Worried about chemical castration but I have no choice

[Funkyteets (imported)]

Hi,

I would like to post my life story one day, but for now I will post my most immediate and pressing events.

Tomorrow I will fly to another country to inject myself with Depo-Provera. I do have questions regarding dosage but I will post that to another forum.

I'll fly to Thailand as I can purchase Depo-Provera otc there and try to bring some back. It's legal where I live but must be administered by a doctor, so I can't actually just buy it hence the Thailand idea. BTW, I'm not going for women and booze - I just live in the region.

As stated in the introduction forum, I have ADHD with comorbid depression or bipolar II (my doc isn't entirely sure which one), and due to one of these I am often hypersexual. I think about sex constantly, have an out of control porn addiction, masturbate 2-3 times on a normal day or 6-7 on a bad day. There are times when I can go a few days without, but it never lasts long.

I've tried various medications in the past: saw palmetto, vitex and finasteride. The latter worked but I got freaked out by the stories of hypogonadism being irreversible - I wasn't ready for that.

I currently take Ritalin for ADHD and Wellbutrin for depression. I tried Zoloft which helped but left me like a zombie while Cymbalta and Venlafaxine caused me to experience - what my doctor thinks - was a hypomanic state. I drove my motorcycle at high speed through my town at night, was hearing voices and had this sudden urge to completely clean and reorganize my whole house. I also tried a range of mood stabilizers ranging from one that worked but left me feeling mentally retarded to another I had to stop as the doctor thought it was causing Steven Johnson's Syndrome.

Due to my medical history, my concern is the issue of depression and Depo Provera. I've read here that some people with bipolar have found DP to have a calming effect because the hypersexual element disappeared. I would love my mind to experience such relief so I feel it's worth the risk. I've read up on all the other side effects and I can accept those. While my testosterone is on the lower end of the spectrum, I feel that I must give it a try.

Any thoughts? And while I said I would post about potential dosing in another part of the forum, it makes sense to ask the question here too - any ideas? I've read doses from 100 - 400 mg every two weeks to 500 mg per week. As I said, my testosterone is already on the lower end of the scale, so I was thinking of starting with one 150 ml vial and seeing how I react to it. Then, if I'm okay, inject another two weeks later. I'm hoping to import small amounts in the foreseeable future.

Thanks for reading. I appreciate it.

[Oyktiro1 (imported)]

It's a shame that Saw Palmetto didnt work for you.. I've been on it for 3 weeks and I'm finding good results on it. But my Libido is far lower than yours. I was masturbating once a week. you do it few times daily.

[Frida G Cavic (imported)]

150mg every 2-3 weeks. Please be careful. If it possible check once in a while your prolactin, glucose, cortisol and liver pannel. the effects are not immediate, possibly you will notice by the third month, don´t rush and dont apply more in that lapse of time, then you can mantain 1 per month, Remember the minimum dosage effective. Tha advantage of depo is that its highly effective with no resistence when you use for the second or third time.

[Funkyteets (imported)]

Thanks for the replies folks. It doesn't look like I'll be getting any DP at all. I'm in Bangkok as I type and nowhere seems to sell it otc. While it's a non prescription drug, it seems to have taken the same route as the country I live in where you must go to a clinic to be injected. As a dude, I'm not ready for that discussion.

I guess I'll have to put this down to a pile of wasted cash. To rub salt into the wound, I unknowingly booked a room bang in the middle of one of the red light areas; however, I've booked one of the few hotels where lady guests are not permitted. I hadn't planned on such things as I never have, but I'm rather despondent. I have no medication; I'm in a red light district with nowhere to go - what a shit trip!

I'll chalk it up to experience lol.

[Prismatic (imported)]

Thanks for the replies folks. It doesn't look like I'll be getting any DP at all. I'm in Bangkok as I type and nowhere seems to sell it otc. While it's a non prescription drug, it seems to have taken the same route as the country I live in where you must go to a clinic to be injected. As a dude, I'm not ready for that discussion.

I guess I'll have to put this down to a pile of wasted cash. To rub salt into the wound, I unknowingly booked a room bang in the middle of one of the red light areas; however, I've booked one of the few hotels where lady guests are not permitted. I hadn't planned on such things as I never have, but I'm rather despondent. I have no medication; I'm in a red light district with nowhere to go - what a shit trip!

I'll chalk it up to experience lol.

Look for Cyproterone Acetate, spironolactone, bicalutamide. I know there are other chemical castration meds, too. But there are three that you can look for. All should come in tablet form, the cypro might come in injection form but that is much less common than pill form for it.

[Oyktiro1 (imported)]

That really sucks man.. You go all through that to get some and you dont find it. I feel bad for you.