many medical reasons, I'm told, but help as in meds, excitement (self, partner, porn) and at least a minimal level of T help? (Some folk seem to get it up with no T, and some are just happy without.)

Now, if we want to discuss the nullo orgasm, there are plenty of experts right here.... Not even a nullo and orgasmic?

-Sounds good enough to me!