Starting therapy monday

[Arab Nights (imported)]

Oscar. I have not had the same issues as you in life. Never the less, I have had issues that I finally got old enought to recognize and decide that they were holding me back from being whom I wanted to be. I was scared when I started Toastmasters, but it changed my life. I was scared when I went to a therapist 3 hour drive away, but he was helpful. It is just flat assed scary to try to change yourself. Please do not let that stand in the way.

The interesting thing is that at nearly 70 I find myself in a position of explaining things so people will buy in and you know what, I am actually kind of good at it and moving up the food chain. Maybe once you find yourself, you are so comfortable in your own skin that you can go out and do what used to scare the pee squat out of you.

Good luck.

[oscarjackson (imported)]

The nerves are really starting to kick in now, really not sure how well I'm going to sleep tonight!! Not sure what to expect tomorrow, and while I'm not going to totally rule out transition, I'm not sure how to tell them i feel more MTE then MTF??

[Losethem (imported)]

You'll do fine. And if your therapist needs help understanding what's going on, I think mine here in the US may be o.k. with a brief consultation to explain what this is. Mention that you have a person you know in the US that went to a therapist that understood this if yours seems confused. From there, you can ask if they would be willing to write to that therapist and have a consult. From there I could reach out to mine and ask if he would be willing.

--LT

[johnnielynn (imported)]

Best of luck to you tomorrow. i'm kinda stuck right now and know i should begin the therapy, i'm just ... not ready, i guess. i'll be looking forward to all the input you generate as you move forward. i want to be submissive and seek to have castration and penectomy. my penis is so small and my wife finds it usless at this time for pleasing her. i am encouraging her to cuckhold me. i love being feninine and don't really know wear to begin. i am enjoying the journy so far and enjoy this group!!!jl

[oscarjackson (imported)]

OK, so Im just back from my appointment for today. I was so nerves, i would even say terrified!! I had to see two separate people, first up was the clinic nurse, blood test, STI test,meds, health history and a few basic question about how i feel ect. Second Appointment was with a gender therapist, This was the hard one, i was shaking, i felt sick, and so terrified she wouldn't understand!!! But she was actually quite good to talk to. My fear of not clearly explaining my situation was correct, noting quite come out how i wanted it to, but she was understanding and explained all the different options for transition and non binary/non conforming and working out where i fit in(in her words "it not a one box fits all") and talked about writing things down as i forgot a lot i wanted to talk about and any questions i may have. I have another visit in January with her and a appointment the doctor to talk about hormones if i want to, and options with surgery in the future.

So not as scary as i was thinking, and not a no as i was expecting, for now i would say its a good start, and see where things go from here.

Thanks LT and everyone who has replied for the support and encouragement. I will keep you all up to date as things go.

[Losethem (imported)]

You're welcome. It seems as if you've had a productive first appointment, but are going a bit slower than mine did. You'll get there though.

You initially mentioned male-to-eunuch, but what is your final destination? Remove your penis, testicles, both and go nullo? I ask because I'm not sure if hormones are the answer in your case. If you're male-to-eunuch, unless you're wanting to be asexual, there's not much that can be done with hormones except chemical castration, which usually removes sexual interest. In my case, the desire was not to be asexual, but to be a guy without guy parts on my crotch. Just a flat, doll-like appearance other than a new opening for me to urinate and cum out of.

I'm glad your appointment was not as scary as you thought. I would definitely take the therapists advice to write things down you wish to ask in the future. It will help your process along.

--LT

[oscarjackson (imported)]

I think the appointment to talk about hormones is so that I know all the options I have available and to make sure I'm fully informed. At this point the main goal is to be rid of my testicles only and take replacement testosterone.

[oscarjackson (imported)]

hey guys,

so monday i have another appointment and i really want some resources i can direct my dr and therapist too as I'm not 100% sure they understand what i want? I didn't get a total no as i expected from my first appointment, however i don't know i explained myself well? So question.......is the eunuch archive somewhere you would tell your therapist about?? while it seems some people are genuine there is a lot of fetish and jerk off on here?? but I'm really struggling to find real sources of information and or case studies, ect?

Thanks guys.

[kristoff]

hey guys,

so monday i have another appointment and i really want some resources i can direct my dr and therapist too as I'm not 100% sure they understand what i want? I didn't get a total no as i expected from my first appointment, however i don't know i explained myself well? So question.......is the eunuch archive somewhere you would tell your therapist about?? while it seems some people are genuine there is a lot of fetish and jerk off on here?? but I'm really struggling to find real sources of information and or case studies, ect?

Thanks guys.

Send a Private Message to archive member Jesus. Give him an email that will accept attachments. He can send you links to all the research from the EA surveys. Lots of good information that will give your people the background they need.

[Prismatic (imported)]

Even now after ~3 years of self-medicating the thought alone of approaching a therapist makes me nervous, both because I identify as neither male nor female and because it's awkward and embarrassing as hell to tell people that or explain it, at least for me. It's mainly because of the embarrassment. I'm a coward. Only a few people in my life even know what I've been doing.

I don't have much to add to your thread but I do want to say good on you for having the balls to approach a therapist about it and also good luck with the process and I hope all goes well.