Non-binary transition on the NHS (UK)

[Peter47-NL (imported)]

As a 12yo boy I wished to get breasts, but I didn't get them. I have allways envied boys and men with gynaecomastia and shuddered watching cutting away the lacteal gland in a video. I few years ago I tried herbal estrogen (Breast-Gro). I felt flat disk shaped tissue (about a 2 euro coin) under my nipples. After 6 months this tisue gave a tingling sensation and my nipples became real big teats and were sery sore. After another two months I stopped the cure, there was no progress and costed some momey. I hope that castration will bring me breasts, not too big.