I've been a long-time lurker, mostly reading the transgender and nullification stories. Penectomy, feminization, various other modifications, have always been an interest for me, since grade school (no, I hadn't heard of this site when I first had these urges). This site has been a great outlet for me. For the better part of my stay here, I've been content with just reading stories (I even tried to write a story, but got lazy) but recently, things have been changing.
Lately, I've been getting transsexual feelings more and more often and with greater intensity, and these days I pretty much full-on want to be a woman. The exact details are blurry—I don't really care much for having a vagina since I love anal so much, but I would definitely want to have breasts and look pretty. I intend to never touch my penis again, relying entirely on prostate orgasms The catch is, I have a girlfriend (whom I love dearly) and all she knows is I'm a normal cisgendered heterosexual male with a fondness for butt stuff. I also live with my family, and I doubt transitioning will sit well with them. My friends will be cool with it though, if ever.
While I'm reasonably good-looking, and a few pictures with wigs have convinced me that I would be an attractive woman, I've decided I'll probably suffer in silence. I don't want to lose my girlfriend, and I've got male pattern baldness anyway. At least I'll have the eunuch.org stories to keep me company
Love, Emily
(The name I've decided for myself)