Bleeding Again

[Scottie (imported)]

Yep bleeding again!!!! the dam scrotum has formed a fischer and it kinda heals and then blamo it opens up and its a geizer!! so more bull shit. going back to the Hospital today and they are going to numb me up and then stitch me up, but this time they are going to cauterize the small blood vessel that is doing this. So just when I thought that the story was over... it continues. Just an inconvieniance. Scottie

[Andrew (imported)]

So just when I thought that the story was over... it continues. Just an inconvieniance. Scottie

Well, take it easy and do what the medical staff instruct you to do.

[Scottie (imported)]

Hi again: Well now lets see. On Friday I am going in to have a re-do on the right side of the scrotum. Seems we have a bleeder. First he needs to cauterize that, and then he wants to open the scrotum and make sure he got all of the dead tissue. He told me that the acid actually joined the testical to the skin wall on the inside of the scrotum. Excuse me... FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!! and now my head just wants to run and hide and not do anything. Let the dam thing bleed me to death. Well Ill keep all of you posted. Gee Im glad that I stayed with the Hospital in Cleveland. NOT!!!!!!!

[Riverwind (imported)]

Scottie,

Did you think there were no side effects?

They will get it all fixed but remember Doctors practice medicine and any surgery is uncertain.

You thought this was over?

It has only started, how soon are you having a bone scan, at least once every two years, for how long you say, for the rest of your life. You should also be taking a calcium supplement.

OH the joys of being a eunuch, welcome to the group. If you have any questions Andrew and I will help all we can.

Congratulations again on the castration, I know you are as happy as the rest of us eunuchs.

River

[Scottie (imported)]

Feelings are somewhat either amplified or skewed now. No I didnt think of after effects. Who does any way. I knew what I wanted and went out to get it. I just want to be well thats all. People poking jabbing examining taking blood, putting you to sleep asking you questions, medicines to take and on and on and on. No I never thought about it much. I know it's still what I wanted. so onward and upward. I just feel like crying for now and yesterday was angry and then last night didnt know how I felt. So im crying for now and well well see where I am later. Thanks Scottie

[Blaise (imported)]

Thanks for the reports. Even more thanks for your tenacity.

[Leon (imported)]

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No I didnt think of after effects. Who does any way.

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Scottie, thanks for such reports as yours, eunuch wannabes, such as myself, can read first hand account of what it is to be castrated, how castration will effect you and the complications that may arise. All of this is of the utmost importance, so thank you and other eunuchs for posting such reports has the one you have written. It will help wannabes realise what is involved in undergoing their desired procedure.

Of course reports from wannabes on their feelings, fustrations and what lead one to desire castration are just as important because they show the steps leading up to the act itself. I hope such reports lead to a greater understanding of 'castration anxiety/fixation/eroticism/etc', but somehow I doubt it will, but then again all we have is hope.

All the very best,

Leon

[happousai (imported)]

I wonder what would have happened if Scottie only injected 0.5 mL of lactic acid into his testicles, rather than an excessive amount. Would there still be the problem of the remains of the testicle being fused to the scrotum?

[Dave (imported)]

Feelings are somewhat either amplified or skewed now. No I didnt think of after effects.

People poking jabbing examining taking blood, putting you to sleep asking you questions, medicines to take and on and on and on.

I just feel like crying for now and yesterday was angry and then last night didnt know how

Thanks Scottie

In case you didn't notice, you are having mood swings. This is the regular aftermath of surgery like you had and more than that, your hormone levels are screwing around with your feelings. THe most important thing to remember is that this is a result of surgery and hormones.

It is difficult having doctors, nurses, orderlies, assistants, pestering you all day and night and asking silly, stupid questions. The have to ask all those questions.

YOu wanted to inject your testicles with lactic acid and you did! So don't feel bad about it. Now, Both of your testicles are gone and even if it takes a little more time at the hospital, you have succeeded in getting a big thing done in your life. THe past is over and done with, don't obssess over it and don't feel guilty about it.

Dave

[Andrew (imported)]

Feelings are somewhat either amplified or skewed now. No I didnt think of after effects. Who does any way. I knew what I wanted and went out to get it. I just want to be well thats all. People poking jabbing examining taking blood, putting you to sleep asking you questions, medicines to take and on and on and on. No I never thought about it much. I know it's still what I wanted. so onward and upward. I just feel like crying for now and yesterday was angry and then last night didnt know how I felt. So im crying for now and well well see where I am later. Thanks Scottie

But were you listening? One more time. Your body has been through a traumatic experience, and both body and mind need time to adjust.

As for crying...DO IT! I do it all the time now, and so does every eunuch, and we find this is OK, this is a part of us. Tears can be part of the healing process. It's OK to cry. You don't have to pretend that you are a macho man anymore, remember?;)

And before you get to angry at the medical persons, please remember that, at bottom, they are probably very worried about YOU, and they really do care about YOU, and are doing their best to enable the healing process. Please cooperate with them to the best of your ability. Thank you.

You DO have my phone number, in case you want to call me for support?