I think that I lost testosterone production while I was married. My former wife noticed and complained about my loss of libido after mid-1988. We were together until April 1992. I was not very sexually expressive during that time. However, we had earlier enjoyed a sexually expressive and lusty marriage--I think!
After my wife left, I have been celibate. I didn't really miss eroticism or sexual play until late 1999. I have made out since that time. I have a girlfriend who lives in another state. However, she is a conservative Christian. Our encounters have been rather tame.
According to the test that my physicin gave me in October 2002, I had an extremely low level of testosterone. Even now, the loss seems almost abstract rather than deeply personal.
I'm sorry that I don't know how to answer your question. I have not enjoyed a lover in almost eleven years. What I miss is the total intimacy of a sexual relationship.
